What Is Wrong With Me? I'm about to give up.?

Question

I'm 22 years old and I feel worthless and about ready to pack it in, and I have no idea why.
I'm not suicidal (yet), but I'm to the point where I could be driving down the street and wish that someone would hit me, and that I'd be out of my misery. And when I think things like this, I also think "Would anyone really miss me?"
I feel so alone, and with no direction. I have no job (my past couple of jobs have made me so depressed that I'd cry in the stalls of the washrooms), I'm heading to school next year but I keep thinking that if I gave up on the jobs, am I just going to give up on school?
I have no boyfriend because a few years ago I was extremely hurt by my one and only long term boyfriend, and I feel like my heart has a scar across it now.
My family and friends have become so distant, that when I say I feel alone, I honestly mean it. Sitting in a dark room, with no one but my thoughts.
I just want to feel better and have motivation, or at least know what's wrong. Any help?

Answer 1

I am feel so badly that you are having such a difficult time. You are very depressed. Please speak with your physician and please consider therapy before you go to school. I have been where you are and know how terrible it feels.

Hugs to you.

Answer 2

well i know exactly how you feel I have no job no friends no family and myy only ever boyfriend who i love is about to brealk up with me, I feel like running out on the road sometimes i even hope to get cancer or something just so that people will care for me. I sit at home alone and just watch Tv my loneliness is killing me I cannot handle jobs either, I am a totall mess I cannot handle life anymore, i have nothing to be happy about!! I dont know what to do, but knowing that they're are other people going through what I am makes me realise I am not alone!!!

Answer 3

You need to see a health professional. Doesn't matter if it's a doctor, gynecologist, whatever. If you don't have insurance, try your local health department or your clergy if you go to church. They can point you in the direction of free or low-cost counseling. Even Red Cross can help you with that kind of thing.

No matter what is going on in your life, if you're having thoughts about 'What if I drove off the bridge?' 'What if I dropped the knife just right?', you need to talk to somebody. You may need counseling from a psychologist, a therapist, or maybe just medication.

Also realize: At 22, if this is your first time away from everything familiar, going to university can be a scary thought.

Answer 4

This is a sign of depression, you should see your doctor and tell him everything you've said here, they'll know a plan of action to get you the help you need right now, a therapist/psychiatrist will bring out all those feelings you are dealing with, keep a journal of how you are feeling each day and bring it with you to the doctor's, you are only 22, you have so much life to live, believe me, you are not alone to suffer, many of us have been there, hang in there and good luck.

Answer 5

Don't listen to "MadForMAC"! She obviously has no heart!

My daughter is the same age as you and she get's VERY depressed too. She now see's a phychologist and she takes med's and she does MUCH better on them. Just make an appointment with your local "mental health" clinic. They charge using a sliding scale, so you may not have to pay much at all! You honestly don't need to feel the way you do--- there are soooooo many different kinds of med's that you can take to feel happy!! Best wishes to you!

Answer 6

My opinion is to get a good start in life is to go to school and study and study. Go for a certificate program or a degree. Forget about men for now they will distract you from your main objective in life - which is to finish school and get a good job. Things should fall into place after that.

Look to God read the BIBLE it is comfronting to know that when you feel your lowest remember GOD is there watching over you. Don't be afraid to ask him for things. He will never turn away from you or look the other way. Keep a picture of Jesus with you at all times and when you feel your lowest look at him and just talk to him. He is listining.

Answer 7

The "would anyone really miss me" is a tip off, it shows something else going on, possibly you need to stop thinking so much about yourself and concentrate on others.

So what if you have no boyfriend, doesn't mean something is wrong with you, just means you need to move on and stop this
martyr trip you are on. Everyone gets hurt in life, you need to learn how to cope better and be more mature. Next time, just be more careful. Learn from your mistakes.

I strongly suggest you see a counselor for some talk therapy and find out the root of all this.

Answer 8

It's normal for people to feel like that sometimes, and I think most people feel like that once or twice in their lifetime. I would recommend going out meeting new people, finding a hobby, get a dog if you like dogs. Go to animal shelters where ever you live and get yourself a dog you can run with and go places. Exercise rises the level of your endorphines which brings natural happiness to you. So exercise, run, join a gym. Good luck don't think of hurting yourself NEVER please.

Answer 9

I know this feeling all too well. I think it's time you see a psychiatrist. You can get a lot of benefit from medication and certain kinds of therapy, such as cognitive behavior. Good luck with everything.

Answer 10

You are overwhelmed with many emotions, and possibly depressed, do you have someone to talk to? It sounds like life is hard for you right now, and will continue to feel this way until you have someone to talk to and help pull you out of it. :)