What do u think about this?

Question

I am writing this not as hate towards god, but as to why I don't believe in him no more. If you think, or know, you're going to get offended by this. I APOLOGIZE, but this is just how I feel. I was doing my usual exercise last night, when all of a sudden I remembered when I was on the phone with my grandpa. How he used to tell me all these cool stories and we would laugh and w/e. we would talk about when I would finally be able to see him in Mexico. I hadn't had the money or time to see him so that's why I didn't. Sadly, he died before I ever got to see him, before my mom got to see him again after 10 years. The same story goes with my grandma, 2 months after my grandpa died, my grandma did too. So I started thinking, why? Was it cause I didn't pray enough back than? Was it because I didn't go to church? Was it because I sinned? But I was the person who did all that stuff, not my grandparents. My grandparents believed in god all the way to their death. And yet they had a rough life, most of my uncles and aunts treated them like **** except for my mom and a few others. But my grandparents still loved them, and still worked hard even if they were old and tired. And when they died, they didn't die in their sleep. They had a bad death. So tell me, what the **** did my grandparents do badly?
Also, not very long ago. I and my mom got into a fight over religion because I told her I wasn't catholic no more. And that I didn't believe in god no more. So she than said "Because of god, we have everything we have now, because of god, we're safe and in good health, and have a home." She also said that because she had a bible in her car, she hasn't been in major accidents and god has taken care of her. So she said that and other stuff. And that's when I felt like yelling at her what I thought, but I kept my mouth shut.
This is what I think to answer her questions, and other things.
We have everything we have now, because my mom has worked her *** off as a single parent. She has managed to work so damn hard so that my brother and me have everything that we have now. Thanks to her, we have food in the table, and this computer i'm typing on. Not god. She has the jobs that she has because she searched for them when she lost one, because she had the friends to help her look for ones. Not because god put it in her path. She's in good health because she took care of herself, because she knows how to treat herself when she gets sick, what to eat, what not eat. And she knows how to prevent from getting sick and what foods are healthy or not. Not because some god gave her good health. This counts for me too, if I get good grades in school its not because "oh god, thank you! I passed" No! It's because I eighter studied for the damn class, or just got lucky at answering, or I cheated of some persons work. That's why I might get good grades. My mom hasn't been in a bad car accident not because god took care of her, but because she's a good driver. I've seen her drive and she drives with caution, and knows how to take precautions when driving. If some maniac hasn't hit her, it's because simply some maniac just hasn't hit her. Not because god made sure that maniac didn't show up. Also, I and my mom crossed the border. (Yes I am legal here, but she wasn't born here so she had to). Her, me, and a few other people walked for a week, day and night in the desert. No god took care of us in the desert. We crossed successfully because we had someone who knew their way around the place. They knew where to go and where not to go. When, and where to eat and rest. We didn't get caught because he knew when to hide and where it's safer so that we wouldn't get caught. The person had experience. And we didn't make it across without a scratch; we had our good share of bruises here and there. People in many bad disasters have died, like in 9/11 or hurricane Katrina where was god than? I'm supposing he had a reason for it? So you're saying he solves everything by death, oh that's just ******* great! In 9/11, some people probably didn't believe in god, but I'm sure there was a mass majority who did, and probably some dedicated huge parts of their life to god, and what happened? Some crazed people flew some planes into the towers and other places in the name of their GOD. In hurricane Katrina, people died, and lots survived. No, not because god watched over them. But because they prepared, they got the hell out of there, or they knew where to go, how to survive, instinct told them to go to the rooftop maybe or some other place, and they got rescued. God didn't come down and get them out there. People themselves risked their own lives to save other people.
Many people have quitted bad habits like drugs or whatever, no god did not help them, and they helped themselves. They got the determination to quit; because they knew what they were doing was wrong! They snapped into reality and saw the damage they were causing. God didn't do anything, they did it themselves, they uncovered great determination and the will to quit. God did not give me life, my parents did, and they are the ones who had sex, so the semen and egg met and blah. And my mom took care of herself while I was in her womb. They are the ones who gave me life. I think by now you got my point. And I stopped praying off course, because I realized that all that praying is USELESS unless I, ME, MYSELF, make w/e I prayed happen. Not to wait for god to magically give it to me or make it true. Most religious people follow god so that they can get a reward(heaven) when they die, because they are AFRAID of hell. Some do things just so they don't risk going to hell. But that's some; I know there are people who do good things out of the kindness of their heart. And yeah, I'll respect peoples religions, I wont dislike them for what they believe in. they go for what they think makes them happy. And that's all pretty much why I don't believe in god, I lost all faith in him. And one more thing, if there's ANY religious person out there who doesn't like or hate people who don't believe in god (and I'm sure there are) WTF?! Aren't you supposed to love thy neighbor or enemy or something? Well you're sure showing a good example about that aren't you? Good job.

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When i used to pray, i didn't pray for material things. i prayed for the safety of my friends and my family. and even after my grandparents and all that has happened, i am HAPPY. i love life, and i love the people that i am around with. god did not give me strength, i pulled my self together after all the bad things. because i knew crying and grieving is no good. you gotta accept what happens. i just put this to show WHY i don't believe in god. and if it seems like im mad at him, you got me wrong. i am not, i just simply won't stand here and expect for god to help me in my life or protect. i will protect my self the best way i can by choosing wise choices.

Answer 1

Too many people treat prayer as a wish list for God when it should be just the other way around. Jesus prayed "thy will be done" just before going to his own horrific death. We ought to pray for God to reveal his purpose in a situation instead of just expecting him to accept our version of the way things ought to be.

