Depression question?

Question

I went to my GP 2 weks ago who said that they would refer me to someone to get me perscribed antidepressants as im 17 two weeks later and nothing, I self harmed with razors and attempted suicide again. I have suffered four years now and only plucked up the guts and now nothing all lies and bull **** if its correct that will get you the help then how long will it take? Even though a new job should pick me up it hasnt I am getting worse I cryed all morning before I got to work and pulled of the kitchen cupboard in fustration, my partner knows everything and is a great help but carnt keep putting him through all this (he has A level revision). Please tell me how long it will take, I carnt deal wth it anymore ( I hate it its like im imprisoned by depression and there will never be a way out )?

I have one very close friend who I sometimes speak to so dont sugest tht nor speaking to helplines just rang sumaratains and they sound just as depressed, Just want to no how long it will take please im desperate ?

Not going back to my GP it took me four years and will not go back phoned them and said it was down to some depression group crap.

and were I am in the groups 'list'

My parents dont know and will NEVER know sorry for all add details

My reasons for depression: Was take out of college as the said I wasnt trying > 1 failiure I quit 1 job> failure 2 I got sacked from my 3rd> failure number 3 I had an abortion ( and dont go all you should never have done it I know tht I feel as sick an suicidal enough about it as it is) I dont feel like a anyone special to my partner and that he dosnt love me > number four I have 3 close friends> not many friends

I have done all this since I left school so in turned failed my family , I am completley skint and havnt felt like a girly gir in ages as I'm trying to help my boyfriend with his rent bills shopping etc (i want to by the way) I also hate my self for not dyin last time > I failed suicide twice must there be any more reasons it dosnt run in the family before you ask

Answer 1

im not sure why the gp didnt prescribe the tablets himself its very odd you would normally get those straight away then refered for other things like the self harm go back tell him you heard nothing and your not improving at all
look at this link it might help with the feelings you are having

http://www.metanoia.org/suicide/

Answer 2

Do what I did: make a private appointment to see a psychiatrist and get the medicine that you need. The NHS has a waiting list, which is probably why you didn't hear anything after you saw your GP.

Yes, it's more expensive to go privately, but it's worth it to get the anti depressants. You can then take the private prescription to your doctor and they will write you an ordinary prescription so you don't have to pay much for the actual medication.

I also think that either you or your partner or a friend should phone the doctor's surgery and complain about the lack of support and help you're receiving; it's not good enough!

The medication will really, really, really help you, so do make an appointment.

NOTE: someone here has said you should try St John's Wort. You can't take this AND anti depressants - and you can't take it with the birth control pill either, or with many medicines. You need anti depressants - they really are the only thing that works with serious depression.

Answer 3

I've had clinical depression. You wouldn't happen to be on any meds? For instance, there's Prozac or Zoloft. Personally, when I was seriously depressed, I was prescribed Zoloft. I hate insurance companies; they pull you along like a yo-yo because they don't want to spend money. Tell them to prescribe you the needed medications or you will take your business elsewhere. You're suicidal and self-harming, no offense. Those are two major signs of depression. There is no way that they can't diagnose you with depression. Don't be unfighting; lash out if you have to, because it's their jobs to be helping you.
I know you feel like you might be weighing your partner down, but tell him that you are very grateful for his support and that you need him to get through this. That's the truth, and he'll understand.
Besides meds, maybe get a pet? It'll make you feel needed and important to the pet. Perhaps it'll give you joy.
Try getting a job that's something you know you are good at and like.
About feeling like a failure; you are not. I know this seems cliche, and it would be even more so had I not had depression myself, but you really aren't. Try to look at things more positively-although goodness knows, it's hard-and talk to those close friends and your partner. Just because you don't have many friends doesn't mean you don't have good friends. It's better to have 1 or 2 best friends that you know you can rely on than to have 6 friends that you can't rely on. That's some of my friends.
I know how you feel imprisoned; it's like you can't get out, and there's nothing that seems to have a point anymore. There is a way out; I'm much more functional now than I was during my depression.
You shouldn't have to wait any longer for the proper diagnosis and treatment if you've already waited four years.
If you'd like to keep in touch, that'd be great. Good luck.

Answer 4

I've had depression a couple of times in the past. The first time, I ended up going private to a homoeopath. Although it cost a bit, it did work. The second time wasn't as severe but in both cases I did recover. Ask your GP about this - he/she may prefer you to try conventional antidepressants first. Concerning the self harm, I'm a member of a website called www.nshn.co.uk (NSHN standing for National Self Harm Network). You'll find it's a great source of support. I do hope you get better soon. There is light at the end of the tunnel, however long it takes to reach it.

