i want to die?

Question

i need some serious support or to vent-im in a shitty situation-my boyfriend is very abusive-he always tells me he wants to punch me in the face-and choke me and that he hopes i fall down the stairs-he wants me to cook and clean and shut my mouth-have no opinion-not to talk unless talked to-im not allowed to pursue any of my dreams-i have no friends-i have no family-my father passed and mom is ill -i dont know what to do-i have no money,no car,its his house since he pays the bills,i dont have anything-his family is VERY supportive-im in mesa,with all his family-his family doesnt like my children because there not daniels-i have no access to a phone unless i begggg him to use it-in front of him-for some reason i just want to end my life-i stay because-him and his mom will take custody of our daughter-i have no money,no home,no family,nothing-except for the clothes on my back and thats it. im using his computer-because he thinks im paying his bills online-please dont make fun of me-

Answer 1

There ar two places you can go to for immediate help. The House of refuge-east located at 6935 E Williams field rd. and La Mesita Family shelter located at 2254 W Main St. If you can't get to them get to a neighbors house and call them the numbers are House of Refuge - [phone] and La Mesita - [phone].
Whatever you do you must do it now! Before your child also becomes a victim to this man and his family who seem to think that what he is doing is acceptable. Worst case scenario is to call 911 and tell them that you fear for your life and the life of your child.
I don't know anything about you and I am telling you this on the basis that this is not some sick joke, but, I have seen too many women stay in this type of relationship until they were found dead in a back alley somewhere. Get out for your sake and the sake of your child!!!

Answer 2

Honey if this story is true (its the Internet cant always be sure) get out of there its not doing any good for you or your children, if you havent got anything then go to the social there help you just report yourself and your kids as homeless and they house you within 2weeks to temporary housing if you have a child under 16 they will give you your permanent living space within 3-5months, your bf's parents have no parental responsibilities over your daughter if you report your bf as abusive he wont either, also go to the doctor and explain how your feeling talking to an authoritative figure really helps trust me..! don't let a guy rule your life you have your children to think about.!
Good luck take care and do what makes you happy.
oh and I'm assuming your in the UK for some reason lol..

Answer 3

If you can't find the strength to leave for yourself, think about your children. Your daughter is watching you and learning. Is this what you want for her? I know it is not and it's not what she wants for you. There are shelters. Make preparations and just get out! Take a cab. Or pack just what you need in a diaper bag or whatever and say you're taking the kids to the park and never look back. Your children will give you the strength you need. Pursue your dreams. Make a life for you and your children that doesn't involve some man making you his slave. That is what you are, his slave. This is a free country and you are a free woman. No one can treat you this way unless you continue to let them. And when he starts punching on you it won't stop there, he will go on to the children. Get out while you can. Never look back. I know it looks hopeless right now, but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. he is temporary. Your children are permanent and deserve a good life. You deserve a good life. Go get it!

Answer 4

Hi, Im 13 too! I know exactly what you're talking about! I was like that for at least 9 months and I still have slight feelings of sadness/depression, I still am very hyper and my brain is constantly buzzing, and I used to think about how regretfull everyone would be if I died and how sorry people would be and I think I know the answer to your problems and please don't get mad at me for saying this...I think you have ADD or ADHD. I have ADD and when I was diagnosed the docter said people (especially teens with a high load of stress...even silly, made up stress) have anxiaty which leads to sadness. The best way to deal with this is go to a psycholigist or a docter and ask them about it. They will help you a lot!!! I'm now happy, my mom and I have a better relationship, and my grades are a lot better! I can now talk to people about this because I know I'm not crazy and I know what's going on. I wish you the best of luck! I hope I helped! -Julia =)

Answer 5

Contact the nearest safe house for abused women, and then when he is gone, take your child and leave everything behind. Don't go back. They will help you get on your feet.

If you can't do this on the computer, the next time he is gone, leave. Call the cops if you need help getting out of the home.

You are a mother and have a child to be responsible for, you got yourself into this mess and you need to get out. Ask your mother to ask other relatives to help you, flee to the church or a church, call 911, walk if you have to, but get out.

Answer 6

Run away while he is at work or call the police. If you cant get to a phone you are on the internet now leave someone an email with the information for police to get to you. You are in desperate need to get out of there. Even if you use the phone in front of him call 911 let it ring til they answer and hang up they will send a officer out to your home and you could tell them then and they will get you out of there...

Answer 7

Take your child and go to a Crisis Center now!!!
You are in grave danger and so is your child..and they will not get custody of the child unless there is abuse,neglect,or physical or emotional abuse. Don't let them fool you any longer...and get a restraining order as soon as you leave! Good luck and Jesus loves you.

Answer 8

contact your local Domestic Violence Shelter and go immediately ---with your daughter---and the courts will protect you and your child....you are a person of worth and especially to your child(ren). Don't take any chances with the threats of violence....I completed a forty-five day program with my son--he is now twelve--seven when we left....and we have not looked back....i will soon obtain my degree and the college and my social worker have had my back the whole time....If you file a restraining order....no one will take your child from you, DV shelters have advocates that will assist you in getting the restraining order while you stay at the shelter.....please do this for all the abusive men and all their abusive/hateful/hurtful threats......think of your self and what this negative BS is doing to your ability to properly care for yourself let alone your child(ren)....send me an email and let me know how I can help.....please.......;(

Answer 9

Go to a womens shelter. They will help you and your daughter figure out what to do next. You need to find the strength to get out, this relationship is not only harmful to you but to your child as well. You dont want your daughter to grow up thinking this is what marriage is supposed to be. Show her how to be healthy and happy, teach her to be a strong woman by being one yourself.

Answer 10

Not being funny but get out while you can. I play alot on this site. But I am being serious right now you can do anything if you put your mind to it. Don't let them tear you down. Who will take care of your daughter if you take your life?????? Don't do it!! If anything let her be your strength to GET OUT ASAP!!! You can go to a church or something I am sure someone will help you out if you really want to be helped. Don't stay there letting him. Break you down!!