I am about done here. I think I've over-stayed my welcome and I need to move on.
Long story short ...
Almost 2 years ago I should have died. I was suffering from multiple organ failure and my doctors gave me about 3 months. I was in the Hosp, on Dialysis, in liver failure and I was done. I made my peace then. I was discharged from the hospital to hospice and dialysis ready to go, but I got better. Now I owe half a million in Hosp bills because I had no insurance, they froze my accounts, my wife wants a divorce, I have no money, my job is in the toilet and I'm still unsure if and when my health will deteriorate angain.
Yeah, I'm a sad and pathetic loser whining on Yahoo answers but not looking for sympathy. If you make snotty remarks that's cool because at least I'll laugh. I've seriously had it! I made my peace before and was given a bit of extra time. I could not hack it. I'm ready to go now. But I really want to know your opinion. When I go, is there anything else?
2007-06-30 23:27:05 · 5 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
My doctors have no idea what happened. I was tested for everything. They though I had an autoimmune disorder but that's not completely consistent. They thought Primary Sclerosing Cholangitis but again, That does not completely explain what happened. Everything in my body was wrong including a 40,000 WBC with no infection. they still have no idea what caused this or if it will happen again.
Bankruptcy won't help because I still have no money to live on now. I had $92,000 in liquid assets and they want that. I will hav no place to live, and I just don't really care anymore, When I was in th ehosp I spoke with the clergy and I was ready to go. I should have just requested max morphine and I bet someone would have done it because I was in serious pain then.
I just want to go, I know it sound overly dramatic. I guess I just want someone to talk to before I do. I'm deathly (bad pun) afraid of being alone and I don't like pain.
2007-06-30 23:50:22 · update #1
If you quit dialysis, and go crazy on your high potassium foods and your fluids, you'll give yourself a massive heart attack and die. One of my patients had terminal cancer and decided he'd had enough. He had a good dinner with his family, including a couple 2L bottles of Mountain Dew, mashed potatoes, fruits and vegetables, etc., and he died the next day. Just be sure that this is really what you want. Be sure to talk to your doctor and social worker.
There will be those who won't like this answer, but they should realize that this course of action isn't suicide. Really, it's just withholding medical care. It's like a cancer patient not wanting chemo, or a heart disease patient not wanting open-heart surgery. Sure, you die a lot faster, but in the end it's all the same.
2007-07-02 17:43:22 · answer #1 · answered by Dave S 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Seriously, don't give up on life yet. You might be in a bad situation right now, but what's the worst that could happen? Maybe you only get one chance to live and one chance to die, so while you're here, don't let that stuff get you down. If you really want to go that badly, you could die at any time, so why not postpone it a while? If you really want to get away from it all, maybe you could run away to Mexico or Canada and change your name and hide out. I'd recommend Mexico though, nicer weather, lol. ..Though, with the liver failure, I'd probably stay away from alcohol.
To answer your question, I do believe in life after death, at least in some form. Seeing so many people with numerous ghost stories of loved ones that passed, little stuff like that, kind of hints that there at least has to be something. :] Best of luck with your life.
2007-07-01 08:11:18 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋
If you believe in God and accept Jesus as your Savior you will spend an eternity in heaven and there you will be at peace no more pain or fears or sickness just peace and the love of God that is with you now and always - and remember if the Lord closes a door somewhere He opens a window
2007-07-01 06:59:31 · answer #3 · answered by cheri 7 · 2⤊ 0⤋
well,...unless you can afford a really expensive air conditioner, you just might not be comfortable where you are going to end up LOL...just kidding honey, you're not going to hell...look..you're not a pathetic loser,..you are here for some reason...file bankrupcty,..it stays on for ten years...but you get out of the stress of all those bills and start rebuilding your credit...start putting in resumes' while you are at your crummy job, and think positive..look to the future, ..try to save your marriage,..you didn't say why your organs failed,..drinking?..sorry, but a friend of mine just went through the same thing...over booze...don't die honey, the grave is where we go to sleep..the endless sleep...You were spared for a reason, and what the reason is, we don't know yet..but don't mess with God and Jesus,...They have a plan for you, and it aint up to you to mess with your future...I am telling you, I hate to say it, but sometimes bankruptcy gives you a new start...get a new job, and maybe when you get the new job, after your wife has gone, you'll meet someone better..although I hope you work it out...It' s okay if you want some sympathy...you've already BEEN to hell....and back..God Bless honey, just say your prayers, and let the Lord take you where He wants you to go..throught Christ Jesus, of course...oh hon, please don't leave this world...tommorow might be the day you win the lottery...something will give...maybe take a second job, and then you don't have to listen to your wife's bitching lol...Please, you sound like a smart person..I am sorry that you were ill...You will be okay...maybe the second job would help...in the meantime...turn to God and to Jesus for prayers, and let Them lead you out of this mess...They've helped me for years...don't know what I would have done, without Them in my life...my prayers are with you sweetheart
2007-07-01 06:37:27 · answer #4 · answered by MotherKittyKat 7 · 1⤊ 0⤋
hey hey you sound funny:) well you can always go meh stuff it....or you could go **** it...get a divorce completely move states- go nuts....live life on the edge....like nothing to lose-if you snuff it get broke-someone kills you its all good cause thats what you were planning anyway?? so you could go nuts or could bugger it.....whatever takes your fancy:)
good luck:D
Liz
2007-07-01 07:18:57 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