I'm 15 next month, for the past 4 years I have put up with my mentally ill mum, constantly shouting, picking on everything I do, moaning and arguing. Something to do with her condition means your not suppose to argue back, which I try hard not to do.
But I think its had an effect on me... I don't care for anything now, I don't care for anything or anyone. I told my dad last year.. he said "I don't know the answer" ... he was always against taking me to a doctor for some reason.. until yesterday when I told him I was planning on killing myself.
But now I don't feel anything would help me... I don't care anymore... I don't want to listen to a doctor telling me how I feel anymore... sure 6 months ago I would have thanked him for taking me... now I don't care. I'm giving it until Monday for something to improve. Ive got 60 aspirin and 200 paracetamol which I believe is enough.
I don't want to.. but I see nothing else to do.. does anyone know anyway I can somehow feel happy again?
2007-07-13 03:59:59 · 21 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
I thank everyone for there kind comments but frankly I have lost the interest to care for myself, I just think its better I get it over with then have this pain and anger for ever, thank you and good luck in the future.
2007-07-13 04:18:28 · update #1
DON'T GIVE UP.
GOD LOVES YOU, AND I LOVE YOU.
THIS IS A CRY FOR HELP, so please accept help and caring from us and from Jesus.
Your Dad made a mistake by not helping you a lot sooner, but it is not too late.
Right now, go give those pills to your dad and tell him to keep them away from you.
Call a teen help line 1-800-448-4663 or suicide line at 1-800-273-8255
Listen to the doctor and if that one doesn't help, go directly to get another.
Yes, you will be happy again. This is a dark time for you but you will make it through. I promise. God promises.
You're only 14. Don't throw it all away.
If you absolutely can't stand it, move away from Mom--a relative or friend or foster home can take you in for awhile. You deserve to have a life!
I'll be praying for you. Live, Live well, Live long
2007-07-14 05:22:03 · answer #1 · answered by gentlesoul 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Gregg,
No one really wants to kill themselves they just want the pain to stop. You need a different doctor. If the one you already saw was not a therapist that's what you need. Your desperation is understandable but be assured the way you are feeling can be made to go away. You might be a tad pre-disposed to depression or mental imbalance genetically since it seems that your mum is. There might be some very simple medications that can help your brain chemistry to normalize, but what ever is plaguing you i promise it can be alleviated. Please talk to a clergyman, teacher or another adult about what is bothering you and please do it right now. Talk to your dad again. The doctor he took you to is not right for you and he must understand you need to try someone else. Try to find a health clinic in your area and go right away. All is not lost even though you feel like it right now. You are going to be happily surprised at how this will be turned around. Do not despair, young man, help is around the corner and if you just get the tiniest bit pro-active the ball will start rolling toward getting this behind you. You are in my prayers (and you should be in yours too.) and please tell us how you are doing. Do not do anything rash. You are going to be o.k. Keep your distance from your mum when you are feeling sketchy and vulnerable like this and remember she is struggling as well. People care about you and what you are going through. Your dad does too and is trying to find out how to do the best for you. Sometimes this does not come as naturally for fathers as for mothers, but know that he wants you to be all right and loves you. Please do not take any of those pills, killing yourself is not the answer. You have your whole life ahead of you and it's going to be wonderful. Go talk to someone this instant and they will respond to you. You need someone else right away.
Iris
2007-07-13 04:17:57 · answer #2 · answered by irisheyes 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Don't do that. Seriously. I know everything seems really sucky right now.Just take some deep breaths.
Maybe ask your dad if there is a family member you could stay with for a little while, to get away from the stress from your mom if that is not an option just try to stay out of the house as much as possible.
My father had the same problem with his mom. He said he would leave in the morning and just hang out with friends all day until evening in order to keep from dealing with her. Please please do not kill yourself . You're so young and there is soo much stuff you will be able to do sooon.
It will be over.
Sooner than you think , but longer than you wish .
Throw out those pills.
Good Luck.
As for feeling happy again, hang out with friends who make you laugh. Smile alot even if you don't have a reason I was reading somewhere here on yahoo answers that if you hold a smile for sixty seconds it releases endorphins which will raise your mood.
Also you could email me, unless that creeps you out either way just do not end your life.
Take care.
2007-07-13 04:13:37 · answer #3 · answered by Victoria. 6 · 2⤊ 0⤋
Wow, Wow, Wow there Colonel Kamikaze! I understand that you are in a real tuff spot right now and you have been stuck there for a while. But you are almost to the point of breaking out of it... Hold ON!
I have shared an experience similar to yours growing up and can sympathize with how you feel. Until now you have been at the mercy of your parents and not really able to get away on your own. But you are getting older now and with that come greater independence.
Understand that you are not in this by choice and there is not much you can do to avoid it a lot of the time. Try to develop your sense of humor to help with these ruff times that you cannot avoid and keep in mind that it does not last forever. As soon as you are 18 you can go out on your own and won't be subjected to it then.
