I think this is my breaking point.. I don’t know what to do, and I really could use some people that just want to care. I really messed up this time. There is no one to blame but myself this time… I have a lot of anger built up inside me and I’m just going to end up going crazy. I am 5’9 and use to weigh 170 ( which scene I was so tall I looked pretty normal)
I met this guy and I fell for him.. I mean I have thought about him every day scene I left him.
I need help. I need to be over this, I don’t know what to do.. He has another girl friend and it doesn’t bother me, what bothers me is what he said, and did to me, he treated me good when he was in a good mood….
So this is the problem… I think I’m pregnant, or something is very very wrong with me!!!
I feel this grinding in my lower stomach, when I look at my stomach it jumps, I haven’t had my period scene 0ctober 30. But the last time I had sex was on june8 of last summer, and did bleed between june and October. There is no possible way I am pregnant.. Right? So I guess that I just keep hoping that this will go way, but every now and then I feel something in my stomach… I don’t know what it is
I know I messed up, I wish I could go back and just tell him to get away from me.. I hate him for what he did, and really messed up my life.. I don’t have any of my friends left, and I quit school when I only had a semster left to finish .. I hate myself.. All I do is think about my problem and what he did, and his new girl friend.. I cry, and sit alone.. I hate myself.. Why did I throw everything away??
But there is something inside me that Is pushing me to get threw this.. I would love to go to the doctors but my mom doesn’t have insurace if anything I would love to go to the ER right now because my veins are popping out alll up my arm ( all up it) and that’s not normall.. I’m dying inside I just don’t see what I’m going to do.. Why did he say he loved me? And then leave me and now he is happy and I’m soo alone with this problem?? Is everything my fault.. He had sex with me too.. I dunno what to do..
2007-07-12
14:16:40
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