i hate life?

Question

Im moving out of my boyfriends place because we are more like friends now and i need to live by myself for awhile so i quit depending on men, anyways im moving out soon, just waiting for my place, and its getting weird around my boyfriend. I love him but i dont, and im really confused, Im gonna miss him too, and im scared. I have no friends, when i was in my abusive marriage, i lost most friends and fell into a deep depression, so right now i feel like i have nothing, no support. But i do have some family so that is good. I cry allt he time, and yesterday i got the worst haircut of my life! Im sick of how others affect how i feel about myself though, why cant i be happy with ,myself and quit feeling so alone all the time, its retarted, i just feel like imr eady to give up, i work a dumb job , only 2 hours a day and with children who have disabilites, im not enjoying getting beat up everyday...but my aunt got me the job so i feel i have to stay and do a good job..i just wanna float away

Answer 1

hey don't give up. i've felt this way before. it will get better, if you want it to. i know it's hard to stay positive, but you must. here's something you can do. try writing in a journal. sometimes it helps getting your thoughts out on paper so you can reflect on them later and also it is like a release. then, formulate a plan on how to get your life back on track where you want it. i was in a similar situation a few years ago, but i got sick and tired of feeling sick and tired all the time, so i decided that i wanted to do something different with my life. i was 25 and living with my parents, divorced, unemployed and drunk all the time. i enrolled in school for the next fall, got an internship, and now i work in computers (Information technology). I also recently remarried and now i have my 3rd kid on the way, my own place, a job where i make like $40k a year, and a whole new outlook on life. hang in there! hope that helped

Answer 2

H! I've been there before. Not exactly that same situation, but that same feeling. You're insecure. I bet you feel worthless, and probably wake up every morning thinking what the hell's going to happen to me today?!!!!! Its tough being there, and it feels like it’s impossible to get out of it all. But the most important thing is that you have taken the FIRST step (which is the HARDEST). Moving out of your boyfriends place, you are heading the right direction.

Now, you need to gain back your self esteem and START LIVING YOUR LIFE. Start looking for a Job. What do you like? When was the last time you did something for yourself? Look for something that you absolutely love and get paid to do it. No, it is not impossible. If you really look for it you will find it. And when you find it thank your aunt for that other job, and move on.

Crying without a shoulder to lean on is the worse. What you need is a friend... Don't get a guy friend (at least for now, sorry guys), because you might end up in another bad relationship if you go there to soon. Try to find Friends around your same age. I would love to be your friend, its too bad where so far apart. Look for a Support Group….

It’s Ok to be scared, confused, depressed and upset with your life so far. But, It’s time for you to get control of it all. Doing good so far… You just found some new friends through this…. You’re moving out of your boyfriend’s place. Now, you must look for a job that you like. I know that you are a wonderful person, with abilities or talents. You deserve something better than what you’ve had so far. So take charge.

There is a book that I would like to recommend. It’s an easy-read book called ONCE UPON A COW. You can find it online. Remember, this is YOUR life so you must take control of it. It will take time but when you do it, you will realize that it was worth it!!!!!!!!

Answer 3

ey I know how you feel. Like the world is pushing down and you just cant live! I feel the same way sometimes and i know tht depression and other problems are holding me back form the life that I am supposed to be living. I mean you and i both know thatt you dont deserve this and things could be a whole lot better. Right now I think you are just feeling a whole lot of stress and anxierty. I am actually on medications to help with all of that yady yady ya but in the end you have to face your life youseself. the stupid meds cant fix broken relationships and wasted time. Right now go look in the mirror and tell yourself that you are a great person and that you dont deserve this., You can be doing better! You dont want to look back in 20 years and wish you had made more of you life right? When you get stressed, just listen to some music or write it down. In school i keep a notebook with me so when stuff is bothering me I can just put in all on paper and vent. I fyou can get away go for a walk, prefferably in the evening. The freash air and the setting sun might really relax you! Dont worry hion, just be strong! You can do this right? You have tohe power to make this better! If you need any supoort or want to talk to a person who knows your pain, just email me! Take care hon and keep smiling! :)

Answer 4

Take St Johns Wort to help with the depression, then look around and try to find another job so you can have more money coming in. Don't keep a job just because your aunt got it for you ~ it served it's purpose for a time, now it's time to move on.

