How to cope?

Question

I've suffered from anorexia twice before... For awhile I was okay, I didnt mind eating after I recovered...

Recently, every time I go to eat I end up taking a bite or two
and I become completely disgusted with the fact I'm eating, and I become completely overwhelmed... I end up just sitting staring at my food and my mind races thinking of how fat I'm getting and how many calories are in my food...

I've been trying to ignore it, and finish eating, but it's getting harder and harder... Recently I've been puking sometimes because I feel so disgusted (3 times in the last week)...

I'm really starting to struggle to eat and I'm scared I'll fall back into anorexia again...

Answer 1

And it sounds like emotionally and mentally you are already back there.

You need to be working with a medical and mental health professional. You're not cured yet.

One thing I used to get myself to eat, was to NOT tie my eating to the table-bowl-spoon-chair routine. I would eat by the handful as I passed through the kitchen. It helped to get me eating again.