I'm 17 years old and I've been wanting to commit suicide since I was 13...?

Question

Has anybody else gone through this? How do you find the motive to keep on living? I struggle with it everyday and am tired and just want to end it. And no...I'm not some goth girl who thinks death should be glorified.

Answer 1

Hello, very beautiful girl! I have found some information for you which may give you some help, there was a time, I used to feel exactly the way you feel for many many years. Finally, I took charge of my life mysel, and here I'm, a very successful professional.

The way I used to feel, I never ever wish for anyone to suffer such pain. Now your question speaks by itself about your pain.

I also know, you are a very brave person and you have lots of courage to do, and moreover, you have a full right to live a beautiful life, dont lose this chance by staying sad.

I'm pasting some information for you:
Suicide has been called a "permanent solution to a temporary problem." When you are feeling extremely depressed or suicidal, problems do not seem temporary – they seem overwhelming. You feel like things will never get better. But most things do get better, if you wait them out, and get help for the feelings you are experiencing.

Some things to consider:
Feeling suicidal does not make you a bad person.
Thoughts of ending your own life do not necessarily mean that you truly want to die—they mean, rather, that you have more pain than you can cope with right now. The pain of deep depression is intense. It is too much to bear for long periods of time.

What might be bearable to someone else may not be to you.
Many kinds of emotional pain may lead to thoughts of suicide. The reasons for this pain are unique to every person, and whether or not the pain is bearable differs from person to person.

Give yourself some distance between thoughts and action.
Say to yourself, "I will wait 24 hours and won't do anything drastic during that time." Or, wait a week. Thoughts and actions are two different things—your suicidal thoughts do not have to become a reality. There is no deadline. There's no time limit, no one pushing you to act on these thoughts right now. Wait. Wait and put some distance between your suicidal thoughts and suicidal action.

There are people who want to support you during this difficult time.
You can choose to live, but first it is important that you find some relief from your pain. To do that, you will need to find a way to increase your connections with people who will listen. Even if it doesn't feel like it right now, there are many people who welcome the chance to support you during this time. They won't try to argue with you about how miserable you feel or to just "snap out of it". They will not judge you. They will simply listen and be there for you. Find someone. Now. Use your 24 hours, or your week, to tell someone what's going on with you.

Reach out to just one person to start.
Look in the front of your phone book for a crisis line and call the number immediately!

Call 1-800-273-TALK in the United States or

Call a trusted friend, family member, minister, rabbi, doctor or therapist - someone you trust and who is likely to listen

Even if your suicidal feelings have subsided, get help for yourself.
Experiencing that sort of emotional pain is itself a traumatizing experience. Finding a support group or therapist can be very helpful in developing strong coping resources for the future.

Some ways to cope with suicidal thoughts and feelings
Talk with someone every day, preferably face to face. Though you feel like withdrawing, ask trusted friends and acquaintances to spend time with you.
Be with people who aren't depressed. This can lift you up and make you feel better.
If you are thinking of taking an overdose, give your medicines to someone who can give them to you one day at a time.
Remove any dangerous objects or weapons from your home.
Avoid alcohol and other drugs of abuse.
Wait until you are feeling better before doing things you find difficult..
Make a written schedule for yourself every day and stick to it, no matter what.
Set priorities for the things that need to be done first. Cross things out on your schedule as you finish them.
Eat a well-balanced diet that includes protein and avoids sweets.
Don't skip meals.
Get at least eight hours of sleep each night.
Exercise in a way that makes you perspire.
Walk run, dance, hike or bike – more than once a day if at all possible.
Get in the sun at least 30-minutes a day (can be combined with exercise).

Best luck!

Answer 2

I'm a 15 year old girl & was raped a month ago. Ive been battling depression since I was 11 or 12. After I was raped, my depression worsen to the point of suicide felt the right thing to do. Im now in counseling, and my depression has slowly gotten better & I'm at a point that I'm stable and havent had the though of commiting suicide for about 2 weeks. If I can do it, you can(: Trust me. Get into some counseling it helps

Answer 3

Yea I can relate, definitely. I've kinda been since I was 12 and I'm sixteen now. Obviously you're doing a pretty good job if you've lasted for four years, right? Just don't give up, there has to be something that makes you sad or could make you happy. I'm pretty sure you dwell on that, I do. What keeps me going is knowing that it will get better. Like when you are eighteen and can move out you can be free and go anywhere you want and be anything you want. Build a dream. I did that and it got ruined, built another and it got ruined...so I'm going to wait 'til another comes along. I'm not going to give up yet. I mean you are only seventeen, you have so much more time to make things better, there are so many things you can be and achieve. I am really against this but I know that going to a therapist would probably help. I just don't want to open up, I feel like theres alot I can't explain about myself and alot that is too humiliating to talk about. One thing that keeps me going is knowing how much it would hurt people that know me. You really would be suprised. Once a friend and I had a heart to heart, and I thought he could care less about me but he told me how important I was and ever since then I've kinda seen how everybody-EVERYBODY has a responsibility as a human to be there as best as they can for eachother. You might hate your family, I don't know, but they are still your family, they still would be devastated by your death. It is really selfish to end your life, because while you might be in pain, it's not worth putting alot of people who care about you through that. I know that might not help much. Maybe you feel worthless, do things to change that, volunteering, getting close to someone, getting a job, a pet, take up some kind of art, journal, stop caring so much about what everyone thinks, you can talk to me if you want, I care

Answer 4

Life is like a waiting room. You came out of nothing and into nothing you will return. When you finally die, your last thoughts will be wishing you had just a little more time. 80 years seems like a long time from where you're sitting right now, but once you get to be that age, you will wish like anything that you hadn't wasted so much time sitting on your butt wallowing in the depression and hardship and horror that every single one of us who is alive has to endure.

