im 30 now, have borderline personality disorder, and have lived an extremely miserable life, endured trauma, sexual abuse, victimization, assaults throughout my life, i was bullied throughout secondary school,(high school). ive never made any friends in life or have never had a girlfriend or relashionship, i have no self esteem, i have rage/anger problems and i feel very bitter about everything...ive never worked or gained any qualifications in life. dropped out of high school after the bullying,( through 4 different high schools)~ spent 18 months in a psychiatric hospital, because i was crying out for help, and over exagerated my problems to psychiatrists, so i would get the help, i made myself out to be dangerous, & i spent 18 months in a psychiatric hospital.....i sit here in my one bedroomed flat embittered and enraged about my life..i sit here alone and lonely...me..myself and i...THEN: i get to see everybody enjoying there lives, grinning, laughing, sqealing, getting their needs
2007-07-12 07:00:12 · 10 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
met, indulging in lifes pleasures....and me look
at what ive never had, ive never had that, ive never
been fullfilled or happy, and yet the hideous twist
about life is i get to gaze upon grinning, smiling,
laughing girls, when i browse myspace profiles,
view pictures of them pulling weird faces, enjoying
their lives...i see this to when outside.....i sit here
as i do everynight extremely depressed reflecting
back upon my life, back upon the pain, cold and alone
and lonely..and the world still turns and people are still
having a great time,.....without me.....
is this an injustice i ask??...it sure seems this way to me
2007-07-12 07:00:41 · update #1
im aging rapidly to...my looks are going, i look everyday of my 30 years, my youth is fading...my face looks old...i have knuckle injuries, torn ankle ligaments....two missing teeth...bottom front...so looks wise, i dont have it anymore
2007-07-12 07:20:32 · update #2
You talk about having two missing teeth, I don't have any. I lost mine when I was twenty-five. I live in a one bed room apartment. I have a part time job, for retired three years back. If you sit and dwell on you problems you only feel worse. To find life you have to look for it. Only you can control your anger, meds only mellow you. There I go Doctor Emerson.
2007-07-12 14:39:38 · answer #1 · answered by Coop 366 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Your life sounds like it is pretty tough,but you are not alone.Life is hard for all of us and having a mental illness makes it harder.I have to wonder why you are not getting any help,real help.Don't let the labels that you have been given by others define you, if you don't agree or you believe that you can overcome at least some of your problems,then you can make your life better.I do not mean to sound insensitive at all,so don't get so angry when I say that, while their may be some injustice bestowed upon you, it sounds like you are drowning in self pity and you are convinced that you will never have a good life.All of us struggle and all of us know how to make our lives look and seem alot better than they really are.You need help and it is out there and there is nothing to be afraid of, humans can rise up and endure a great deal and prevail.Good luck to you and please take what I say with the kindness for which it was meant.
2007-07-12 07:15:53 · answer #2 · answered by chris99 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hi! Let's try this one step at a time. You are 30, and if you want to be proud of a high school diploma, get yourself enrolled in adult ed to GET one. No one is going to bully you in Adult Ed.. You did not mention being on medication. You know you should be. You are an angry person, mad at others for the life you ARE living. It's time to stop the anger. How do other people get rid of such anger? They go to support groups that are free, and stay on their meds. You will learn what you can change in your own life to make you less angry......you will learn how other people who feel the way you do, manage THEIR lives. When you hear and understand that you are not alone in your feelings, it will help you, right away. You may find friends, there. You need to learn to enjoy your own company, as well. (That sounds like something you aren't interested in, right now, but, that can change). So, first thing, is to get yourself enrolled in Adult Ed, and get your own self pride back to where it should be. Learn not to over-describe your symptoms to the doctors, etc..
2007-07-12 07:41:51 · answer #3 · answered by laurel g 6 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Injustice perhaps. But you have to understand that life is what you make of it. You are no longer in highschool, go back and at least get your G.E.D. If you get that, then look for a decent job. They're rare but rewarding, and making friends isn't as hard if you were to just open up to someone. I know from personal experience that this isn't a very easy thing to do, but If you take baby steps toward self improvement by the time its all said and done you will have a very rewarding life, one which is worth envying from the people you once envied.
2007-07-12 07:06:12 · answer #4 · answered by ~Malo~ 1 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Well, you've posted the same old tripe now for almost 800 times, and the only thing is that your age has gone up by one from 29. Try asking us something else for a change - and I don't mean stuff like "Would Sinatra win a fight". That way, instead of dragging everybody down, we could all cheer each other up. Just think how nice that would be !
2007-07-13 03:52:43 · answer #5 · answered by Norton G 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Dont want to sound cruel or demeaning: you tell the same story almost daily.. We have given you support. Untill you make an honest effort to help yourself nothing will happen.. all the thrapy meds,, support wont do any thing.. Ive been there also.get out see the wrld around you. as soon as i push the send button on here im going out for bus ride and lunch, then down to Stanley Park if if a tourist seems lost out comes the maps and bus routes It takes effort but works wonders..
2007-07-12 08:00:30 · answer #6 · answered by Grand pa 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Your base question is if this is an injustice.
No. Tough luck, but 'injustice' implies you have some right for things to have been different. The world owes you nothing.
You have accomplished one good thing in your life at least, and perhaps you may take some pride and self-respect from that.
You've made me feel better about being 45.
2007-07-12 07:29:36 · answer #7 · answered by ? 3 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Here's what I think.... You make your life what it is. If you want to be happy--be happy. Its a choice. Other people can not stop you from being happy. If you want to be fun, and enjoy life-- then do it. Dont let other people stop you. Go to local places, interact w/ the locals. Just make a choice that the life u have and the life u want can be the same thing and will be. Be happy and stop w/ the 'poor me' syndrome.
2007-07-12 07:05:26 · answer #8 · answered by Nicole 3 · 3⤊ 0⤋
I think broding is stupit to be blont. The girls that you saw where haveing fun. It is unjust but not unavoidable. You don't have to be ALONE all your life. Get a hobbie. Don't mind what people think about you (unless they think you are nice) Be kind and go outside it will help. I wish you the best of luck.
Anna
2007-07-12 07:15:08 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
I could sugar coat this but i wont. Other than maybe needing some counceling and meds to help you with your depression its called get off your *** and do something about it. Not many ppl have it handed to them, you get out of life what you make of it. Find things to be grateful about....hey you still have a chance of turning this around. Now get off your *** and do it. Stop worrying about what other ppl have and think about what you want. then work for it.
2007-07-12 07:07:20 · answer #10 · answered by vmoore708 3 · 2⤊ 0⤋