I want real answers PLEASE, not criticism.?

Question

I randomly get animalistic rage to kill people, physically harm people, shred them to pieces in horrid ways. I get these morbid thoughts about murder/mutilation, and a powersurge of pure energy that keeps me wired. I take on a crazed attitude, pacing about, cranking up my ipod, pretty much holding myself back from what I'm drawn to doing. I feel like I have to get away or just keep walking, even when I don't know where I'm going or it's too late to go anywhere. I feel like a beast out for a kill. I get a bloodlust and a desire to kill, but I control it. I get it sometimes at school, sometimes at night, and after church especially. I can't help it and I don't try and induce it; it just happens. I don't take any meds and don't have any mental disorders. Is it my imagination, or is it something else?

Answer 1

This sounds pretty serious. I would go see a psychiatrist.

Answer 2

You mentioned some interesting observations. It sounds as if there is a physical element to these urges, "a powersurge of pure energy that keeps me wired" this would imply that you are not imagining these events, as if in a dream or blackout, but that you truly have these fantasies. That is what it is to date......a fantasy. Our minds can produce images of many acts that we are not likely to act out. To say " I don't take any meds and don't have any mental disorders" it is not even wise for the most successful psychiatrist to make that statement about him/herself, that is a self diagnosis. We, especially men, apply this to our physical injuries also,........"I'm fine, I'll see the doctor next week". Another point of view is necessary, whether it be an individual or an x-ray machine. Sometimes things are seen that we could not see. This is causing you pain, if something in your abdomen hurt you as badly, would you not seek a medical opinion? There can be triggers that you do not associate at this time, you cannot be totally objective when dealing with yourself. Go see a doctor, you have nothing to lose do you?, and be painfully honest with him as you have done here. Even if he can't fix it, but only makes it easier to deal with, and therefor less painful, it will be worth it. Only those that seek or desire change will do so, your on the way. Good luck

Answer 3

I don't know what this is, but I go through the same thing. Mine is mildly more constant though, so I act somewhat like an animal most of the time. I hide it pretty well, but some people have noticed. My favorite solution is to do something immediate and phsyical. Right now my parents have assigned my the summer job of cutting down two trees in the back yard and all I have is a hatchet, so there's a very good way to vent for me. If that's not available then a lot of times I'll start slamming the but of my palm against doorframes, usually on the outside wall to avoid drawing attention. I've also bought a rope chew-toy, it gives me something to naw on.

Answer 4

Almost every answer so far suggested seeking professional help. In as much as you control your mental temper tantrums about all I suggest you do is seek an anger management specialist. You are not out of control and your "crazed attitudes" have frightened you to the point you have asked for advice. That means the "animalistic rages" are unwelcome.

I am not an anger management specialist but I have experienced sadistic mental rages myself toward others and found that physically acting them out on something like a punching bag or just hard strenuous labor dispels the urges. I knew a guy once that said he would go to the golf driving range, buy a bucket of balls and imagine his bosses face on each one as he drove it out of the park; that satisfied his anger. My Mother, when she would get angry with my Father, would bake a batch of bread and as she punched the rising bread own with her fists you could hear her murmuring, "I need you like a baker kneads bread!"

Also some thought (imagined?) of an act by another or real act by another is triggering these outbursts so if you avoid such triggers as much as possible it would help. You mentioned that your "blood-lust" especially occurs after church; some ministers have a way of inciting anger in their congregations by describing acts of evil or persecution toward innocents or the faithful by others. Avoid such pastors. Avoid mentally dwelling on such ideas.

Good luck, good health, peace and love!.

Answer 5

You need professional help immediately before these impulses over power you. There are newer drugs that might help, and also newer kinds of therapy. You need to look for either a psychologist or a psychiatrist. If you are in your early 20s, it is especially important you go get some help. Don't be embarrassed, you certainly aren't the only one and nothing you could say will shock them. I've worked as a mental health therapist myself and nothing shocks me any more. There are good people that want to help you. Get going first thing in the morning and regain control over yourself.


Kent in SD

Answer 6

I am not sure what's going on with you. If all this is coming out in a form of anger or what. But, you do sound like you need professional help to get to the bottom of it. This might also be from a undiagnosed medical problem. Seek help from a professional.

Answer 7

Maybe you just havnt been diagnosed with a mental disorder. If you can control it then no harm done, but if it ever gets the better of you do you want to waste your life in prison?

Answer 8

Animalistic rage? Welcome to the Jungle! You do have a mental disorder. Go to an emergency room, You may well be a danger to others or your self.Time for an emergency psych consult.

Answer 9

It's not your imagination, it's a form of schizophrenia and it would be in your best interest to seek help for it. A doctor can give you a prescription to control your feelings.

Answer 10

you need to seek professional help asap either at your mental
health resource center or a psychiatrist theywould be best to
determine what is going on with you and get you straightened
out. good luck and take care!!!