i need help with my addiction?

Question

i was a heroin addict for 16 years and i got off it but i slipped back and i am again doing heroin and crack (injecting)i am in contact with cdt (drug team) but i cant stay clean i really hate myself and feel like ending it all for good but then i bottle it its no life as a drug addict but i still slip back all the time please any one out there who can help please do thanks people a desperate sole

Answer 1

let me try shock tactics

what do you think of when you see this?

http://www.jtf.org/america/www.black.crime.heroin.addict.crop.jpg

well, thats what people will think of you if you dont get clean

you only get 1 life

youre a long time dead

think on that

good luck

Answer 2

I dont know your personal circumstances, but its good that you want to get help. However, your lack of willpower is worrying and 16 years is a long time to be on heroin - its going to take a long time to get clean.

I've always found that addicts really have to hit rock bottom before they'll eventually seek help and stick with it. By this I mean knowing that your family or friends wont take you back again and having nowhere to live or any money and having to get drugs by doing really horrible things that you never dreamt you would ever do. Until that happens I dont think you can ever really give up.

My fiance was a heroin user 9 years ago - this is how I know what I've said is true.

Answer 3

~Your life is worth more than that drug. Either you quit the drug or they quit you, it's your CHOICE. I know it has got to be very hard. Think of all the people you would hurt by not being here. I think you should tell someone exactly how you feel, instead of bottling it up. There's no shame in getting the help you need.
I've had my struggles with alcohol and cigarettes. I don't believe this, but everyone told me quitting smoking is harder than quitting heroin.
You know you can't have just a little, one drink, or one cigarette, you're an addict. I thought I could quit smoking cold turkey and I couldn't. I was mad at myself like you are right now. I know exactly how you feel. Fortunately for me, I had to quit later down the road. Smoking gave me Asthma and I almost passed out, I wasn't getting enough oxygen. I couldn't be around other people that smoked for a long time, I was too weak. I'm stronger now, I let the urge pass.
You will slip up from time to time before you get it right. That's what they told my mom when she was at deaths door, and finally in treatment for 3 months. You have to get back up on that wagon.
Do you have a relationship with God? I think that is important. Ask him to help you.
My ex is a meth addict, I don't understand it's hold on him. He quit for so long. After the divorce, he started using again. Do you know why you are using again? What are the stresses in your life?
Can you get into a treatment center for a longer period of time? Definitely have someone you can call and depend on when you're weak. You can email me if you like.
It was hard for me to quit smoking, but I don't honestly believe that it's harder. I'm just saying I think I understand how you feel. Take Care~

Answer 4

Well done for being honest. I really admire the courage this has taken you and although I cant advise you as I cant say Ive been there I wish you all the very best in getting back on track.

You can do it! Hang in there!

Take Care and don't give up giving up!!

There's also a free helpline which maybe able to offer advice to you..its free and confidential 0800 77 66 00 Talk to Frank. Professional advice. I called when I had a friend on drugs and they were very helpful and informative
hope this helps?

Answer 5

Get back on the methadone. You could go into rehab. You have to get rid of all your friends (the ones on drugs) Maybe move. You only went back because you are weak. If you were clean, you didn't need it, you had a choice, it's once your back on you don't have much choice. Your veins are going to be no good soon. Then you will die. I think you should be locked in a room for three weeks and made to go cold turkey, but that is because I have seen what it does to people and the violence it creates as well as the crime. Be strong and do something!!

Answer 6

Hey hun sorry to hear you have slipped back into your old ways - the best advice I can give you is to post photos of your children all around your house and everytime you feel the need to take drugs look at their faces first and tell yourself how much they need you in their life - it is your children who will suffer the most and how fair is it on them to have a drug addict father or worse still a dead drug addict father.
Think of their future - do you really want to see them in the same situation as you - the chances are very high for them to follow in your shoes unless you show them a better way.
If you can't do it for yourself then please do it for your children and their future.
Take care hun and I hope it all works out for you xx If you still got my email get in touch xx

Answer 7

Ricky, this may sound over the top, but maybe you should relocate yourself to an area where you don't know any suppliers or users. You shouldn't hate yourself because you have an addicition. All of us have hang-ups of some kind. You really don't have anything to lose by moving. So I say pack up, and get out of town. Go somewhere where no one knows you and you don't know any drug dealers. Find a mentor or counselor and try joining an addicts' group. Good luck hun.

Answer 8

Have u any relatives/friends you can talk to? You came off it before so you have proved that you can do it.
Life must be very tough for you now, but you deserve and owe it to yourself to give yourself a second chance! There are a lot of professional people out there that can help, and wont judge you. You have taken a positive first step by asking for help...it will be a tough road but I'm sure you can do it.

“Keep on asking, and you will be given what you ask for. Keep on looking, and you will find. Keep on knocking, and the door will be opened. For everyone who asks, receives. Everyone who seeks, finds. And the door is opened to everyone who knocks” (Matthew 7:7-8).
Good luck, take care

Answer 9

may i first suggest that you seek counselling. there are a lot of people out there who can help you. you've managed the biggest step of asking for help.
I don't know enough about you to suggest the best form of counselling but I can tell you that cognitive behaviour therapy (cbt) is very effective at dealing with addictions.
you need to identify your strengths and your weaknesses and focus on the strengths. figure out from your weaknesses what makes you need drugs. is it more of a physical or psychological addiction? what are the triggers that make you need a fix? identify these triggers and take steps to avoid them.
I'm so sorry that I can't help you further online - you really do need professional support.
Best of luck. xxxx

Answer 10

Like breaking any habit - - smoking, drinking, overeating, or drugging, what it takes is will-power. If you consider yourself better and stronger than the needle, you've got it licked. Now you have to prove to yourself that you're stronger. Grit your teeth, and throw away and paraphenalia that you have. Stay away from other dopes. Make friends with non-dopes who will support you. Good luck. Make yourself a good example to other addicts.

Answer 11

the biggest thing you have done is admitting you have a problem and you r asking for help. if you stopped before you can do it again.speak to your drug team tell them how you feel ask for more support,you only get one life and for all the misery this is causing you are drugs really worth it?.