If you find it hard to get over your depression, then get some counseling from a mental health professional. On the other hand, if you don't like the circumstances of your life right now, then do something different. Life is hard and it's going to always be hard...but it's the only way you can even have the occasional taste of happiness. The dead do not exist anymore in any meaningful sense. Decide what you would like to get that would make you happy; then select those things you're willing to work(in whatever sense) to attain. If you're willing to do what it takes, the go get what you want out of life.

Good luck!

Answer 5

Sai Ram. Pronounced as Saayee Raam, it is a greeting, a mantra and also a blessing to you.U show the intellectual aspect of your psyche and your real need to know. Happiness is the only purpose of life,.I feel as if you are tired of life so i guess your question is how to get happiness? Search deep within and try to know who you are. Who is seeking the answer to the question? Who is that you? Find that real you behind all the layers that are heaped upon by society and its conditioning.


Believe in yourself

Be brave...but it's ok to be afraid sometimes


Study hard


Give lots of kisses


Laugh often


Don't be overly concerned with your weight, it's just a number


Always try to see the glass half full


Meet new people, even if they look different to you


Remain calm, even when it seems hopeless


Take lots of naps..


Be weird whenever you have the chance


Love your friends, no matter who they are


Don't waste food


RELAX


Take an occasional risk


Try to have a little fun each day.
...it's important


Work together as a team


Share a joke with friends


Fall in love with someone..


...and say "I love you" often


Express yourself creatively


Be conscious of your appearance


Always be up for surprises


Love someone with all of your heart


Share with friends


Watch your step


It will get better


There is always someone who loves you more than you


i found out the longer you sit there and feel bad about yourself, the longer your gonna feel depressed. You wonder why nobody cares, why nobody wants to be around you. The reason why nobody wants to be around you is because YOU ARE DEPRESSED. you bring them down when you come around. You git ti get up and fight your through it. The minute you get up and change your attitude about what's going on, the other stuff starts to change. whatever is kicking you and trying to push you down, i say kick it back. The first thing you got to do is open uo the curtains, put on some good music, take a shower, put on a good face, and open up the door and go out and see the world.Your sitting around hoping someine will fix it but, it's got to be fixed through you. You can't say "please, god help me." God is not gonnaa do anything if only try and help yourself to.Don't hold things back. Say it.Deal with that emotion

These are the same principles I go by for my own, and the same I am teaching everybody. Always look to the positive. There is a positive in every situation, even the bad ones. They are learning experiences. Look to how you handle a bad situation, and learn from how you acted, and see how you can turn the negative into a positive next time. Every situation helps us to evolve, so every situation is good. Life is not worth wasting any moment on depression. I did for far too long, and I'll never do it again! But I don't regret my past, it has made me who I am, and I have learned a great deal about life from the way
I used to be. You can overcome anything. Nothing can stop you from enjoying life.

ONLY YOU CAN STOP YOU FROM ENJOYING LIFE

Answer 6

You are still very young and your body and mind is still developing. You go through a lot of hormonal and emotional fluctuations in the teens. Those things will settle down soon. You need to spend time enjoying the things that you get pleasure from and talking to your friends and family. See a good psychologist. They can be helpful mentally and they can help you to get medical treatment if they believe it is necessary. You will find life to be very satisfying as you get older. Try to filter out the negative feelings and concentrate on the positive.

Answer 7

hey rose, i kno its hard to deal wit somethings in life especially when u have depression. ill i can say is try to keep urself busy throughout the day and u wont think so much bout it. also, go to the doctor get some meds. for ur depression. ive had had severe depression since i was 13 im now almost 19. ive tried to commit suicide three times and when i couldnt deal with how things were id cut myself. so seriously get some help to get off this road before things could get worse. to help motivate urself get involved in clubs , hang wit friends, wuteva makes ya happy. if ya wanna talk email or im me.

Answer 8

OMG,We are on the saame boaat.I alwaze thought bout suicide since I was 11 now i'm 17.I alwaze do something I enjoy doing thaat takes my mind off it,Or I go for walks.I like to write songs and poems about my anger.But In the end,ur just gonna have to accept ur past life and move on.My past made me a strong person,but I feel heartless but I still have emotions.Just remember,U got 1 life to live,& only ONE.So make it worth living and do shiit u like to do..

Answer 9

I have had those feelings since my teens(i'm 23 now),it has got worse since the doctor said that there's a chance my mom has parkinson's. I have already lost my dad. All i can do is stay strong and tell myself everyday is a gift and i could be dead tomorrow so live for the moment as we're a long time dead.

Answer 10

wow....first of all...you have a very skewed idea of what goth is. im goth. death isnt something that should be glorified....most goth kids have absolutly no intention of taking their own life, or someone elses.
now that i have that out of the way, go get help. talk to your school counseler. they will find you a way to get help.