this is my poem of my past experiences
plz be serious & tell me what u think
its the original draft w/ no changes whatsoever made to it yet!! opinions that r serious would be nice!!
Alone with a blade
Smooth and cool
Sharp and small
Slowly and tight
I lead the steel with care across my wrist
Each problem
A new scar
Stolen hearts
A new scar
Abusive love
A new scar
The blade loved me
And I loved the blade
It comforted me
Took away my anger, my love, my memories
I would get lightheaded and dizzy
I lost focus but cut deeper
Blood poured
Tears poured
Not within reality I would close my eyes
And let the blade sink in more
Bite my lip
More blood
More pain
But it felt good
Better to hurt physically
Rather than my heart having to suffer
Fists clenched
Body frozen
It was cold
It was freezing
My arm throbbed
My scar forming
The blood was drying
But I needed to go deeper
I couldn’t give up
The memories still held within me
My pulse I could now count
2007-07-13 17:52:04 · 13 answers · asked by randiie 1 in Health ➔ Mental Health
continued from top.................
I was losing more blood but even more pain
I opened my eyes
My arm red and shaking
I look in the mirror
Skin pale and ghostly
I can’t even look into my eyes
Everything will come back
Because eyes bring back memories
I lay down
So exhausted from fading
I close my eyes tightly
And dream…….
2007-07-13 17:52:47 · update #1
thnx to all of the suppport
and kenzie
ur never alone feel free to tlk to me ne time
im 15 btw!
2007-07-13 18:03:32 · update #2
&& to the people who say dont try it
well too late i have already been doing it && have greatly cut down and im recovering......but this poem is from how i used to feel and ocasionally how i still feel
2007-07-13 18:05:05 · update #3
you are NOT crazy at all! that is a very good poem, and its very philosophical and full of emotion. You should write more often or whenever anything is bothering you. I write a lot, and i've come to realize that journaling, writing poems, etc, has helped me a lot with dealing with my depression and anxiety, etc. Just remember if you ever feel that things are out of control or you are contemplating suicide, go to the hospital, call a hotline, or see a therapist. Things will be fine and i respect you 100% for putting this poem out there and not being ashamed by it!
2007-07-13 18:07:02 · answer #1 · answered by chainsaw_massacre 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Are you referring to cutting (parasuicidal behavior, seldom life-threatening) or actually slitting a vein? You're not thinking right, your pain is thinking for you, but hon, that doesn't make you crazy.
I think your poem is disturbingly descriptive, and exposes your soul. Writing about it can be cathartic, but your poem sounds more like you're recounting memories of a surreal love affair. The romance of self-harm seems more pleasurable than recovery, am I right?
If your family doesn't know about this, maybe they should. If you're not already seeing a professional, you definitely should. What you're going through requires help that can't come from an online community of any sort.
I haven't cut in a good while, but I am a cutter. I haven't overcome the urge, I just haven't had the urge lately. I know the draw, the desire, the near-ecstacy, the feeling of pure release and relief that only cutting can bring. But the scars it leaves are not only on your skin, they're on your heart. And the short-term "high" from cutting is followed all too closely by guilt, shame, remorse, even betrayal because your source of relief was so temporary.
Keep writing - start talking - you're worth it. So very worth it.
2007-07-13 18:10:58 · answer #2 · answered by mrscjr 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Wow, this poem reminds me kind of myself. I used to feel the same and sometimes still do. But I got stuck in a mental hospital and I am now an out-paitent at a mental hospital. I have many scars nearly everywherde. (More than my wrists) But as for this poem. Its realy deep and you are a good poet.
2007-07-13 19:03:44 · answer #3 · answered by Brittney B 1 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I used to write poems when I was depressed. It helped me to express my "darkness." Your poem is real and sad and painful, and beautifully written. I'm so glad your getting better, but remember...baby steps..The feelings will be there naturally, but it's the refrainment that counts.
2007-07-14 10:25:48 · answer #4 · answered by zen 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I liked it! it is a little choppy, but the ideas and the discription were beautiful... do you have more? i love dark poems, and no, youre not crazy. Keep on writing poems like this, it will help you vent you urges to cut. writing is good for that.
2007-07-13 21:49:54 · answer #5 · answered by Me 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm glad to hear that you have limited the amount you're cutting. You need to find another way to express how bad you feel, one that isn't so destructive to you. You deserve to feel good, as we all do. There are no good reasons for you to suffer if you don't have to. Please look for other ways. They are out there, you just have to look!! Good Luck!!!! Great poem, by the way!!!! :)
2007-07-13 18:54:14 · answer #6 · answered by pupcake 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Pls. get some help .. you are to young to be hurting .. next time you get the urge to cut pls call 911.. You are not crazy.. iam hurting reading your words as you can see i am a grand pa. remember this God Loves You and so do we.. Ed
2007-07-13 18:12:55 · answer #7 · answered by Grand pa 7 · 1⤊ 1⤋
I cut myself, and it's true, I felt everything described in your poem. and really made me feel like I'm not alone anymore.
2007-07-13 18:00:41 · answer #8 · answered by macncheese27 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
girl i know what you saying i wrote poems like this before an its a good poem i like it..... just dont try it but if you think about it just contact me
love cassi
2007-07-13 18:03:06 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
am 15 gone threw it i write like that also..i would never classify you as crazy becuase then i would be doing that to my self. cutting was my relief...now luckily ive grown to stop and also grown to yearn for the sweet razorblade kiss on the lips of my tender wrists. Please IM me we can talk for ever!
*BTW: my names Jess*
2007-07-13 22:38:38 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