I'm so depressed i want to die?

Question

about 4 weeks ago i cut my wrist i spoke to a shrink it did help for a while but im starting to feel like i want to die again im 40 yrs old a heroin addict ( in treatment) waiting to go into rehab but yet i cant get the feeling out of my head im also home less living any doorsteap i can find last night i got moved on 4 times by the police and little things like that get me down i just cant get myself out of this slump what the hell can i do please help me if you can thanks for all you time...

all you folks out there who want to know how im on this site well i attend a drop in centre for addicts and we have internet access and do computor lessons as well as other things just one or two things to improve ourselfs so all you folks out there who think i talk bullshi@ i hope this answer is of satisfaction for you (smackheads) are not all idiots this one ist for one also first off all to get a job you need a home to get a home you need income to get income you need id as most homeless people will tell you id is a big problem for us i hopr this settles a few things for you oh yes the manchester library also has free internet access ...

hope u read this shell think outside the box .........//////////////////////////////

Answer 1

hi,
you have a very moving story, its also good that you have done something about your addition, now why dont you try and get into a hostel for the homeless and get a roof over your head, that should cheer you up a bit and go and see your shrink again, if it helped once im sure it will again, good luck to you and l hope it all works out for you x.

Answer 2

I'm so sorry to hear the way yo are feeling. I know you how you feel I have been there before and its not a nice place to be.
You have to keep telling yourself this wont last forever it will get better.
You are probably saying to yourself life isn't worth living cause things cant get any worse. Take each day at a time and believe me things will get better.
First you need t find somewhere to stay even if it is only temporary. What about a hostel or something ring the Samaritans and some local charity the Salvation Army are very good with homeless people and good listeners.
Then make 2 lists what you don't like about your life and 2nd what you would like to achieve and start to tick of your list each one you achieve when you get started you will be back on top in no time.
You must be a very strong person you have came of Heroin it takes a strong person to do that.
BELIEVE in yourself you will get there GOOD LUCK
if you need to talk you can e mail any time I'm not saying I have the answers but a problem shared an all that.....

Answer 3

hi, i am not going to preach (i think) and i am not going to tell you to that life is great. Life doesnt sound so great for you just now but i know it can get better. I dont know where you stay and what housing support you get but i do know that the current legislation says that if you are unintentionally homeless your local council MUST offer you temporary or permanent housing. That means you may not get the best of the best but it would at least be a roof over your head. I see you want to die but if thats the way you feel how much worse can you feel, the only way is up. I cant tell you what would help you because i dont know you and am not you but i would like to say you could maybe find that thinking of the opportunities or the things you can change in your life are better than thinking of the things that are wrong with your life at the moment. Think of where you have been when it was going good and is it really impossible to get there or better again. A good friend of mine was told once if he had put half the effort he had put into getting a hit into getting his life back it would be easier than he thought and belive me he would try anything to get a hit back then. He is now helping people in the situations he used to be. WHEN you get there just think of the knowlege and experience you can share with others. Life is hard and there is no manual but when we get through the hardships what treasures there are to be found. Maybe yours are just buried that bit deeper so you need to dig that bit more. I really hope you the best but the sunrise and the seashores and the people you are yet to meet in life are to spectacular to miss out on. You have the power in your life....how you gonna use it? x

Answer 4

First of all, I send you respect for getting help for your addiction, I have never been in your situation and I can only imagine how hard t is for you.

Next up, whilst you have life you have hope so whatever you do don't give up on life (I know you are probably thinking it's easy for me to say). Try to look at the better things in your life - You are obviously a strong person to have gotten help, By the way your question is written you are also an intelligent person. There are so many people out there who lack these things.

Do you have a drop in centre? Or a hostel that may be able to help you to find a job or accommodation? I know you said it is difficult and I completely believe you but there has to be somewhere you can go to get some support.

Do you have anyone in your life you can talk to? Or who can help you find out information?

Life is too short to throw away so please stay strong, I cannot guarantee it but I have a feeling that if you hang on in there through the bad times then the good times will follow.

