Am I a ho?

Question

I'm going to be 29 in a few weeks and Ive slept with 17 people. Sad thing is that most of these I slept with I was drunk and it only happened once. A few of them I barely remember sleeping with. I try to block it out...but i know it happened. I'm ashamed...I didnt lose my virginity until i was 19, i always thought i'd sleep with just one person. Alcohol has really messed up my life in that aspect i guess. I still drink it though. I also have HPV. I'm not suprised...last time i was tested my pap was normal. I really want to let my past go and move on, but i feel like i will never be a good person because of these things i did.

wow, that's pretty ****** up people...especially when i'm saying that i was so drunk that i dont even remember some of these times...sad things is i have friends who slept with more than me

here's the other thing: i racked up the most numbers when i was 20. At 24 I got divorced (yes i've had a lot of sadness in my life). That was 4 years ago...in 4 years, I've had sex with 4 5 people...now yeah that might be a 'ho' to some people...but i'm sorry, i wasnt about to become a nun. All the people i was with i wanted to be with since my divorce.

oops was supposed to say i've had sex with 5 people not, 4 5 (;

Yep, i kept count. I could tell you all their names, where they live and a little bit about each one of them.

Answer 1

Yes, you are. *u*

Answer 2

Don't listen to these people especially gabcasta he is a liar. You are not a ho! You have some issues to deal with Ill give you that, but its not anything you cant get over. I'm sure you are a great person. Alcohol is a factor in your problem. Try to cut a few drinks a week and see what happens. You should be honest about the HPV though, because you don't want t put that burden on anyone. Of all people you should know how much that effects your life. Are you on any meds for that? You are 29 years old. You have to remember that you are a special person and you deserve a loving relationship, regardless of your past. You need to change your habit for you. Make the decision to change. See what happens you will be surprised. Good luck. I have faith in you :)

Answer 3

I'm sorry that you are having a hard time. The truth is that everyone has a past. Everyone has something that they have done that they regret and wish they could take back. Take a deep breath and realize a few truths about life. If you live in your past, you will ruin your present and your future. You cannot live in your past. Look to your future. Deal with the problems that you have, but your problem isn't the drinking or the sex or even the HPV. Those are surface problems. Your problem is much, much deeper. Your problem is spiritual. It is that you searching for something to fill some void in the depths of your soul. You need to fill the void with something that is going to last -- sex isn't. You know that it's only a few moments of pleasure, and afterwards, you are still left with that void. Drinking won't help either. God will. God is there if you would just run to him and allow him to hold you up during this time. Realize that your past can be wiped away. God said that he makes all things new. 2 Corinthians 5:17 says, "So if anyone is in Christ, there is a NEW creation: everything old has passed away, see, everything has become new." You can become new if you choose to be in Christ. You are not a whore or anything like that. If you realize you made a mistake and want to turn your life around, then you are like everyone else -- human. There is hope in God. If you want to talk, you can email me through my profile. God's peace be with you.

Answer 4

Congratulation 19 yrs first time nice accomplishment but now 17 people hummm. You know drinking makes you
" easy " but you continue to drink and have sex with whom ever around. A ho know what she going and doesn't care so in some truth yes you are a ho. You know what drinking does and continue to do it but I dint have to tell you that. Some might say your just being friendly but you think diff rent right? Believe me **** get old quick and now day very dangerous. Question if all these " men " boys sleep with you without even knowing you what make you so sure they don't do this every night. You talk about pap so I take it its unprotected nice going ma. I don't think you a ho but stupid for not having enough respect for yourself and your body. If your mad at this point good that mean it hit a nerve learn from it. A true friend would tell you the same.

