self mutilation part 2 To all christian...?

Question

recently,i have been very stress with my tuition,studies and confusion.. i feel pretty angry with myself as i faced all this kind of problem and i feel tat i am very slower learner person....i feel totally hopeless...during tuition time,when i couldnt understand the subject,the first thought came to my mind is self mutilation..i angry with myself..i was thinking why God create me as a slow learner person ..this is the 3rd time i cut myself..after i cut myself,i feel the sense of relieve..wad to do??just nw i feel like cutting myself again but i couldnt find a sharp sicssors which i put in on my table...

i love to cut myself and self-pity..why it happen??i just simply like the feeling

i always love to think in negative way cos i feel gd...why???

Answer 1

Somewhere along the line, you have associated hurting yourself as a way to punish yourself for your short-comings. Because you feel that 'punishing' yourself somehow makes things better, you turn to that when you feel you have let yourself down, and that you are making things right by hurting yourself, because it's somehow acknowledging that you weren't 'good enough'.

Please; get help.

If God created you as a slow learner, it was so that you need to take the time and focus on what is really important, and reach out to others if you need help. Stop punishing yourself, and realize that for every person you think is smarter than you, there are ten more who feel as if they 'just aren't good enough.'

Find something GOOD to focus on...do something constructive...and if you need some perspective, go volunteer in a battered woman's shelter or at the food shelf.

Ask your doctor for help, and tell your family the truth.
Cutting can not only kill you, it can kill others by its influence.

Answer 2

I know how you feel. I just cut myself today. I asked God to just kill me. I'm in school too, and college is hard. I felt dumb this whole semester, and had the grades to prove it. Social relationships were horrible. All in my first six months of this year were some of the most depressing I have ever had. I don't know if I can help to tell you not to cut because I do the same thing, and I don't want to be hypocritical and tell you what to do when I suffer the same thing. I do know that the Lord doesn't want either one of us doing this. I have been looking up stuff on Christians that self mutilate all day, which is how I found you talking about the same thing I feel right now. Self mutilation is a form of self hatred. When we cut ourselves, it's like we are telling god we don't appreciate him. A good verse to look at is 1 CORINTHIANS 6:19-20 — "Or do you not know that your body is the temple of the Holy Spirit who is in you, whom you have from God, and you are not your own? For you were bought at a price; therefore glorify God in your body and in your spirit, which are God's." I know for me it's like your mad at god because things are not the way you want them to be, but at the same time your ashamed of what you are, or what you have done, so you get angry or cry and just start cutting yourself. It is hard to deal with. I just hope you knowing someone else feels the same way you do helps. Also, just pray. It is a struggle, and I can attest to that. Im me if you need to talk. I'll pray for you

Answer 3

I know what your talking about when you say you love to cut yourself. On one level you know its wrong to do but the other part of you doesnt care and doesnt want to stop, at least thats how i feel. You need to find some other way to punish yourself for starters even if you dont want to. Remove those scissors on a day when your not stressed and do not put them back. Get yourself away from sharp objects you would use when you had the urge to cut or even try the rubber band on the wrist and snapping it till your hand wants to fall off. It isnt the best coping method and still isnt good for you but its worth a try. But as always you first have to convince yourself you WANT to stop which is easier said than done(im still trying to convince myself). But find some other way and know that this is NOT what god has planned for you and theres still hope. I hope I helped. Best of luck.

Answer 4

When I get angry I want to hurt the one that I am mad at. Obviously this is not some thing that I can do with out repercussion. This applies to you too. You need to find help or another way to release these feelings you have if you want to become the doctor you say you want to be. My daughter was a cutter too. She has HORRIBLE, HORRIBLE SCARS on her arms and legs. Please stop cutting your self and find help. I put on some rage music, my choice is Prodigy- Smack My ***** Up or Fire Starter. I put that on and scream out scream along with the songs.

Answer 5

you have to try and stop now, before the addiction gets worse. its good that you are trying to stop now. reasearch cuttin,self-injury and other things simmilar to it to see how bad it is. get a rubber band and snap it on your wrist instead. hold a cold ice cube. scream. throw something at the ground outside. draw. write poetry. scribble. get a journal and write. talk to someone close to you. open up and ask for their personal help. they willl help you. ive done it, and its not good to keep doing it. i know noone else understand much, but you need to get to the point where they are thinking at. they are thinking that there is no reason why you should be hurting yourself. try and resist it and get out your emotions of confusion out in a different way. good luck. i hope you can move on from this. : )