i spyed on my grandma. she took my brothers to her house. grandma never did for me. why hadnt grandma favored me the way she did to the boys? my feelings for grandma turned cold. the women who used to take care of me had turned into a moster. now all i have left is hatred. i heard grandma giving them cookies, telling them stories and giving them snacks. i heard them eating their snacks. those lucky ducks! it made me feel sick inside. i hated seeing them get good things. i didnt even deserve a glance at the good life. i am a stupid nothing to my grandma and im just a pawn in her stupid games. at night, i no longer dreamed. during the day, i no longer thinked. when i woke up, i was no longer refreshed. without my dreams, i felt hopeless. i told myself my grandma does love me, that always made me smile. but deep down, i knew it was a fantasy. whenever i walked outside, a feeling of darkness came over me. it dawned on me that grandma no longer loved me. i felt so rejected. even the sun tried to avoid me. as i spyed i could hear her soothing voice telling them a story. i hated each and everyone of them. it was bad enough hearing her tell them the story. it reminded me of the good grandma i had many years ago. now the boys even refused to let me come. i no longer cared when my brothers made fun of me. my soul became so cold that i hated everything around me. i hated the sound of my brothers laughing and them getting treats from my grandma. my stomach coiled when i heard grandma saying i love you to my brothers knowing it wasnt meant for me. i hated grandma and wish she were dead. but before she died, i wanted her to feel my pain. as i spyed, i imagined i was one of them and i smiled.
2007-05-26 15:46:24 · 5 answers · asked by Anonymous in Family & Relationships ➔ Family
Honey we all are going to die one day, and now that grandma is dead, it's time for you to move on.
2007-05-26 15:50:43 · answer #1 · answered by Hollynfaith 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
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2016-11-27 22:24:14 · answer #2 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
Honey, you need to stop thinking about this. Talk to your mother or someone you can trust about your feelings. Please stop letting it eat at you this way, it does no good and is only hurting you, no one else. Do you have a counselor at school you can talk to? You really need to get some perspective on this before you let it ruin you. People will stop liking you if your heart is filled with hate. Pray for the Lord to forgive your grandmother. She probably didn't realize how hurtful she was being. Forgive her and move on.
If she is still alive your mom or dad should discuss this with her.
2007-05-26 15:59:38 · answer #3 · answered by lcmcpa 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I feel the same way about my mother. it hurts a lot and people are going to tell you to suck it up but you can't. Just tell your grandmother how you feel and if she says its bull tell her it isn't and thats how you feel and if she even cares about you she would spend more time with you instead of the boys
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2007-05-26 15:57:19 · answer #4 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋
You want her to feel your pain? Send this to her in letter form and make sure she reads it.
One thing is for sure. You can write.
2007-05-26 15:52:24 · answer #5 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 0⤋