please don't judge me?

Question

...but i suffer with depression, an eating disorder and self harm and find myself suicidal a lot. The past few days i have been taking insulin, even though i am not diabetic..i only have taken a small unit though and it gives me some sort of satisfaction to know its harming me...or is it? Please don't answer if your going to say something hurtful or you are ignorant to the subject as it does not help anyone!

i see a gp and am awaiting an appointment with the psychiatrist.

thanks in advance x

to trevor and anyone else who thinks i am attention seeking, you are completely 100% right to have your opinion but you do not know me or what i am going through so i don't judge you for your answer. I don't want judged just opinions. I know what i am doing is wrong, of course i do but i cannot see sometimes just how wrong it is as i convince myself it's 'normal'. But perhas you are right i am asking to be judged, but in a way that helps, not makes me feel worse. If i wanted pure attention why would i harm myself and only tell people who don't know me and can't stop me? plus there is much better ways to get attention than self harm. You should also have pity on those who do actually go to extreme lengths for attention, what does that say about the people around them? As i say you are entitled to your opinion, I know what i am doing yes-but it doesn't mean i am really in control or should be. best of luck to you though!

Answer 1

i understand were you are coming from completely i myself have self harmed in the past and have played with the thought of attempting suicide it is a great thing that you are waiting on an appointment with a psychiatrist i have also been to one before please make sure you tell him/her everything you are feeling and doing so they can help you completely they are not judge-mental and will always be confidential you have not said your age but if you are young anti depressants are not a good idea as they are addictive and that is a road you do not ever want to go down ! insulin is not going to be doing you a great sense of harm but it will not be doing you any good either please tell someone your psychiatrist preferable about this hope this helps

Answer 2

Taking insulin in very small doses probably won't do lasting harm, but it is possible that it will interfere with your body's own production of hormones (not only insulin) which could store up long-term problems for the future. If self-harm is helping you cope just now, please try to keep it to something less likely to be horribly regrettable in the future when you are feeling much more positive about your life.

I'm guessing from what you say that you see your GP fairly regularly, but if not, make an appointment soon. Even if you don't intend to tell her/him about the insulin, you might do well to push your need to see a psychiatrist a.s.a.p. Really hope that things work out soon - you deserve some good help so that you can be more fully yourself and happier.

Answer 3

Insulin is an anabolic polypeptide hormone that regulates carbohydrate metabolism. Apart from being the primary agent in carbohydrate homeostasis, it has effects on fat metabolism and it changes the liver's activity in storing or releasing glucose and in processing blood lipids, and in other tissues such as fat and muscle. The amount of insulin in circulation has extremely widespread effects throughout the body.

Insulin is used medically to treat some forms of diabetes mellitus. Patients with type 1 diabetes mellitus depend on external insulin (most commonly injected subcutaneously) for their survival because of the absence of the hormone. Patients with type 2 diabetes mellitus have insulin resistance, relatively low insulin production, or both; some type 2 diabetics eventually require insulin when other medications become insufficient in controlling blood glucose levels.

Aside from uses on diabetics there are also other uses for it including using Insulin to enhance the effects of the chemotherapy agents, smaller doses of chemotherapy can be given. Some doctors believe insulin increases the cancer cells absorption of the chemo agents. Because of this, less amounts of toxic chemo agents can be used to greater effect, not only more effectively treating the cancer, but greatly lessening the side effects and toxicity dangers to the patient.

There are many "snake oil" selling loonatics though, often with web sites that insist it's a cure-all that'll help with anything from a runny nose to eternal life - but you know how those guys are! They're all NUTS!

So, in short, it's really silly maybe more than anything. Shouldn't be healthy and couldn't possibly help with your eating disorder. (By potentially throwing off your attempts to maintain a healthy diet) It certainly isn't the safest thing and in the long run could really have some bad effects but this would more likely have the ultimate result of forcing you onto life support or killing your liver leaving you to live your life in a hospital waiting for a donor... It could even back-fire enough to cause diabetes. (so basically the negative results are more likely to make life suck than to end it anyway and I don't mean "suck" in a way that many people are likely to consider tolerable).

So stop it would ya? :-)

Answer 4

Certain doses of insulin can place a person in insulin shock. This used to be a treatment for depression. I don't believe it is used any more.

Insulin shock is very dangerous and can kill you if it happens and you are not under a doctor's care. If you continue taking unprescribed insulin and feel yourself becoming very agitated or extremely nervous, immediately eat something to counteract the insulin.

Frankly, I believe you are acting out more than anything but playing a very dangerous game that can kill you. The very fact that you posted what you are doing here is a sign that you are crying out for attention. You had better watch your step or the game will be over for you.

Answer 5

Even Small Amounts Can Hurt You In Wayst Dont Take Large Amounts. Infact, Please Please Stop This. You Run The Risk Of Seriously Harming Yourself And Putting Yourself In A Coma. Ive Suffered From Depression And Have Attempted Suicide So I Know How You Feel. I Hope You Recover Sooon! x

Answer 6

Yikes, i've always contemplated insulin but never actually taken it and being a nurse it is always a temptation but seriously it can do more than just a bit of harm. You'll slip into a diabetic coma and die. It's really dangerous stuff messing with your sugar levels. Please tell your gp or psychologist about this,

Answer 7

say something hurtful, me?
never.
i'm glad to know that you are seeing a GP & hope you get that appointment with the psychiatrist soon.
as if you do not need the insulin, yes you are upsetting your body by doing this.
whose insulin is it? can you ask them to put it out of your reach as you wouldn't want to make them go without, would you?
you need to talk to someone about this self-harm, an organisation that helped my friend is in the 3rd link below.
they will understand where you're coming from & won't judge you.
take care of yourself.
talk to someone today.
:)

Answer 8

Insulin is bad for you if your not diabetic and well if you keep doing it it will become addictive and a habbit which will prove very difficult to kick and well there will be long term effects, i cant be exact on what they are but i wouldnt advise you to keep on taking it, Try you best to stop now whilst you can Good Luck x x x

Answer 9

Sorry to hear you arent doing too good...
Readin the beginning part sounded like reading about myself...I actually "suffer" from all the same things so i can understand the way u may be feeling...
I dont actually know anything about the insulin so sorry i cant help you there but i just wanted to say that if you ever wanted to chat then feel free to email me...
Good luck with seeing a psychiatrist!...I hope it goes well for you!...
Take care and stay strong...
Once again feel free to email me if you need to talk...
Xox...

Answer 10

u need to stop taking it get the GP to hurry up the appointment with the psychiatrist when i was ill and self harming i got told to wear a elastic band round my wrist and every time i wanted to hurt myself really ping the elastic band it did the trick for me I'm not saying its OK to do this but its better than what Ur doing now take care