I've slipped back into alcoholism since yesterday afternoon. I've thrown up twice. I am drinking this mornin

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it's my day off. Anyone have some good advice? I don't want this but I can't stop drinking peppermint schnapps 60 proof. :( Any support would be nice. Rude comments aren't needed in this low point.

I just got the right not to go to A.A. after 6 months of attending. And I went to a rehab by force and I lost my apartment and had to drop out of school over it. So I don't look to either for help.

Stuff Buster, you think outside of the norm. I like that actually. When my mind is more in a bit of "control" I will most likely look up those links. Thank you, I think you have 10 points later.

Jen, that is a caring answer and I do want to say thanks. I am going to get another pint in a bit. But I will chill after that I hope. And for those listening I do not drive I have a mountain bike.

Answer 1

The first thing I would ask is do you really want to stop drinking and if so why?

If you (and not anyone else such as family, friends, your boss) want to stop drinking then give energy therapy such as EFT a try.

EFT (Emotional Freedom Techniques) is a drug free therapy that does not involve going to meetings or any step programs. You learn how to help yourself - and helping yourself gives the power back to you... as well as your self confidence.

If this has been going on for a long time you will probably need help from a qualified EFT therapist at least to start. The therapist will help teach you how to do EFT yourself.

You can find out more from these web sites below - and good luck.

Answer 2

You never said how long you had been sober or what made you want to drink again. But whatever it was you can do this. Walk from it you did it before be strong you know if it wasn't schnapps you couldn't stop with it would be whatever else you started again with, Remember how proud you &other people were when you weren't a drunk. You say on here you are at a low point you must have a good friend, or a sponsor or find an AA meeting just to instill why you don't want to drink. I know you can do it. You are asking us for help. Ask someone who can physically be there. God grant you the Serenity

Answer 3

You never stopped being an alcoholic--even when you were sober. Your phrasing makes me think you had an cavalier attitude that may have been your undoing.

Only You can help you. You have to decide that you've had enough--that the damage you are doing to your health, relationships, and your career are no longer a fair trade in exchange for the "fun" of being drunk.

One note-- if I ever ate in a restaurant, then spent the night throwing up, I'd have a major problem eating again at the same restaurant. If suffering violent illness can't get your attention, then I fear you are unhelp-able.

Answer 4

You've gotta stop. Do you really want to spend the whole weekend drunk? If you keep drinking, you're going to feel really guilty, and it's going to keep you in the alcoholism cycle. You need to dump out all your alcohol, take a shower and sleep off the rest of what you drank. When you wake up, you need to call someone, a supportive friend or AA and get support to get back on the wagon again. For the rest of the weekend try to do things to take care of yourself, to make yourself feel better...go to a movie, go to the bookstore, buy something you've wanted for awhile (like a new jersey, or tool or something) Whatever you do don't sit around your house feeling sorry for yourself, so you fell off the wagon..yeah it sucks but get over and try to do better next time. Start to figure out what triggers you to drink and avoid those things. Just whatever you do, please get rid of all the alcohol in your house, let it all go, you don't need it!! God bless you, and good luck!

Answer 5

Only you can change this behavior. No one can make you stop. You have taken the first step in realizing this is not acceptable. If you are serious about stopping find a support group in you area. Also keep in mind you are not the only one who is being effected by you behavior - there are probably friends and family being effected by this as well. I have seen many families torn apart by such behavior including my own. Again, if you are serious go get help.

Answer 6

alcoholic anonymous helps, they have a great support team and encouragement to help stop, also seeing a Dr would help to put you where u need to be. they have a 12 step program to help you and team you up with someone you can call. it is normal to fall of the ban wagon as it is put in early stages of recovery. don't be to hard on yourself. the first step is knowing you have a problem and you have done that. it is a power that has us called addiction, you need to break this and support is needed for you to be able to do this, get in contact with your local supports through your Dr what do you mean u have the right not to go after 6 months, you can go as long as you need but if you have chosen not to go that's up to you, also try a drug and alcohol councilor then

Answer 7

not ready to quit evidently. youll have to check in to rehab to stop when your time comes, then AA or some such for continued support afterwards. Something less horrible to the stomach might be a better choice in the interim...beer maybe?

Answer 8

Go to an AA meeting. Look them up in the phone book Call them now

Answer 9

How about calling your sponsor and going to an AA meeting----that is the only way you are going to be able to stop. IF you want to stop, that is..

Find a meeting:
http://www.alcoholics-anonymous.org/en_find_meeting.cfm

Answer 10

I'm assuming that when you say you have the right not to go to AA that you were court ordered to do so, as well as the forced rehab. It is too bad you didn't go into things with an open mind, but you are not alone. Relapse though isn't much fun either is it?
If you've had 6 months of sobriety, you now know that sobriety can be great. My worst day in sobriety is still better than my best day drinking, the trouble that got me into just doesn't compare.
Relapse is very, very common yet eventually people get it, the problem of course is in your thinking, drinking is the symptom, they must have told you that in rehab. Do you know what triggered your drinking yesterday?
The best thing I could do when I felt like drinking was call someone who understood what I was going through, the compulsive urge is not understood by normal people. Their brains aren't trying to kill them, that's how I look at it, "Help my brain is trying to kill me." You need to talk to someone who understands what our self talk does to us, and that is what is so great about AA, we all know the feelings.
Going to a meeting after a relapse is probably one of the hardest things to do. Talking about it is even harder, I was so full of pain, guilt, shame, remorse, and the thought that I was letting everyone down, it was unbearable. But, I did tell my group and after the meeting I couldn't believe how much support I recieved. They weren't mad at me, they understood, told me stories of their struggles and relapses, they did not reject me but offered me comfort and encouragement, where my family and friends were basically ready to right me off again.
Perhaps, you didn't find the right group for you. I know I had to shop around until I found one I felt comfortable with. I've been to groups I'd never suggest anyone new to sobriety should go to. You will find self righteous people everywhere, even in AA. I was given some good advice and that was, listen, take what will help you, and leave the rest behind. There are people in AA whose problems go beyond drinking.
Now, I doubt you'll stop drinking before you're done your current bottle, what waste Alcohol? I couldn't, I had to finish that bottle, couldn't dump it out, just couldn't...it just didn't make sense (the stinking thinking in full swing). Go to bed and sleep it off. When you get up try giving someone a call, or call the AA crisis line where they don't know you and is easier, but you must reach out to someone. You are not alone in this, there are so many of us willing to help you and it doesn't require another stint in rehab. Do not give up on yourself, you are worth it. This is a hiccup on the road to recovery.
I know in AA you have to get rid of any chips you have gotten but so what! A girlfriend of mine lost her sobriety after 5 years sober and I remember her telling me that she was devastated to lose that clean time and it held her back from going to meetings. Finally she talked to her sponsor who told her she hadn't lost 5 years of sobriety, just the week when she went back out. She said that made all the difference in the world. So you haven't really lost 6 months, just a day so far...don't beat yourself up. Pick yourself up, you can do it. The fact that you are drinking but reaching out for help is actually a positive thing, you don't want it. Whether you realize it or not, you are saying this is not the life you want, you must have seen the benefits of sobriety and want it back. That's great!
You can do this, I know you can. Be patient with yourself, this sobriety is new, and scary, and it is not unusual to want to go back to what we know and are comfortable with, even if it is self destructive.
You slipped up, forgive yourself, and move forward. My heart is breaking for you, I'm actually in tears as I write because I know your pain so well, and I don't wish it on anyone, it is so overwhelming.
I don't know if anything I've said is helpful to you, I hope something is, my heart goes out to you and I wish you the very best in recovery.