Does this sound like the start of an eating disorder?

Question

Please don't tell me I need to get help. I am having a hard time keeping myself together. I feel useless to guys. My parents hate me. I can't cheer anymore. I'm a wreck. My little cousin also called me "tiny fat". I feel like I am losing it. I've thrown up once already and I am on the scale all the time. I pinch my fat and I can't stand what I see in the mirror. I'm getting fatter by the second. I am starting to eat less but then I had tacos and pizza today, I felt like dying. So tommorow my fat @$$ is not going to eat at all. I promise. I want to be skinny, I want everyone to notice my thinness. I want to be 40 lbs. less by the start of the new school year. I want to fit in amazing clothes. I want guys to think I'm hott. What's wrong with me..

Answer 1

It sounds like you're obsessing about your body. It's easy to criticize yourself when your feeling down, but realize that the problems you've told us that are stressing you out AREN'T about your weight.

I'm not going to preach to you, but I want you to know what you'd be getting into with an eating disorder. I have been recovering from anorexia for the last 3 years, and I still can't see an end to it. It caused me to lose all of my friends. I could never go out to eat with anyone. I'd always call and cancel plans because I would always be so tired, or I'd have a headache, or it would cut into my workout schedule, or all of the above. I always had to come up with lies to try and hide what I wasn't eating.

On top of destroying all of my relationships, it made me feel awful all of the time. Imagine the ache you get when you have your period or the touch of the flu and that is how I felt all of the time. I would shiver all of the time because I was so cold. It'd be a 90 degree day and I'd be wearing a winter coat to stay warm. I developed fine little hairs all over. I would take three steaming hot showers/baths a day to try and warm up.

Then there was the other fun stuff like dealing with my hair falling out. My eyes became really sunken in and my skin got really dried out. People thought I was 10 years older than I really am. Other people have made comments that they thought I looked strung out on drugs, what with my appearance and shivering and all. And guys may have thought I was hot, but they didn't want to know me, they just wanted to get me alone and use me for sex. Every guy I knew went running off as soon as they figured out I had a problem.

Then there is what it does to your mind. I started losing my ability to remember things and concentrate. I'd watch a tv show, walk into the next room, and then not be able to remember what I had just been watching. I had to drop out of college and was in danger of losing my job. I started sleep walking well, sleep eating. I actually got one of my roommates pizzas and put it in the oven while asleep. I woke up to the smoke alarm going off. After that, I felt I had to tie all of my cupboards and refrigerator shut before I went to bed. (crazy!)

I know this was long, but I feel it's important for you to know. This all started with one diet for me. I thought that if I just lost some weight, my life would get better and people would like me. I wanted to let you know that it doesn't work that way. There isn't a day that goes by that I don't wish I could go back and do things differently. It's cost me all my friends and family, and countless of thousands of dollars on top of that. It isn't anything you want. Trust me.

Answer 2

I was bulemic from the time I was 14. Stop while you're ahead. My heart goes out to you. You are starting a deadly destructive cycle that really has nothing to do with food. It is about how you feel about yourself. 1. You can not measure your self worth by what a guy- who is at your age still a child, thinks about you. -YOU ARE PRICELESS! 2. You're parents love you. They would be very concerned if they read this. 3. Become your own cheer leader. Treat yourself as special & as important as cheering on a football team. My mom pulled me out of the squad when I was 15- I thought it was the end of the world 4. You're little cousin is just doing what little cousin are supposed to do. Lighten up! 5. Stay off the scale! It will drive you crazy- obviously. 6. You are not gettin fatter by the second- its all in your head. When I look back at pictures of myself when I was a teenager throwing up my food thinking I was fat, I realize I was not fat at all. Just had really low self esteem & a distorted idea of what I looked like. 7. Dying will not solve anything, so dont ever say that again. 8. Stop sabotaging yourself with pizza & tacos. Eat healthy. Even if you have a piece of pizza with a salad. Or a taco or two with a salad. Who throws up veggies & fruits and healthy food? Nobody. 9. Stop worrying about what guys think. No one can love you or think you're 'hot' if you dont love yourself. 10. Not a dogon thing is wrong with u. Beloved please, I beg you- No more throwing up your food! I have tears in my eyes typing this because I know where you are & where you are heading if you keep that up.

Answer 3

Oh sweety, it will be ok. I won't tell you to get help, because I think you already know there is a problem needing attention. It does sound like the start to a serious problem if you don't get it under control. I am sure your parents do not hate you so don't think that way. Start eating the right kinds of food, (and don't throw them up.) You need nutrition to lose weight and if you are throwing up, no nutrients will get to where they need to be. Try to be drinking 8 8oz. glasses of water a day. This is key to losing weight. As far as the guys go, if they can't think highly of you the way you are now, they are not worth your time. If you really want to lose weight, set your mind to it and do it...in a healthy way. Limit breads, sugar, red meat. Go for the fruit, vegis, chicken, turkey...... You can do it and show em all what you are made of. Please do not ruin your health and life by making yourself sick. You are a one of a kind! Embrace that and get up and boogie. I am praying for you. If you ever want to email me i am [e-mail]. I am a personal trainer/aerobic instructor and will be glad to answer any questions you may have. Good luck and God bless.