Another thing I can say is don't listen to all those ignorant people who have tried to put you down on here, they have no right to doubt you and from experience on here I know that people can be nasty but they are ignorant.

Stay strong and never give up. You can do this.

I am here if you need a friend.

Emma

Answer 5

hmm. try to love yourlife, life is short, look at the bright side, u r going to rehab soon, this is ur biggest oppurtonity so dont let it go , there is always a second chance in life, so take it... and there is always a hope when the sun rise,
i know that what i said may seem silly, and actuually i cant feel what u r going through, im not an addict, but i have had moments whenlife seemed so dark that iwanted to kill myself, but i was afraid of losing something good that i still may have, and what i did is just trying to be a shrink and apatoent in the same time hehehe its a nice and funny game, u should try it,
and the rehab will be really helpful for u to start over,
Have a nice day

Answer 6

Hang in there. Ignore the people who are judging you. Obviously, they can't look at their own flaws. So they'd rather pick on someone else. Probably makes them feel good. keep going to the counselor and a psychiatrist. You are taking all of the right steps. When you go to rehab. they should help you find housing, work, and possibly an ID. I know some homeless shelters will help, after you are "clean". Also, some mental hospitals will help. Especially, state funded ones. It will be a long process. You CAN do all of this.
Please don't hurt yourself or give up. If you want or need to talk e mail me @
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P.S. I have friends and family who are in similar situations.

Answer 7

I know what it's like being homeless, the council don't help you unless you're a "priority" case, that is being a child or having a child, if you're not one of those, it's damn near impossible to get into even a hostel. what you can do, and the police should have told you about this, is to go to an emergency shelter, they set them up in churches or community shelters, look at shelter.com
if that doesn't help, you could always find "god" and go live in a monestary.
As for dying, I don't think you do want to die, i think that you're saying that because you think it's the only way to get peoples attention if you really wanted to die then you would've done it already and not ask our opinions. But look on the bright side, if you don't really wan't to die, you still have some hope inside you.

Answer 8

the depression comes from the after affects of the drugs especially when all the dope is gone. I know that it seems very hard for you right now but you have to suck it up and help yourself now. The devil is very busy and will come to us in all forms of the things we enjoy that is not by the laws of the land. i too have a problem but I take Zyphrexia and it really helps me with the Oh-Wow is me. I tell myself how mad i am at myself because i can mess up real bad. and the next day when the hunger steps in along with all the not done responsibilities you are bound to become depressed. Don't kill yourself because you don't know what your problem is and why waist all your energy by being depressed. I am a manic depressant and I take my medicine every night that way i don't have the time to think about unhappy stuff because my medication works just fine.when you become sober you will not feel depressed or suicidal because you'll be able to see your life as it really should be and could be.

Answer 9

Ricky perhaps that's your problem Time and too much of it. Have you tried getting out and about. Yes I know when you are feeling really shixxy it takes a lot of effort to get out there. Perhaps your shrink can put in contact with your local Community Psychiatric Nurse who could introduce you to groups in you area who have been through what you are experiencing...it does help. I was given heavy doses of morphine when after back surgery resulting in depression so I understand what you are going through.

Ricky you are the only one who can pull yourself up by the boots laces so you will have to make the effort. I hope you are getting support from a CPN if not speak to your doctor and ask him to arrange a visit for you.

All the best and stay focused and not on harming yourself. Sorry I can't be there to help in more.

Answer 10

Cant you come to a homeless shelter something like that or a ymca ?? They maybe able to help you are you eating ok as well ?? Im 17 so you can take my advice or leave it i k ow your older but i have also self cut over 30 times i got the scares to proof it i stop by if i want to self cut expressing my anger or pain in a poem, song or even art work if i feel i want to self cut i get a ice cube and hold it in place on my arm where i wanna self cut its the same pain just without blood and the scares of get a rubber band and place it where you wanna self cut and pin it again same pain only leaving a little mark but no blood or scar. I wish i could help you i know im only 17 but im a girl who wishes she could help everyone in the world and i wish i could put you up and feed you sadly i know my fiance wouldnt like that but please dont kill yourself i belief things get better and i will prey that they do for you

please email me or add me if you wish to talk further