what shall i do?

Question

hi am markita am 15 everyday i cry an i used to cut my self but i dont anymore i feel as i might start again i think of my ex again an again i mizz him its like once ur single u want someone to bring that touch back that feeling i try not to be all out there but i want love now an if it doesnt come am goin to take it i feel so lonely an i dont know y i cry so much i feel so alone an i have lots of probs like angry an i get mad really quick an jeousy alot i want to talk to someone before i go back to cutting but i cant tell my mom she wouldnt understand nobody does i tryed telling the skool consulor but she threated me that she would tell my mom who can i talk to who can i tell i feel like am goin to kill my self i tryed cuting my risk i need help i feel it but who can i trust do u kno wat i can do a consulor somethen i even have a suicde hotline on my fone juz if i get that way i feel like my world is falling an am sliping away 4rm life

Answer 1

I'm sorry that you are feeling so bad. Are you being treated by a psychiatrist? I can see from your symptoms that you should be. There is help for you. you don't have to continue too feel this bad.

You are having symptoms from depression and grieving the loss of your bf. Why don't you want your mother to know that you are having thoughts of suicide. You say she wouldn't understand, but is it really that you are afraid she will tell your doctor?

I don't know, but you said that you used to cut yourself, quit doing that, and are worrying that you will start again. Usually a person is not able to stop cutting themselves unless they have treatment for this and get on medications.

In any case, you should be seeing a doctor and should probably be on medications. If you are already on medications, you need to have your meds adjusted.

You may think that I don't understand, but I used to work as a psych RN on adult and adolescent units. I've met a lot of girls your age and older that had your exact symptoms and got to feel much better after treatment and getting on medication.

Your mother has to be the one to take call or take you to go to the doctor. If she won't do this you need to tell your teacher or counslor at school and they can help you.If you feel that you are in danger of harming yourself, go directly to a hospital Emergency Room.

Even though you worry that you may never experience love again, I assure you that you will love again. I am 64 y/o and have had to go through the grieving process after losing a love about 6 times.

Each time I worried that no girl or woman would ever love me again. Yet, after each time eventually someone came along that I loved and loved me in return. At 15 y/o you have too much life ahead of you for you to not be able to find love again.

God bless you honey.

Answer 2

Please do yourself a favor and reach out for help. Talk to an adult, this is serious. A parent, teacher, guidance counselor, or other trusted adult. Just remember-they want to help you. They care about you as a person. They love you.You sound very depressed and lonely. Please reach out for help before you do something very regretful.

I'm fourteen and I really care about you and your welfare. You sound like a very sweet girl, that is in desperate need of a friend. I know that world may seem like ti hates you at times, but there ARE ways to help yourself without causing yourself harm. Think about all of your wonderful qualities and how much you are loved.

If you need to, call the suicide hotline. The people there are understanding and will help you.

Answer 3

See depression and suicidal thoughts and self harm and anger at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris on pages 2, 5, & 4. Resolve to stop thinking about him, as it is not helpful: use the technique for dealing with negative thoughts on page 2, and practise daily, and when needed, either the mindfulness breathing, or the mantra repetition. Try the EFT for at least a few weeks, to see if it works for you. See http://www.relationships-affairs.com (.com/your-ex.html ) and BOARDS at http://www.mental-health-today.com (.com/ptsd/index.html ) Visit your doctor, and ask for a referral. I don't know if the guided meditation on "ending loneliness" at http://www.meditainment.com ($$$) or http://nolongerlonely.com will help. Consider a therapeutic massage, as it may well be of benefit. The sooner you recover from that failed relationship: the sooner you will be able to become open to the possibility of a new one.

Answer 4

i know what you are talking about i feel the same way sometimes just start breaking down and crying for no reason and it makes you feel so bad. you need to find someone that you can talk to like a really close friend that youknow will not tell anyone it is what i do and it helps enough to make me not want to kill myself anymore.

Answer 5

Think of the good times in your life. I know you have had some and the best is yet to come. It is hard to imagine now but you will one day think "How could I ever think of anything but living?" We get one shot at living and we encouter so many people. Be blessed and be a blessing.

Answer 6

do not suicide over a boy. this is wrong. he is boy he will come and go. and you know what it is HIS loss. but dont cut yourself. if you want you can contact me. im 12 though. but im a really good listener and im known to have therapy powers. i get jelous too. but i crying is ok but dont cut your self. this is rebelion. just talk to him and tell him how you feel. give him a hug.

Answer 7

Hi Markita:

I am here if you need to talk. You may feel free to contact me anytime when you need to or even want to.

IM: myluvallen
email: [e-mail]

Answer 8

I hope the police and rescue will be at your house soon.

Until then, contact:

http://suicidehotlines.com/