Answer 4

Here is how I knew I had an consuming ailment: I suffered from melancholy, my dad and mom have been going via a custody wrestle, and i did not wish to consume. I ate as soon as an afternoon, dinner, and that i ate little or no. after university (my mom packed my lunch) I might cross spend three hours an afternoon on the dance studio, and burn off the entire energy i had ate from the night time earlier than, the entire three hundred-500 energy, that is now not even adequate to maintain any fats, permit on my own for a ten yr historical. then I noticed myself within the reflect, worn out run down, you would see my backbone. being thin wasn't valued at it, i advised my mother and that i bought aid, whilst I was once 12. you want aid, i went 2 years considering my concept system was once average. I concept that being thin was once the whole lot, i lived to lose a dimension it was once so unhealthy that I was once dressed in a youngsters 7/eight in 7th grade. Please do not be like me, please get aid. Being skinny is not the whole lot, being average is. I'm nonetheless now not healthful with the intention to say, i am nonetheless tiny, i am nonetheless tired quite simply, i am pleased you admire that you're opening an consuming ailment, perhaps you'll be able to snap yourself out of it like I could not do. Best of success, get aid please.

Answer 5

I'm currently trying to recover from an eating disorder. I have caused myself permanent damage from what I have done to my body and it is a very very difficult thing to get out of. It does not make you happy, it makes you miserable. It takes over your life, you will constantly feel ill, you will avoid social situations and lose touch with a lot of friends. You will think you are in control at first but as the disorder progresses you realise that in fact you are not in control at all, the disorder is in control of you.

Please please please find someone to talk to, if not your doctor a close friend or even a teacher. The best most effective way to lose weight and keep it off is to eat a healthy balanced diet and step up your activity levels. Starving and throwing up may cause dramatic weight loss at first but your metabolism will eventually slow down so much that you will stop losing weight even if you are barely eating a thing, and that is a horrible situation to be in.

You said you want guys to think you're hot, well let me tell you when I was active in my eating disorder I was FAR from hot. My skin was dull, my hair was thin, my eyes were tired I just looked ill. Not 'hot' at all.

Answer 6

There is nothing wrong with you. If you want to lose weight, you can't starve yourself. I was having problems with my weight too, so i decided to cut down on the fried food and junk food. I lost 21 pounds. I used to weigh 128Lbs. and know i weigh 107Lbs. You need to exercise to keep from gaining excess weight and eat 200 less calories than your normal intake. But you have to eat. Also, don't think negatively because that will just make things worse. Don't look at the parts of your body that you don't like, look at the positive parts.

Hope this helps you out.

Answer 7

believe you don't want to be where i am now. Try talking to someone you trust.Work out, eat right but starving yourself is not the answer, your metabolism will slow down and the few times you do eat your body will store it as FAT. that 40 lbs will turn into you wanting to be under 100 lbs. Most guys don't like super thin girls they will call you names, being thin will not fix your problems with your parents even though you want it to, it will make things worse.there will never be a time you think you are thin enough

Answer 8

Nothing is wrong with you! Every woman is on the quest to become more appealing, etc. eating nothing is just hurting yourself. your body isn't getting the nutrients it needs to keep living, and whenever you decide to eat again will make your body store even MORE fat because it thinks that you're going to stop eating again.


My tip: You don't have to stop eating, eat the same amount as you do now, but eat healthier foods. Apples, oranges, strawberries and watermelon can be pretty delicious, and they'll keep you healthy and feeling well!

Answer 9

SARAH I AM GOING TO SPEAK TO YOU FROM MY HEART. I AM NOT GOING TO SAY I KNOW FOR SURE THAT THIS IS THE REAL REASON FOR YOU WANTING TO STARVE AND BETRAY YOUR SELF FROM THE FOOD YOU NEED, BUT I KNOW WHEN I DO THIS MY ISSUES GO FARTHER THAN JUST THINKING I'M FAT.. I AM A VERY DEPRESSED WOMAN WHO FEELS VERY LONELY ALL THE TIME. EVEN WHEN I'M AROUND MY THREE LOVING CHILDREN. I NEED TO BE TOLD 27 7 I AM BEAUTIFUL OR I FEEL WORTHLESS AND FAT, AND IN REALITY I'M NOT. THIS EATING DISORDER IT IS A PROBLEM THAT LIES DEEPER IN MY SOUL. SO WHAT I HOPE FOR YOU MY DEAR IS THAT YOU CAN TURN THIS AROUND AND MAKE IT POSITIVE BECAUSE YOUR SO YOUNG AND YOU HAVE A CHANCE. DIG INSIDE FEEL WHATS THERE PULL IT OUT DEAL WITH IT, DON'T LET IT HURT YOU. STOP IT, STAND UP, SAY, I'M BEAUTIFUL TO YOUR SELF DO NOT LET ANY ONE TELL YOU DIFFERENT. I REALLY WANT A DIFFERENT LIVE FOR YOU CAUSE I LIVED A DEPENDENT LIVE ON ALCOHOL AND MANY OTHER THINGS, JUST SO I COULD MELT THE PAIN AND FEEL ALIVE. PLEASE DON'T BE ME, BE BRAVE BE STRONG! I'M OFFERING A PART OF ME I WISH AT ONE TIME SOMEONE OFFERED TO ME! TAKE IT PLEASE FIX IT LIVE.. PLEASE.. YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL... OKAY. TO ME, AND TO YOUR FAMILY. ***YOUR ARE A DAUGHTER! THAT IS WHY YOU ARE PRICELESS TO ME*** BECAUSE I CAN ONLY HOPE SOME ONE WOULD HELP MY BABY GIRL THIS WAY.. STAY STRONG.. IF YOU NEED ME CLICK ON MY SITE AND I WILL BE HERE TO LISTEN ALWAYS..

Answer 10

I'd suggest that you eat, but if you'd prefer, maybe eating some healthy foods, such as salad and things like that.

Not eating food for long periods of time isn't too healthy for you.

Also, losing a lot of weight in a short amount of time may also be harmful for you.