I'm ****** up mentally.?

Question

I was molested for 3 years before i told someone. (started at age 13, am now 19) when i did, my whole family told me i was a liar. my mother made me confront him. he told me that he would be back to get me.
even now, a few days ago my uncle and aunt asked me if what happened then was true.
my mom says im the reason her life is ****** up. she picks her boyfriends over me. the guy shes with now, tells me im no one because hes not my father and that im the court jester in their kingdom. she refused to let me move in with her when i was going to college ( she lives in the town they school was in, i live with an aunt.) my mom tells the rest of my family that im a liar and not to trust me because id stab them in the back. my grandmother is schizophrenic, my mom is depressed all the time. my aunt is a hypocondriac.. i hate everyone. i get so mad that i think i could kill someone. im very paranoid, i think every1's talking about me. i hate being touched by any1 who isnt my bf...what do i do?

Answer 1

no simple asnwer to that one - if you wanna chat about it just im me..:-)

Answer 2

You have had a rough time indeed. However most children get abused one way or the other. Most don't ever tell anyone. However you are now 19 and it is time to move on in life. Accept that you were wronged and that your mother is the way she is. Expect nothing better. Stop hurting inside. Why should you keep thinking of the hurt and be hurting when the real culprits are not? Do you understand what I am saying? They hurt YOU and are happily living their lives while you are stuck in the unhappy past. It is time to spit the hurt out and refuse to be unhappy or angry. It hurts no one but you. You owe it to yourself. Refuse to answer that question anymore. So what if they are talking about you? Let them. If they have nothing better to do. I am happy to note you want to kill and not die. That is the spirit. However it should go towards making you happy. You are well on the way to healing. Keep it up

Answer 3

You may not feel great, but you're certainly the healthy one in your family. They have no idea how to get real with life - you do. They have to believe everything is OK in order to feel OK, and you challenge that. If there is any chance of moving away, well away, then do it. And - wherever you're living - get youself some good psychotherapy. These crazy people have made it really tough for you to relate easily to others, and psychotherapy will help you heal. The fact that you are angry is great - use that angry energy to help yourself. It's not possible to forget your family, or all that has happened, but you can focus on you rather than on them. Good luck - I really believe you have the courage and capacity to make your life very different, but it will take a bit of time.

Answer 4

I was abused as a child too, and I have a similar reaction to people as you do. After suffering from abuse, it is only reasonable that people react that way. The saddest part is my family is totally in denial, and it is causing all sorts of depression and disaster in my siblings. My father enforced a strict "dont talk about it" policy, and my family sticks to that many years after he is dead, when we could bring it all out and resolve some of these issues. Even if you family won't, you need to resolve the issues. It's important for a normal emotional life. It's never too late to have a happy childhood.

Answer 5

You may be suffering from Post traumatic Stress Disorder, and it is apparent that you are in need of therapy. See your doctor, and ask for a referral, or the less preferable alternative is to contact your county/local mental health agency. View anger management at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris on page 4, and practise daily, and when needed, one of the 5 relaxation techniques on page 2. Read that page, and note the tips at the mental-health-abc & conquering stress websites, and try the EFT at www.mercola.com View http://www.vaonline.org/support.html (many links) & http://www.psychforums.com At http://www.onestepatatime.com you are permitted one free email to their resident expert on joining (free). PTSD websites: http://www.mental-health-today.com (.com/ptsd/index.html) & http://www.mayoclinic.com & http://www.abc-of -treatment.com (.com/topics.php) & http://www.rcpsych.ac.uk/ & http://www.uncommonforum.com/ & http://www.selfhelpmagazine.com/ Although I doubt that you are ready now, and probably not for some time to come; eventually you may progress to a point where you can forgive (I'm not suggesting that you forget) those who have wronged you: not to do so will hold you back from progressing further along the road to wellness. Ask your therapist about this. Consider reporting the offender to the police, so that any other misfortunate girl in the same position WILL BE BELIEVED, as there will be a record on the computer database. You won't have to go through the stress of a trial.

Answer 6

This is so common little one...you did nothing wrong...this is what people do to you, to cover their own sins...You need to go to the school councilor, and stick to your story. If this indeed happened, and your mom allowed it, so they wouldn't have to deal with it, they are just as guilty. You are the one who is going to end up cutting, drinking, drug abusing and everything else, if you continue to carry this unwarranted guilt. This is horrible, you can forgive people for their heinous actions, but you need to be rectified right now...YOU are telling the truth..and it needs to be believed, and you need some apologies, and put the guy behind bars so he doesn't do it again. but don't feel guilty about that either, because HE is the rapist and child molester,...and if no one will help you it is on them, not you.

Answer 7

I know it really hurts but its time for you to step up on your own. Let em know that your starting your own life your own way. Instead of letting these bad situations bring you down, use them to build yourself up and be strong and independent on your own. because you know that your ganna start you own life and your not ganna do it the way your parents did to you. Your ganna be better then them. So everywhere you go you'll carry this chip of pride on your shoulders because you know that your better then them. and belive me once they see you doing good on your own, they'll feel bad about themselves. Look at it this way, what happend in your past is not your fault. I know its hard to deal with and its painful, but it was completely 100% not your fault, because you had no control over what happend, so you cant blame yourself. But now you do have control. Now you have the ability to move out and start your own life. Let em know that your not taking this **** anymore and things in your life are ganna be different from now on.

Answer 8

get away from them!! separate yourself from the ******* that would call you a liar for accusing someone of attacking you with out taking you to a counselor to find out what they say.

once you have isolated yourself from the negativity in your family you should seek some the mental help you need

Answer 9

this thing happened with so many people in this world some choose to stick with it and some let it go and live there own life
and rest they left it to god
now, it's you who has to decide whether to stick with it or live your life by forgetting the things
1) make things in life that keeps you smiling
2) pack a punch or learn some martial-arts so next time that *** -hole touches you kick his *** hard

Answer 10

I would pick up and move at least 2000 miles away, get counseling for having been victimized.... and stay away from those that continue the cycle of abuse...and live your life....or you can stay...not get help...and potentially subject your own children to the same abuse.

Answer 11

talk to me i know depression cuz i am bipolar [e-mail]. go to www.rainn.org. call 1800 656 hope for rape help. call 1800 246 4646 a youthline. go to
www.vaonline.org/support.html