Have you ever felt like this?

Question

I am so depressed. I wish my life was different. Sometimes I wish I was dead. I don't want to kill myself. That's wrong. I just wish sometimes that something would happen to end my life. I don't think that anyone will miss me. My family hates me. They don't appreciate anything I do. All they care about is that I pay the bills, cook, clean, and give them what they want. This includes my boyfriend. He has taught our daughter to treat me the same way. I can't afford counseling. With him not really helping pay the bills money is way too tight for something like that. Has anyone else every felt this way? What should I do? I'm being serious. No dumb a** answers please.

Answer 1

Hi, I am sorry you feel this way about yourself. All of us deserve a good life and you need to sit back and think about what you want and make those changes. First it appears you may have depression and your treating physician/doctor can diagnose you and do the treatment necessary so you can start the healing process especially if you can't afford counseling at this time. I don't believe your family hates you but some families are very selfish and can appear less loving. Your daughter however is being misguided and is a product of what she is taught and how she is nurtured and you might want to get her away from those that are influencing her in a negative way. Again it seems you know what you want and where you want to be its the point of making those changes and change isn't easy but in the end you will find happiness. I am glad you don't want to hurt yourself and realistically your daughter needs you and you can live a happy life but changes need to occur. So start with going to the doctor and telling him/her about your emotional state then address the issues at home and making a plan is helpful. For example: what relationship do you want to address first : your boyfriend, then other family members and so on. Make sure you know what it is you want from them either its respect, to get a job etc. If things don't change and you are still unhappy with the way your family is treating you than moving out and taking your daughter might be the best decision. Also be confident in yourself and remember you deserve better and no one should be treated with disrespect mentally or physically. Good luck and make the changes you need before it gets worse and you get stuck emotionally.

Answer 2

If he's not paying any bills then there's only one thing he's really good for. You have a daughter, so you know exactly what I mean. I don't mean that in a bad way. Boot his butt out is what I would do first. Who needs a deadbeat dad?

With him gone, he'll have to contribute with child support. That way YOU WILL get the help you need from him. This will also teach him a lesson on responsibility.

Your family hates you? I don't think they hate you just for the sake of hate. I think they simply hate your lazy boyfriend and the idea that you stay with him. Perhaps they take pitty on your daughter. That would be one of the big reasons for a family to (sort of) disown a child.

Answer 3

I'll make this short.

There are organizations that do counseling for free, or at least at a greatly reduced rate. Find one, you need therapy, and perhaps medication. Either way, you already know you need help.

Second, you need to gibve serious consideration to leaving the BF, take the daughter with you and find somewhere to go, you will be better off. He already contributes nothing to you, and teaches your daughter to treat you with disrespect. The money you save by not buying him food, will help towards a babysitter.

Whatever you do, good luck

Answer 4

Yes, I have and sometimes still do feel that way. Therapy is expensive but many communities have programs for free or at a discounted rate. Also, some therapists will pro-rate the fee to what you can afford. And if you have insurance they may pay for some therapy.

You and your boyfriend are teaching your daughter through your behaviors. If you get help and get strong that is a great message for her.

Answer 5

Yes, I have felt like this. Okay, you need to make them stop treating you like this. You are not there to serve them. You need to stand up on your own and if you are the main money maker, you are the one to be in control. Oh, yeah baby. Make that child listen. No more disrespecting. Stop doing everything. I know you think , if I don't nobody else will do it. Start small, by saying, after eating I would like you both to take your dirty dishes to the kitchen. Then, after showers, I need you both to pick up the bathroom for the next person. Sometimes people like you and me, feel we are the only ones who CAN do all this stuff. Crazy thinking for us. Have them start folding towels from the dryer. I've learned not to care how they are folded, as long as they are. Little things start to add up as a big help for you. If they don't help, stop doing it. We are not Superwoman. I hope you will stick up for yourself. You sound just like me, so stop letting them walk all over you. You need a break, before you start thinking about leaving them.

Answer 6

soreness is a unusual factor. Burning a finger or stubbing a toe can harm all nighttime, yet as quickly as I shattered my wrist into 20 products (bones protruding), i did no longer sense something in any respect. i assume i became merely into "operation mode," and that i found out that soreness may be a incapacity in getting needed scientific help. i do no longer think of the worst actual soreness can come on the factor of the psychological suffering many people have suffered. Merry Christmas, and all the main suitable to you and your loved ones. And be careful!

Answer 7

If you can't afford counseling, two other alternatives are:
1) Go to a church and talk to the minister about your issues.
2) Do volunteer work. It's amazing how that can help cheer me up when I'm depressed.

Answer 8

i know what you're talking about. Granted, I'm only 17, but I understand completely. I'm on pills and in therapy, though, but pills are only a part of it. Not even half of it. I say, talk to the people in your life and tell them how they make you feel. If they don't care, they're not worth it. No one deserves to feel this way, and no one deserves to be treated this way. Get yourself out of a bad situation and you'll feel better because of it.

Start feeling good about yourself and finding out that you're worth feeling good.

Good luck!