Why am I having so much trouble?

Question

My life has been a nightmare for years, practically my whole life and I'm almost 50. I have fought and struggled so hard to try to make something of myself that proved statistics wrong - like how I should have ended up dead, in prison, a serial killer - but I have educated myself to a graduate degree and still it seems like every day there is a major problem in my life. I love God with all my heart and I know that sometimes He tries to work things in us with hard times but I'm about to lose my mind for good this time. I do have PTSD/depression/anxiety from all the traumatic experiences in my life and they just keep on coming. Can't anybody help me understand this?
An example - I was wrongfully terminated by Daimler Chrysler Financial Services for trying to look out for their best interest but they found out about my psych diagnoses and got rid of me. My mom and one of my daughters disowned me a while back and the other one uses me relentlessly. Why is it so hard for me?

Never mind. Some of you people on here can make a person want to kill themselves with your meanness. AFLAC. My relationship with God is not bad to the number 2 piper and for #3 there is nothing better to focus on than God. Anybody else with some real answers, please give them.

Answer 1

Keep your faith in God remember this promise from Jesus himself

3Blessed are the poor in spirit: for theirs is the kingdom of heaven.

You are someone that is poor in spirit

Answer 2

I feel for you, being fifty myself now and realizing that I've amounted to very little, certainly in the financial security end of things. I'm still at poverty level in the wage earning category, lucky to have $300 in my one and only bank account by the time my next paycheque rolls around, with no savings or RRSPs ... BUT the money isn't the issue. I have no doubt I have some form of psychological disorder. I don't think there's a person on this planet who doesn't suffer from some disorder or physical disability. It's how we cope with it that sets us apart.

I've learned over the past 10 years or so not to stress out over things I have no control over. I find the good and positive things in every day, focus on that and it's made an immense difference in my life. It's not always smooth sailing. I have my ups and downs, just like everyone else but have discovered that by slowly disconnecting myself from others who are prone to negative thinking and complaining that I'm able to see much more clearly. I've learned to let go of expectations. A good friend of mine defined "expectations" as "pre-meditated resentment". There is a lot of truth to this. If you do good things expecting a reward or recognition, chances are it'll blow up in your face. Just live the most honest life you can FOR YOURSELF, first and foremost. Whatever happens, happens.

I will not advocate the philosophy of Tao to you because it is not for everyone. I began living it a few years ago, not even aware of it's existence but upon reading a little bit here and there, the light-bulbs began to turn on. I'd already begun on this particular path without realizing it and decided that maybe because the reason my life and attitude has been going so well is because I had subconsciously given myself over to whatever force is guiding me. I call it God because it's the simplest term I can think of.

I am a cat of very little brain and complications tend to bother me.

Answer 3

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Answer 4

I dont think anyone can show you god is there for you, you just need to find that out for yourself. That being said, you are human and it is normal to have doubts. Being a christian is not easy with all of the people against it. God will throw some trials your way and you have to sort them out do not blame god or anything like that, thats just how life is. I have manic depression too and It really sux and sometimes I blame god, but if i pray and all that then it makes me feel a lot better. He is there for you no matter if you feel him or not. He is holding you right now because of all your pain. He does not like it when we are down like that.

Answer 5

Hmpft...at first answer.
Everyone has life's problems, true. However, I personally didn't see your question as being whiney.
Anyhoo...sometimes life throws curve balls at us. Sometimes we catch those balls & we quickly forget about those times, moving on to what comes next in life.
Sometimes we get slugged right between the eyes with those curve balls & we are left blinded as to what just happened.
In reflection, hopefully we can see that we get nailed between the eyes it is because we were staring at the clouds or watching the a yellow jacket on the ground or maybe we were looking for someone special in the stands...when we could have been looking out for that curved ball.
Personally, I believe life is screwed up for everyone. Those without true problems worry about what they will do for dinner and what shade of teal would look best with that new black skirt. Depression and anxiety come in waves in my life. They come mainly when life is going pretty good...when I have more time to devote to what is not right as opposed to when life is all screwed up & I have to devote all my energies to making it better.
Some of my life problems repeated themselves. In hindsight, I realize that they repeated themselves because how I was choosing to handle them repeated itself. Life is often times about the power of choice.
It's also about perceptions. In fact, I believe 99% of communication is interpretation. When people talk to you are you really understanding what they say or do you simply see what you think they may mean? When you talk to others(be it you mother, daughter or boss) are you sure that they are understanding precisely what you mean or are just hoping that they take your words at face value?
PS- your daughter uses her because you allow her to. Are you more of an enabler than a mother? I don't mean that harshly, just throwing an idea out there for you to ponder.

Good Luck. Look back at your various relationaships, again with cowrokers, bosses, friends and family...what parallels can you draw?

Answer 6

I think you're putting to much emphasis on God in your life, try to focus on practical things to help you

Answer 7

Don't worry about it. If you really have faith in God He will take care of you. I think you have to address your relationship with God. Good luck.

Answer 8

Everyone has life problems. They just don't whine about it on Yahoo Answers.