Family problems leading to depression?

Question

Recently I have found myself thinking very negative thoughts and thinking more about death than I have in my life. I knew this was bad and knew it was depression. My parents don't get along well, maybe not at all actually. Last month a huge fight occured that scarred my heart until now. In brief description on how it was, it was scary, lots of screaming and shouting, and things breaking around the house. I have been agonizing with the pain since then. I don't know what to do, or who to tell, except asking of your help and what to do. I can't ask my parents to take me to see a psychiatrist because they'd ask why and what's wrong with me, and would refuse to talk me. I don't have any friends to turn for help and talk to for letting everything out of my chest. I'm also having thoughts about cutting my wrists to help relieve the pain, but I know it's no good, and it's only a thought that occurs during depression. Any advice on what I can do would be greatly apreciated, thank you!

See, I don't go to school, I home-school. And by thew way, I actually want them to divorce for the better, except my mother can't since she has no money and she can't work in good jobs with big money to help herself on her own. Another thing that lead me to this depression would be the attention I never had in school, when I was in school. I tried as hard as I could to make friends but they were all bad, very bad. I try to keep a diary to let out all my feelings, but the words seem to fade away after they're written.

Answer 1

talk to me [e-mail]

Answer 2

Yes, There is a answer but are you willing to go after the answer.
Here the path to the answer. You have within your brain the answer. Close your eyes and see the most beautiful place you can think of. Now within your mind go there. Make everything you want that will make you feel wonderful, beautiful and without pain. Leave the problems in this world they belong here. Do not take them with you over to your new hid-away.
To get you started, put on a CD called (In Harmony with the Sea by Beethoven). Get it at Wally world, Its $10.00 This will help you get started on you trip to your most wonderful place. This is better than any doctor and no pills are involved. I use this on a daily basis. I came from the same type of family.

Answer 3

I am so sorry for your pain. I could almost feel it as I read what you wrote. DO NOT cut your wrist, that is not going to solve the problem. Many times adults do things without ever thinking about how it will affect their children. If your parents (or at least one of them) will listen, tell them how they have made you feel. Is there a guidance counselor, or school nurse, whom you can talk with? If there really is no one to talk to go to this website http://www.samaritans.org/. Depression is difficult to deal with but it does not have to affect your life forever. Good luck to you.

Answer 4

one thing, your parents problems are not your fault nor are they something you can do anything about. it hurts, it sucks, but try to stay out of it as much as you can. if it begins to affect you more than mentally/emotionally (like, if they were being abusive to you or if they were splitting and didn't know who you should go with), then please don't take it so much onto yourself. do your own thing, get through school, and make it to 18 so you can get out of the house and lead your own life. remember, your parents are just people too. they have individual problems and couple problems that you can't do anything about; instead of a psychologist, try to do some reading from the self-help section of the library or bookstore, it might help you feel better. please do not hurt yourself. believe me, there is lots of life left out there for you to experience.

Answer 5

I had the same problems, then I got a job.
Wasn't around to hear all the BS around the house, and I have friends.