Until that time arrives involve yourself with extracurricular activities to take you away from the situation as much as possible. Get a job or something. Do whatever it takes to fill your time away from the person causing the misery.
There is a saying that goes "What doesn't kill you makes you stronger." I have found it to be true. Use this negative aspect of your life as inspiration to buckle down and do more with yourself. Immerse yourself in studies and activities and work so that when you are 18 you will have as many opportunities as possible to go it on your own.
You also really need to speak with a professional Mental Health Counselor about this immediately and on an ongoing basis. There are opportunities to seek their counsel without parental consent. Obtain the information for your community mental health center, contact them and explain your situation. They can advise you on how to obtain counseling without parental consent. Your school counselor can also help with this. Please speak to a professional immediately!
2007-07-13 04:46:20 · answer #4 · answered by Nick FXDL 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I have been in your situation before , thought there was nothing to live for, but there is. I never knew what I was experiencing at age 15 was depression , it wasn't until my husband finally dragged me to the doctor after 11 years of marriage and said you need help, I fought it i didn't want to be called crazy, or mental etc. But let me tell you it's the best thing he could have done for me , it was difficult in the beginning i swore i didn't want to be on medication but thats what it took to get my life back. I am happily married to the same man going on our 25th anniversary this year, we have a beautiful daughter we are very proud of she is (24) Also going thru depression but she finally aknowledged it and she too is on medication ( depression runs in my family, but she is a much happier person now )
If i would have killed myself I would not be able to sit here and tell you how happy I am.
You really need to acknowledge that you have a problem and get help, immediately , I want to here how you grow up to raise a family , be a successful person in life, life is too short as it is, so PLEASE GET HELP RIGHT AWAY.
Take your father's help, dont take the easy way out , if you wan tot love life you have to fight for it.
Good Luck and stay safe and alive
2007-07-13 04:16:39 · answer #5 · answered by kitkat 2 · 0⤊ 0⤋
...it sounds like you are depressed ...severely...please, don't take your life...about a year ago i thought about the same thing...but i didn't do it and i'm still here and now i'm trying to help you...i can easily understand why you are extremely depressed and if i were in your situation i would want to do the same thing.I was put on medication for my depressed moods, and you will probably need it too..i had to go through many medications before i found the one that worked for me....but things i did when i didn't have the medication were:reading books( usually poetry, long novels, gloomy books) i also drew out my feelings and let myself go through music. i also read ghost stories.wrote dark poetry.i exercised A LOT and wrote funny stories that cheered me up...just try to keep yourself distracted from everything...sunlight has also been proven to up moods...
I REALLY don't want you to leave this world so young...i know there will be better things in your life, even if you don't think there is...i know there will be..if you get over this time. you can help others that felt the same as you...and you'll know their pain...and you could help them get through it...pray to God, he will help you through and he has a plan for you and that is why he put you on this earth....He will help i'm sure of it...just have faith in Him..i know He doesn't want to see you end your life....
i just want you to know if you are reading this, there are people that care for your existence...and even though i don't know you, i want you to stay in this world....
2007-07-13 05:44:55 · answer #6 · answered by Blah 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
What are you goals for YOUR self?
what are you doing to acheive those goals?
if your mother was all better what would you want to do with your life?
why not make a movement for other people in your shoes! not so much friend or doctor just to be there for someone else who is going through what you are! start a mental ill mother blog!
a friend of mine who never came around did kill him self his mom wasn't 100% all there but she wasn't to far off her cracker but she was weird~ he started not to care just like you noted. did i tell you he could draw... he was an out of the box thinker and was on his way to free ride at some great school (note 100%) but talent was there! But he gave up! so sad..
try changing your mind set to i don't care what others do i'm the winner and get my goals!
Good luck
coping.org is a great self site your mainly anwsering questions to yourself by yourself. you get to draw your own conculisions too!
might help might not! that is up to you!
2007-07-13 04:17:17 · answer #7 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
You are in a stage of your life where you are biologically driven to gain more control over your life, but paradoxically, society and technology cannot allow your independance for another 3 years or so.
At your age, 3 years sounds like forever, but really it is only a fraction of your life span. Wait it out, you'll be glad you did. Your current situation is not forever, soon you will have control over (and all the blame/credit for) what happens next.
Use the next 3 years to build options for yourself when that time comes.
2007-07-13 04:11:39 · answer #8 · answered by Daniel T 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hey
There is nothing in this entire world worth killing yourself over. Your mom is ill. She cannot help what she does, but she is your mom and you will not have any other mom. As you get older you will learn all this. Please think that you are a good person and people care for you and your mom does too but she cannot show you this now. Just be happy and know that we all care and your family cares about you
2007-07-13 04:06:28 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 5⤊ 0⤋
Go to you emergency room. Tell them how you feel. You'll probably benefit proma short stay in the psych ward. Dont worry its really not a scary place Dont tke the pills. The amount you had in mind will only destroy your liver and not kill you then you'll be walking around depressed and needing a liver transplant
2007-07-13 04:18:07 · answer #10 · answered by Dietcokelover 3 · 2⤊ 0⤋