Answer 2

I am very sorry that life has thrown you the short end of the stick,and you have suffered many losses in the process,including your faith,This is quite a common occurence ,when things pile up on us ,we lose our energy to fight it. I must tell you that I have been through a similar process and yes I questioned what my beliefs were in a very big way.I did not realise that I was still grieving,for the losses and the past that I could not change.Grief has no time limit ,it will take you through many stages,Sadness,lonliness,anger,hate, every emotion that you can think of and roll them all into one.You sound like you are still grieving ,yor mom sounds like a wonderfull caring person,that has sacrificed a lot to look after you in the best way she possibly can.And that is all we all can ever do is the best way that we know how.I would suggest to you to go to a grief counciller it will enlighten your many questions and issues and you will be amazed at how you are not alone and the only one that has ever felt this way.Take time to be gentle with yourself and resolve some of these issues,with your mom and Know that what you are feeling is a normal grieving process we all go through this at some stage in our lives.Time does heal but to heal we must let go of anger. love and light

Answer 3

Sorry you have so much anger in you and sorry about all that has gone on as well. But why do you blame God for everything? Why not give Him some credit? I noticed everything that has happened that is good could not have come from God or so you say..bad things happen to us all, my grandson at the age of 5 was killed, but I don't blame God, I could but why should I? I could hate God but I don't, instead He has given me strength and love and comfort through these hard times. Did you ever think that maybe your grandma and grandpa was just wore out and tried and was ready to go..Cherish the time you had with your grandma and grandpa, as well as your mom..And something else you need to listen to your mom she is telling you the truth, and you should really stop blaming God for everything bad that has happened, Life is rough we all go through hard times but if we really want to we can make it..You sound like your young way to young to hate God and not giving Him a chance...

Answer 4

Oh well you're going to Hell for what you just said mister...not, I completely agree with everything you say...my grandfather (who was a DEVOUT Christian) died a very painful and slow death (quadruple bypass and he died from the effects of said disease) so where was God then to help him out? And when I just prayed for the strength to get over it...nothing happened...until I realized that I MYSELF had to get the strength...now I respect peoples religions even when they try and stone me (actually it happened to me before, no lie) so who's the more 'Christ-like' in that example? But I believe that it's humans will to do whatever it is that'll make or break us, not some omnipotent being...

Answer 5

Hey Alex. I get the feeling you mostly needed to vent. You're angry and confused. Who wouldn't be in your circumstances? You're right to be angry; you feel betrayed. So did I once, and maybe this will help you a little.

I used to go to church, Sunday school, and all that. Then my baby sister died. I wasn't angry at God, because, for years, as far as I was concerned, there was no God to be angry with. The God I was TOLD to believe in doesn't bring sick babies into the world to suffer and die, and bring unbearable grief to all who love her.

Over the years, I've come to my own understanding of what God may be, what God means. Sometimes I think we're meant to experience pain so overwhelming that we drop what we've been told to believe, and come to our own, deeply personal, beliefs.

In short, we have to grow up. There's no Great Father coddling us if we're good, handing out rewards and punishments.

Sometimes things happen that are out of our control. Sometimes life just plain sucks. It's okay, maybe even healthy, to doubt, even to lose faith in God. What I think is NOT okay is to forever give up on seeking what's beyond this physical world. You may not find the same God you were told to believe in. What you do find will be AUTHENTIC because you will have found it yourself, out of your own efforts.

The great thing is to not give up. I wish you peace, Alex.

Answer 6

God doesn't kill people; it's just the course of nature that people come and go. Maybe it was the bes time for them? My favorite saying (as a Muslim is this):

Happy is the man who avoids dissension but how fine is the main who when afflicted with discourse shows endurance.

Never lose faith in God; He is there if we need Him and He will never place a burden on anyone that is too hard for them to bear. If you have any more questions please ask.

Answer 7

Alex, you are wrong about God. He has heard every prayer you have prayed or thought about praying. He loves you Alex. Just because you dont think he has answered your prayers doesnt mean he hasnt. First of all , are you praying for material things for yourself? Sounds like it. Even though you claim your Mother has providred everything you need. It was God who enabled your Mother to do this. You see Alex , God feeds the birds,but he doesnt drop the worm in their nest. They have to go out and get them. Likewise we as humans must work for our food like your Mother has. I am not mad at you for not believing in God. I am sad . You see sometimes people say there is no God so they can continue in their sin and not feel guilty about it. Examine yourself and see if this applies. If it does , please listen to your Mother. Christ died for you, and it sure looks like your Mom is a servant of Jesus. Dont reject God. Come to Christ.

Answer 8

You know the god-dee two shoes are gonna put their 2 bits in here. Not me. What I can't figure is...if they are born with sin, why do they continue to live? They look forward to the day they will die so that they will go to heaven instead of living a good life here(which can be made into the garden of Eden). How does dying figure as good works and access to heaven if you haven't helped your brother while you were here?

Answer 9

Dude, I feel your frusteration... just know that you could not have prevented anything thru prayer or anything else for that matter. When it is a persons time to go, then it is their tiem to go.

All I can do is encourage you to ask God to become real to you. Just talk to God, if you have to cuss at God, do it. Pour your heart out to Him and leave NOTHING behind. He does not mind, he wants us to have relationship with him, the good, the bad and the ugly.

If you have any other questions, please call, Ill be happy to expand!

Answer 10

WOW! a little angry at God right now? Its God that gives us the good friends to help us along. There is a proverb that goes,"I will help those who help themselves" and he IS helping by giving us friends, and as far as the life thing goes, they created you from their act, but its by Gods miracle that those cells divide and know where and what to make.
Dont lose hope in God, give it some time to figure it out. Do this, pray for his blessing to "prove " to you he is here, and you shall receive it by way of a blessed feeling in your soul, in your life.
I think we all have these types of thoughts and feelings at one point or another in life, just dont give in.