When Russell was away from me in Australia, my biggest fear was that something would happen to him and I'd never see him again. I'd ask him almost every night, "Promise you'll be careful. Promise you'll come home safe." He would always reassure me that he would be, and he would ask what could possibly happen to him. The only thing I could think of was that he might be hit by a car while walking to town.
When Russell died, he was walking well to the side of an old country road, with half a mile of empty country side in front of him and another half a mile behind him. The odds seem impossible that a sober driver would lose control of his car, swerve off the road, and hit him at 50 mph, when a moment earlier or a moment later Russell would have been safe and the car merely dinged up in a ditch.
Is it at all possible that my nightly worrying that Russell could get run over somehow caused him to get run over? It would break my heart if this was somehow my fault, but I need to know?
2007-05-31
08:01:11
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Aeryn Whitley
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