Answer 5

You are not a 'HO' as you are not sleeping with these guys for money. I think you should stop drinking alcohol, as it has many more downfalls to it than benefits. There is no point beating yourself up about it now though as it wont change anyhing, it will just get you more down. You should use your feeling of 'ashamed', to give you the determination to change your lifestyle and give yourself more repect. All those guys didnt have any emotional feelings for you, they just saw you as a piece of meat they could get pleasure from. You dont need men like this in your life. If you save yourself until you meet the right person, who isnt a jerk, it will make it more special. Play hard to get, and let them chase you for abit. This will show how much they like you. These ones are the ones that you will most likley have a long relationship with. Dont be easy, as men will not respect you for it, and more inportantly, you will not respect yourself for it. I hope i helped. You are not a 'Ho', just respect yourself. Stop dwelling onthe past. And as they say, "Yesterday is history, tomorrow is a mystery and today is a gift, thats why they call it the present". Good Luck! x x x x

Answer 6

I won't call you a whore or even a slut, but I do think you have a problem.

Booze.

If you frequently drink to the point you don't know what you are doing, you have a problem.

Find an Alcoholics Anonymous group in your area, or talk to a substance abuse counselor.

These days, it is way to easy to pick up something that penicillin won't take off to be having promiscuous sex. If you are only promiscuous while drinking, you really need to look at your drinking pattern.

Good Luck. I hope you can straighten up before something bad happens to you.

You are not a bad person, you've just made some bad decisions. Let them go and turn over a new leaf.

Doc

Answer 7

Well dont blame it on the alcohol for your inresponsibilities. Why have sex when you are drunk and not remember. That is really risky and it could cost you your life. Like getting HIV. I think that you need to start loving yourself and being responsible for your actions. So start today. Learn to control your alcohol consumption. Become responsible while you still can and not regret when something worse happens you dumbass. God I wish I could just slap and wake you up. You can start by making a policy to not sleep with guys when you are drunk.Find yourself a good man and learn what it is to connect sexually,instead of feeling empty all the time.

So today look yourself in the mirror. Let go of your past and make a brighter future for yourself. So go to the doctor make sure that you dont have HIV/Std's/ or anything else. As for HPV we can monitor it and I have had an abnormal pap too,but I have only one partner. So dont be so hard on yourself and become responsible for yourself. So I have repeatedt the phrase responsible so many times,but I am trying to make a point. So love and respect yourself. And dont blame it on the liqua. You are the one wiht the brains and who makes her choices for ones self.

Answer 8

Yeah you'd probably be considered a hoe if you blatantly stated you slept with 17 people, however here we can get your backstory and what not. I consider hoes girls who sleep with guys and don't think twice, but here you are seeking help and I think you can put the past behind you. Don't forget the past, just try to change and learn from your mistakes, try and get help for your alcohol problem and you can turn your life around. You had a problem with alcohol, and no i'm not saying this makes it ok to sleep with 17 people, but it acts as some sort of explanation. It's never too late, you'll be fine if you get the help you need :)

Answer 9

Well my lady I do not believe that you are a whore, you have a drinking problem. Go get treatment for alcohol abuse this should lead to a clearer and cleaner self image. Alcohol is a drug and is addictive and also affects different people in different ways. I used to drink as a teen and was violent, nothing to be proud of either! I stopped drinking at 21 and have not been violent since. I still can enjoy a drink on special occasion but I do not do regretful things any longer. Good luck!!

Answer 10

The obstacles in life you pass are the ones that teach you. Learn from your mistakes, and try to be a better person. If you feel ashamed, that means you know what you've done was wrong.... so that means you have a conscious and that you're not a bad person but one who is weak. You have to become strong and not let your past make up who you are. Make the the future determine that, and you can still do it. Good Luck my friend, and I wish the best for you.

Answer 11

Hey the bottom line here is you shouldnt be drinking because you end up doing the wrong thing. Your lucky that HPV is all you got from your behavior. You shouldn't be so hard on yourself..just do the right thing now. I would not classify you as a ho but you need to be careful and treat your body better so you are around to enjoy a one on one relationlship with someone who cares for you and just to enjoy life. G'luck and keep your head up.