Nowhere to Go?

Question

I think I've hit rock bottom--I've come to the realization that only I can make myself happy--and if that's the case, that's a darn scary thought--I feel like I don't have anyone, my life has no purpose, I'm definitely not needed, and that makes day to day tasks let alone projects an insurmountable Everest--but if I did do my work--what would it matter anyway--just hopping from one boulder to the next--if it's really about the journey rather than the destiny, my life is an dismal failure at this point. Maybe something's wrong with me--but I tend to not buy into the whole prescrip. drug thing. I feel like everyone else is having such a great time and I can't enjoy myself. If there is a hell, I guess this is mine--and what a sad way to live. I feel so closed in like there's absolutely nowhere to go, no escape--I feel like this is my destiny and there's no way out. I've pushed out everyone that ever mattered to me and there's just no way to deal.

Answer 1

Aww...you should go to church. People there will accept you and help you through your problems and love you no matter what.
Ok I sound like some hardcore religion freak, but seriously give it a try. People there are really friendly and if you find Jesus I think your life will have more purpose in it. I know that happened for me...
Drugs are bad...my uncle had depression and he took drugs and now he acts like a really scary mellow vegetable, and when he doesn't take it he turns really violent.

Answer 2

perhaps, my dear, you have really not hit rock bottom, you have only just started the journey upward.

You're right, only you can make yourself happy. Only you can decide to enjoy life and all of the wonderful things of this world.

It sounds to me like you're uncomfortable with the decisionf of those around you to abuse drugs (And yes, I do think that prescription meds, even if taken with a prescription, are over-used and I think it is abusive toward the body)

We are living in crazy times. Not feeling normal is a blessing, it means you might have a chance!

Time spent hopping from boulder to boulder has helped you reach this decision, where will the rest of your journey take you? You can't continue hopping from boulder to boulder now; knowing what you now know. Where will you go? You have the power, enjoy!

You are only trapped by your mind.

I recommend a book- actually the book isn't nearly as good as the audio version, or even the movie. Visit http://www.thesecret.tv for more information.

Answer 3

Same thing here. I've felt this way since I was about 10 or 11. I'm 13 now and seeing a psychologist. The only thing is that every time I exit his office, things go back to being terrible. What seems like a good plan to combat my depression totally disappears from my thoughts. I'm on a medicine for anxiety and obsessive-compulsive disorder that should help with depression, I guess - Lexapro (www.lexapro.com). It has helped my anxiety and OCD, but my depression not at all. If I think of a way to get life back again, I'll let you know. No ideas yet..I hope that you can find a doctor to help you and that maybe you won't have the same trouble I have of reverting back to being severely depressed after exiting the doctor's office. :-(
Just know that there are other people dealing with what you're going through; people of all ages - my post should prove just that. Keep your chin up (try). Hey, once you've hit rock bottom, things can't get any worse! ;-) .... :'(

Answer 4

Life is full of little journeys. This is just one of them and you will get through it. It is only your destiny if you die tomorrow.

You have a road ahead of you. You will deal with it, with or without help. The point is you will get through it just like many others who feel the same pain as you.

What ever ails you, as a person you will gravitate to what can heal you. All of us are needed. You submitting your question can make another feeling like yourself, a sense of not being alone. See you are needed.

Just realising you have hit rock bottom means you had a much better life at some earlier stage. Think of it as a chapter, hurdle whateva. You will get through it, just take realistic steps one day at a time and climb out of the hole your in.

We all have purpose. And yes it is about the journey from one boulder to the next thats what life is all about. You have hit rock bottom cos something is about to change. Embrace and wait. Lets hope its a rollercoaster ride and dont forget to remember where it started.

Answer 5

Take it easy now.
Breathe in, breathe out.
Take it one minute at a time.

There are two places I have always found sanctuary.
One is in a church and the other in a library.
Doesn't have to be your church, doesn't have to be your religion. Just some place with sacredness and grace. A place of peace to think. There is usually someone to talk to.
The library- i would walk the rows of books waiting for something to grab hold of me.

Read and watch these will you? If you truly want to feel better then you have to do something different than you have done so far right? I mean, if you are always doing the same things you will always get the same results.

Read: The Purpose Driven LIfe by Rick Warren.
Read: Your Best Life Now by Joel Osteen
Watch: The Secret DVD (www.thesecret.tv)
Watch:Conversation with God by Neale Donald Walsch

You should be able to get these all at the library so it won't cost you anything but could give you the answers you need so desperately. hang in there and don't do anything stupid like hurt yourself- you'd really piss God off if you hurt one of his creations-you.
You were created for right here right now and YOU are important to this planet. There are reasons you were made for here and now and with the unlimited potential you have available to you right now at your fingertips here on the net.
Go to a church or the library or both. Reach out your hand and there will be another to lift you up out of this pit...

Answer 6

If you've hit rock bottom start by finding a way to hoist yourself out of the well. Start with little things like focusing on the positive (example-health) and build from there. EVERYONE is worthwhile and is put on this earth for a purpose. You just haven't found your purpose yet but, you will!

Answer 7

You are absolutly right there is no one that can MAKE you happy but you, it's not someone elses responsibility nor is it yours to MAKE them happy. Ultimately we are responsible for ourselves all around it's a good thing 'cause who else knows what really makes us happy anyway? Make it your mission to find out what makes you happy ...most people can't tell you if asked..try it out on your friends...there is the start to your journey. Most people go about looking for the right person instead of working on BEING the right person.

Answer 8

HIS NAME MY FRIEND IS JESUS CHRIST! HE IS YOUR ANSWER. HE IS WHAT YOU ARE LOOKING FOR! NOTHING WILL SATISFY OTHER THAN HIM. HE SAID ALL WHO ARE BURDENED AND HEAVY LAIDEN COME AND I WILL GIVE YOU REST. SEEK AFTER HIM HE WILL FILL YOU TO OVERFLOWING! I BECAME BORN AGAIN 3 YEARS AGO AND LET ME LET YOU KNOW I COULD HAVE WRITTEN YOUR EMAIL; I WAS WHERE YOU ARE, AND JESUS IS YOUR ANSWER. HE IS SO VERY GOOD.

read the online bible if you don't have one! make sure it is a holy bible!!! King james or new king james is the best. I will now pray for you! i love you and you are not alone!!

Lord Jesus, you see this precious child who you love so much that you died on the cross for. I know you have a purpose for this life and I am asking that you interviene and open her eyes Father that you would save her now Lord, show her who you are and your love for her. I ask in your holy name Jesus and I love you God. Amen

Answer 9

I´m in a similar position, you have to get some friends, talk to people, even if you think they are not very good, you can judge later, hear others opinion.
Give a big "**** you" to work you dont like, do what you like, even if little money comes.
Not everyone is happy, there are so many wars and **** happening...
TALK TO PEOPLE, or else you're doomed.
there are many people who would enjoy your company, not just beeing with you because they have to, go out, fell the blood running thru your body.
get back the persons you pushed away.
good luck :)

Answer 10

Sounds like you have a severe case of depression. From what you are saying you need to seek professional help. It can either physical or psychological but you need to go to a doctor to find out. And be honest with your doctor about it that is the only way they can help you.