I'm afraid of my father and I don't know why?

Question

He's never done anything bad to me. He's never so much as even spoken badly to me. He was actually my hero when I was a kid, but I was always scared of him.

I'm always suspicious of what he's doing and when he leaves I'm calmer than when he's there. When he comes back I want to cry and I don't look him in the eye. I answer his questions and try to seem as polite as possible but I'm very afraid of him and I want him to leave. I always think he's doing things behind my back. When I was little and there was a sniper in our town, I thought it was him. I also thought that when he left on business trips he went to his other family and I always thought they had a Labrador Retriever.

When I was a kid I was also obsessed with making sure all the doors were locked and we'd go around together to make sure that they were all locked but I never believed him and would go back and check by myself.

I know it's not normal, so why am I like this?

I'm fifteen and I'm seeing a psychologist for depression.

Answer 1

Have you told your mom about these thoughts? If you can't tell her, then please talk to a trusted adult female, or see a therapist as soon as possible. Maybe something is lying deep in your subconscious mind that is troubling you now, involving your father when you were younger. Tell a therapist your fears, & she can help you, because talking about this will help you. You don't want this to follow you all your life. I was afraid of my dad for years, but therapy helped me resolve my fears.

Answer 2

there are many things locked inside of your subconcios that the world will never touch. you have problems this you know for sure.you say your seing a psychologist have you told em what you told all of us? if not then I imagine that it is not your father that youre scared of it is being close to him. did you lose somone close to you when you were young? this could of triggered these emotions as a self defence mechanism so that if you ever lost who your truely closest to you'll feel relief instead of grief. you should tell your therapist how you feel, they can help you while you are seing them and remember they get paid to make sure that you end up with the help you need in the end if the problem can be solved.
good luck

Answer 3

You don't say your age, but it seems you have issues with your father. Is there any way you can talk to a counselor from school or a psychologist? Something is inside you that need to come out. Something when you were a little kid. I hope the best for you!

Answer 4

Good Evening,
It is good you are seeking help.. But you need to talk to your doctor more in depth to assure you are getting the proper medication.. You seem to have a touch of Obsessive compulsive disorder..be honest with your doctor.. Tell him the next time you see him..

Answer 5

It sounds like you have OCD Obsessive Compulsive Disorder. You should consult a psychologist.

Answer 6

this may be a bit hard to believe, but i am the same way. my dad is one of the nicest people i know. hes never done anything bad to me, but im terrified of him. i think maybe its because ive done some things in the past that disappointed him and im afraid to look him in the eye when we speak because i just have this feeling that if i do, he will bring up the topic. have you ever done anything that may have disappointed your dad, maybe hes still upset and he just kind of sends a vibe that scares you a bit.

Answer 7

hummmm you have got me laying on the couch now trying to make sense of this one

Answer 8

I think you should seek professional help about these fears.