I can only take so much!!! How can I get God to stop testing me?????

Question

had my 1st child @ 16 &2nd @19 married the 23 yr old fthr of my kids he turned out to be drinker. I eventually left him. @ age 23 worked 1 Ft &1PT min. wage job. I struggled and with the help of my parents raised my girls the best i could when i was 23 my fther dev.depression & in 6 mnths shot him self while my kids played outside next @ 32 my kids dad wnt to the ER & was adm. went into coma & died all in 3 days. had a form of cancer that atkd him & killed him with in 6mo says the autopsy he never knew. My kids grew & they graduated from HS my 1st girl went to college ended up preg. at 22& had a sweet baby she still lived away & on 11/06 she finished work & was goin to her car & was struck by SUV. I got the call 3am & rushed to HMC she was brain dead w/ massive internal tram she was bleedin to death. I asked them to turn off the ventilator so she could go. Now my 2nd girl has gone to help care 4 the baby my heart is brken i miss my kids I yell why me please GOD stop. what have i done

Answer 1

That is one sad story. I hope things turn around for you. And it may not seem like it right now but I bet there's some good happening in the middle of all this, isn't there? There is that baby, and the daughter. That's not nothing.

Answer 2

What you must realize is that the decisions you do in life lead you always to your current situation. Ther are occurences that are absolutely, however, outside of your area of influence, such as accidents and stuff, in these things you must also realize that they don't depend on you, and that are things that happen naturally: Everybody dies, sooner or later, one way or the other, accidents happen and so forth: the truth is that life is not an easy ride for anybody, it is our attitude towards life that changes the whole thing. It's about how we face adversity that counts. Some people get angry with God because of their loved ones diying young, but thse people should also realize that diying is natural and there is no guaranty that you will make it to old age, w can go in any instant, and this is not God's fault, it certainly doesn't mean that God wants to make you suffer. Pain occurs in life and is present as long as we live, we can't avoid it fully, we must learn t make the best out of things and live today knowing that it's our decisions that shape our life and not accidents outside of us that we can't control the ones that should determine wether we are happy or sad. how frail would we be if when skies are blue we get all happy not realizing that there could be a storm later and not prepare, and how foolish if when tehre is a strorm we depress to the point of forgetting that storms occur and that they will pass and the sun will come out again, what we must do is root our happiness and worth not on things outside of us but in our mental attitude towards this present moment. If you believe in God, you must realize that God is a God of love and that God is with you even in the worst of circumstances, precisely in those when you think he is the less. As I said, suffering is a part of life, but suffering can acquire meaning instead of being meaningles, when we don't know why we do the things, or for what purpose. Know yourself and realize that everything that afflicts you is in a big measure your own decision, and be happy. God bless you.

Answer 3

I am so sorry to hear about all this that you have had to endure- You have done nothing- God still is there and loves in the midst of this. People may say that God has abandoned you, NO He hasn't. I don't think that anything I say can make you feel any better right now, but know that I will be praying. He is the One that has the answer. If I knew you in person, I would have a huge shoulder for you to cry on- figurative speaking - email me if you would like, so I will be that shoulder. God loves you, don't forget that!!

Answer 4

When we get to Heaven our trials will be over. We will have chosen freely to live God's laws.Thus, reaping our heavenly reward. The angels are in Heaven by their own free will choice.They had an opportunity to rebel and chose to stay. Praise God! I can't say another heavenly rebellion couldn't happen. But its not spoken of in scripture. Of that I am certain.The Bible states the only people eternally secure are those who endure to the end.

Answer 5

And you are Blaming God For "all" this Turmoil?? You are so wrong, my dear. That is not the work of God! Let me tell you about an enemy you have, that Hates You. His name is Devil. He is a Spirit from Hell, that is on this Planet earth TO KILL, STEAL, AND DESTORY!! He Has Really Done a Tune on YOU, And wanting you to Blame and Hate God! I am so Sorry for what the Devil Has already done to You, But You can Put a stop to it, Right now, In the Name Of Jesus! DO YOU KNOW HIM? Please trust Him enough to ASK HIM INTO YOUR Heart and LIVE FOR HIM...... I Promise You, God will Change Your Life, so You Will Enjoy It From Now On>>>'Til He comes Back For us. God Will Heal Your POOR Broken Heart Also.

Answer 6

I'm about to cry reading your life stories. I say Keep Your Faith Alive. I know this is going to be kind of harsh but God works in mysterious ways. Don't blame him. He might be doing something that will pay off in the long run. Find something that you can do and that you are good at and work with that. He might have something really big waiting for you to make up for all the pain and suffering that you have been through. But please don't blame him. Obviously you believe in him so keep praying Hard and from the bottom of your hart and probably he will reward you sooner than later. He might be testing you to see how much you believe in him. May God Bless you and give you everything good that you deserve. Be a good person in His name. Help others. Volunteer at a Hospital or Nursery. Listen to others. You are not the only one in this world that is going through tough times. Keep your head way up high at all times. I know it's easier said than done but you have to try it. God knows I do. Ok I wish you much happiness for the rest of your days.

Answer 7

You have done nothing that thousands of others have not done.

It sounds like you made a couple of bad decisions (who hasn't) that had a major effect on your life, and you have had some really bad luck.

This is life. Life is not fair, do not expect it to be so. There is no god who will make it fair, or is testing or punishing you.

Congratulations for working hard to help yourself and your family.

You have my sympathy for your losses.

Love an support your remaining daughter and granddaughter. Help them to be the best people that they can. Help them learn that life is not fair, but that they can try to be.

Answer 8

I don't know what to say, except, I am so sorry for all the pain you are suffering. God does love you though, and you are stronger than you give yourself credit for. Your strength comes from God. A little while longer, and Jesus will show you why all these things have happened to you. Just don't turn from the Lord, because I know, that he has something awesome for you. TRUST IN JESUS.

God Bless You, and I'll be in prayer for you.

Answer 9

Some things were not God's test, but your own decision such as having children with that father. We however subconsciously choose to experience certain events during our lives. God merely gives us strength and guides our growth. We ourselves need to learn from what happens to us.

If you find that you are overwhelmed by events it is necessary to slow down the pace so you can process what happened to you. God can help us process what occured and gain strength and wisdom from the events.

Pray to the divine self which lives in your heart to lighten your load. Ask this in the name of your master Jesus Christos to whom you vow to devote your body and spirit. Learning that we cannot in a good way guide our own lives and need God to do so for us can be a very heavy lesson to learn. But you also need to learn to do what you can to follow the inspirations of the Holy Spirit and not just try to get it to solve all your problems.

"There is no holiness without action", St. Seraphim of Sarov

Answer 10

You haven't done anything wrong. Repeat this affirmation each day as you wake up. "My life has gotten better, things are as < I >want them to be, full of life, light and blessings". End your day with thanking your god for that day (regardless of how it went). I recommend you to watch "The Secret" movie and to read the book, as well as the book "The Law of Attraction". You can join a Yahoo Group like thelawofattractionandbeyond to get support for your new found life of light.....Many blessings...

Alma