Answer 5

Sounds like you need a new GP. Are there any suicidal hotlines in your area? Call them, check yourself in if you need to but just get help. Don't wait. Go to the hospital if you aren't getting any help anywhere else and let them know you can NOT deal with it anymore. You can get help, things will get better. Depression is a chemical imbalance and until they get you some medication your going to continue to feel this way.

If you won't go to the hospital then at the very least consider taking St. Johns Wart or another homeopathic solution. Bioron has some over the counter medications which could help until you get to a new GP. But because of the severity of your depression I think you really need to go to the hospital.

Answer 6

I know life is not so good right now. My son went through suicide thoughts. I had a lot of trouble with our insurance. I called our local mental health and told them what was going on. They had me take him to the hospital, he was admitted, Because by law they could not release him because he threatened suicide. His insurance was approved because it was an emergency. He was put on the proper medication. He was able to be seen by a mental health Dr. and a Therapist. This is a fast way to get approval from your insurance co. He had to stay in the hospital for72 hrs. I am not sure where you are from in the USA we have a National Hope line Network[24 hours] 1-800-SUICIDE[1-800-784-2433] The listing is in our phone books. Please call and get the help you need. Your partner sounds like a great person, just keep on saying that you are a great person too.

Answer 7

Well, I feel clinically depressed sometimes too, but I chose not to go on any medication, because I simply don't believe in one. I don't believe there is a pill which can make us happy and un-depressed. And even if there was such a pill, would it magically solve our financial, personal and other problems in the real world? No, of course it wouldn't. The pill would have no effect on the real world whatsoever. So, I think the best way to deal with depression is to actually consult somebody and talk to people. That's how it works best for me. Sometimes I get so depressed, I can go to the kitchen and literally stab myself in the heart. But thankfully, whenever I get those suicidal thoughts, I talk to a close friend, and then the level of depression decreases, until - in a day's time - it goes away. You know, the depression comes and goes in waves. If it came to you on Monday, and you feel suicidal, you should know that by Wednesday at the most you'll feel different.
Also, it helps when you think about your future, and you imagine your future being bright.


And what's your cause for depression anyway? You didn't provide any details. Is it because of financial, or personal relationship problems?

Answer 8

Firstly please please please DO NOT blame yourself for all of this. Depression hits many many people and none of them deserve it, including you.

Well done for approaching the GP. It is scandalous that they have not helped you over the past fortnight to get some sensible medication and counselling to help you through this very bad time. Please go back to the GP and chase them up. Please stress just how bad you feel. If you don't feel that you can do this, please consider going to a 'walk in' clinic - they are open in the evenings, you can ring NHS direct and find out where your nearest one is.

As a last resort, please don't consider suicide, go straight to your local A&E dept at the hospital and ask to speak to one of the psychiatric liaison nurses, regardless of what day or time it is. They are trained to assess and help people in distress such as yourself. This is their job. This is what they are there for. Use it if you need it.

As for the abortion, I am sure at the time you felt that you were doing the right thing or the only thing available to you. Please do not blame yourself over this. Please find someone you can talk it through with, maybe again the GP has a counsellor you can see, anything you tell them will be confidential. Talking will not change anything, but it may make it easier to live with the pain than it is now.

I am sending you a hug.

Answer 9

I'm not going to lie to you, I was in tears when I read your question and all of your details. Its going to sound selfish but I honestly can say I know partially how you feel and I can see myself becoming you or being in your situation in no time with the way my life is going. I sincerely pray that you do not commit suicide because it is one of the worst pains that you could inflict on the people who care about you. I know that you said that you didn't want to talk to anybody about this but that would probably be the best thing for you to do, if for nothing else to just give you a chance to really think about what you're saying and thinking about doing before you do it. I'm also not going to lie to you and say that I am pro abortion but I view abortion as a tragedy from two points of view, for both the unborn child and the woman who has to live with the decision for the rest of her life. I don't think that people do enough to support people like you in your recovery from that because its got to be one of the hardest things a person can do. To be honest I don't know how long it will take for them to get you the antidepressents. It will probably be a lot longer than you had hoped especially because of all of the recalls on antidepressants. I hope that you can find a way to view this delay as a blessing in disguise because there is nothing worst than having this whole process rushed and you get stuck with some drugs that end up making you feel worst.
My prayers are with you. I don't know how comfortable you are talking to people on the web but at any time if you feel like it feel free to email me and I'll try my best to say something comforting or might help cheer you up some.

Answer 10

Hi there Kippa I had a friend with the very same symptoms as you. She tried to take her own life a few times, A very clever Psychiatrist discovered she was suffering from lack of serotonin in the brain, he put her on the right tablets and what a difference. She is a new person now, try and see a Psychiatrist. And the best of luck.