There are agencies that will help you with the disabled child so check into what the county offers in your area (my niece has a son with disabilites back in OH). She is divorced and works fulltime and has 2 boys so even though it can be difficult, it can be done, you just have to dig your heels in and get answers like she did (her ex is worthless and way behind on child support).

Start going to church and get involved in some Bible studies and other activites there so you get a good support group around you. It's a good way to make friends and find others who will help lift your spirits in a positive way.

You have children who rely on you so believe in yourself and know you can do it no matter how hard the trials are at times. God will help you through it but you have to put out the effort to make it work.

God bless you

Answer 5

I do hate my life like a lot since i was like 9.But i get on with it and keep thinking if i don't fight each day they'll win and i won't be remembered.I never have a tight grip on reality and don't know what's real or not sometimes but i keep thinking that in the future it will all be better and i'm still here so i think its working.

Answer 6

O.K. My dear,
Time to focus on the positive in your life. Think about the good times you had with your boyfriend. I don't like to work at a relationship. It it doesn't have more smooth times than rough, then it is time to find a different route.
There are a billion jobs you might work at. Perhaps you just don't like the situation at your work, and it will be time for a change, eventually.
You will now have more time to focus on yourself, and create a more happy, positive person that other people will enjoy being around.
You can't just float away. That is running away from yourself. Find a circle of friends who are up-beat, and happy. Don't dwell so much on the down side. So, hair grows, so do we. Grow, meditate on the beauty of the Planet, if your mind starts to shift over to negative things, just gently go back to the serene part. We control our lives by what we think. Working with Disabled children is not easy.
I took a friends son to the market. He was a teen with Cerebral Palsy and refused to use a wheel chair. I shoved the Panel by the grip, up into the basket, and worked him into it. He couldn't pronounce my name, so he called me Candy. He was so tired of people staring at him, he called them "Fu,en cows". His mom said he had not been into a market in a long time, how did we ever do it.
The moral to this story is, if you aren't willing to TRY with love in your heart, then make room for someone who IS, and move on. You are stuck in a rut, and YOU can do something about it. Start with baby steps, put one foot in front of the other, and keep going. Who would want to be around you, if you just vampire their energy. Buck up....get a grip..Look in the mirror and remind yourself to SMILE.....breathe.....have fun....

Answer 7

I had lost all joy and hope,
My heart was filled with much despair
I walked out into the sunlight
To breathe the clean fresh air
I walked a mile or maybe two
I ask myself, "Why feel so blue?"
i looked around me--seeing there
Daffodils, green grass, blue sky
But clouds were forming too
Then the rain fell gently down
i walked on, back toward town
i told myself "The clouds must come
The rain must fall"
If not, the daffodils will never bloom,
Nor the green grass grow
So this is life.........
To live it fully, to know its beauty
We must accept the rain, it is our duty
Clouds disappear, the sun will shine.........
On joy and love, our hearts will dine
mari;yn Tomlinson

Answer 8

Check and see if there are any good support groups in an Abused Women's Shelter in your city. Most do have groups for women who aren't staying there. Maybe you can check out talk therapy, and get yourself straightened out before you repeat the same mistake with another man.

Answer 9

hi,well im sickof life too,my brother forced me to care for my 93 year old father who has alzheimers disease and a brain injury while my 88 year old mother was in the hospital having knee reconstrutive surgery, i had to put up with dads weird ways,hed throw his underwear all over the house,he would take off on me,he would call for my mother after hes returned from the hospital,he would knock on my bedroom door just as i was going to sleep to ask wheres mother! i had to do this all by myself,and i will kill my brother if he asks me to do this all over again! I am very pissed off at him.come over my house and together we can be sick of life!

Answer 10

i know how you feel..my life is in a rut right now to.you just have to stop and think about where you want to be and what you want to be doing..think of your ideal life and focus on getting there..dont let anything or anyone get in your way or tell you anything othen than positive..dont give up...the only thing that can come from this is good...when your at your lowest you have only one way to go..and thats up...take a diff.perspective on life...just for a minute and youll realize what you can do to change it all..take care!good luck and think about how you want your life to be..and take the steps to achieve it..its hard..but it will be worth it