making myself ill all because i hate myself?

Question

hey its probly stupid to post this but i have no1 else to talk to i make myself sick because i want to be thin i hate myself and when i look in the mirror i just wanna cry i hate who i am and what iv become people say i ent fat but it just wont click and now when i eat meals i feel ill i hate the way i look and wont even go out the house without make up or anythink i just dunno what to do please help

for one this ist my account im just using it because i dont have one and im not attention seeking im going threw a really bad time and it didt help that my nan calls me fat and ugly so erm thanks

Answer 1

going by your name on here, i don't suppose i would like who i had become if it has any relevance to the way you live............however, you seem very depressed or attention seeking, a bit confused with this one. I would go to a doctor and tell him what you have told us. They maybe give you some help.

Answer 2

Hi there,

first of all *huge hugs* I know what it's like. i am a bulimia sufferer (currently sober as they say) and a general eating disorder suffer and have been for a few years now, so i know the mental struggle that is going on inside you continuously!

it is not stupid in anyway to ask for help, you need it and it's such a brave step to admit you have a problem. I am not sure what age you are but you sound young. You know what I am others will suggest is going to see your Gp. Believe me, eting disorders are so common (unfortunately) that your probably the millionth to walk in and tell them you have this problem! It doesn't mean however that you are not significant because YOU ARE! i know how scary seeking help can be, but you need to do it...if not with your gp, your parents, a school counsellor, uni counsellor etc Opening up if the road to recovery! i know your probably thinking, "i'm not bad enough yet"...but you are, once is enough! Eating disorders are a form of self harm,as i am sure you know, there is a reason usually behind this, whether you can pin point it now or not and talking can help you realise why you do it. often it is for emotional reasons as well as weight ones!

You definately 100% need help, before this sprials out oif control any futher! it is not something to be ashamed off! if you are afraid take a friend with you to get help or to tell your parents etc

you could try self help groups or books as these work for people too but at the moment i think you may need a little more support huni! You could also ring the samaritans or visit www.b-eat.co.uk (if you haven't already) as they are an eating disorder charity with helplines and email advice on your local places of help!

best of luck, i know how hard this can be, you've done the right thing by starting to open up!

xxxx

Answer 3

I kind of know how you feel. And I can only temporarily relieve you; you need medical help if you are making yourself sick.

I have Body Dismorphic Disorder, which means I pick out and obsess about a certain body part for hours upon hours. This can lead to suicide but is definately not as dangerous as an eating disorder. I know how if feels to hate the way you look, even though everyone tells you you're fine. It's terrible and it takes over your life. I have no problems with my eating habits but I have an obsession with make-up and won't leave the house without it either.

The first thing you need to do is get medical help and talk to your parents. You might have to see a physiciatrist seeing as phsycologists can't prescribe medication. It might take a little while to get in, so the only thing you can do until then is TRUST what people tell you. And I know it's nearly impossible, but it's all you can do for right now. When people tell you you're skinny, at least if you don't believe it - say 'Thank You," and at try and consider it. Next, STOP looking in the mirror. I don't care what you do - you can brake them, throw them, punch them, or just cover them up (that's what I do.) Next, try and see what it's like with no or less make-up. You'll most likely be surprised when no one notices a thing. The only comment you'll get is, "You look tired."

Don't do anything too harsh though to make you think of harming yourself. If your friends can't help (they usually can't) you NEED to tell your parents so they can monitor your eating. You have to eat, please. If your parents aren't always there for you, there are plently of BDD and Eating Disorder groups and sources. And you can always talk to me. The easiest people to talk to about this kind of stuff is people who have to deal with it too.

And don't be afraid to tell someone. That's why these types of disorders are so hard to diagnose: because people are afraid they will seem too vain. I KNOW you're not faking it.
I hope I helped a little and get well.

Answer 4

The things people tell us about ourselves can be so damaging. You do need to go and talk to a doctor and get some help. If you need someone to talk to before then, try the Samaratians. They won't judge and you don't even have to give them your real name.

I hated myself as a teenager and my friend tried commiting suicide several times. Some of this is your hormones and some of it is you coming to terms with who you are. Go and see your doctor and if you don't want a parent with you, you are allowed to go on your own and the doctor can't tell them. Do let the doctor know why you don't want them there though.

I hope you get through this and look back and discover how strong you have become even though you felt weak at the time.

Emma
I don't think it's attention seeking to ask for advice from people you can't see, I think its very brave.

Answer 5

You need some professional help. Seek out counseling. You must understand that you need to be strong mentally to defeat this, a counselor may be able to give you the tools to do it.

Enlist the help of friends and family, be honest with them about what is going on to get support.

You need to change your mental view of yourself. I cannot understand this obsession with being skinny. I can understand being healthy and active, which usually gives you a toned body, but skinny looks sickly to me and usually is given how some girls get that way--not eating.

Try to be honest with yourself and figure out why you feel this way about yourself. Take some quality time with you and journal about your feelings, where do you think these ideas came from, were you abused, is it media-based brainwashing, what?

Answer 6

you do no longer choose makeup for it - makeup would be observed until you keep it gentle gentle gentle (a fingertap nicely worth of gray/crimson under the indoors eyes, yet another fingertap smeared on the hollows of your cheeks)...however the final way I have been given out of faculty became to stay interior the washing room after the bell rang, splash my face with chilly water, pat myself dry until I appeared and felt clammy, made my palms and brow warm with the hand dryer (do no longer overlook your ears, too, in the event that they are warm, you relatively have a fever in accordance to the nurse), and then mumbled and saved my eyes down and a million/2 lidded. human beings think of you are going to pass out, and in the event that they ask what's incorrect, purely say "I threw up." they are going to be rushing to deliver you abode. do no longer do it too often inspite of the incontrovertible fact that, or they are going to capture on. And save up with your homework!

Answer 7

hi makeing your self sick wont help you one bit.infact it will only make you worse at the end of the day fat or thin we are who we are we should be proud of our selfs look at other ppls lives who cant do much coz they do have a disalbillty and cant look after them selfs

Answer 8

If you dont love yourself, nobody else can, either. Look in the mirror and repeat I Love Me over and over, and dont forget to smile at yourself!!

Answer 9

you need much more help than we can give you. please get some professional help to deal with your self loathing and self esteem problem. don't look for help on this site, trust me.