what am i?am i destined to be a satin worshipar?

Question

i get trauma's, im fasinated with blood a other things that would be considered scary and abnormal. i dream about suicide and violence and when i dream i start to feel weak. so dreams connect with my nerves with makes me feel whats happens to me in my dreams. i image realistic views of people dying and building falling. i can also descript the inside of any structer without know how the inside look, whether its living or non living. mi mind tells mi to do things i dont want to do. im start to act and feel different. the only channels i watch now is anything that has to do with science. i also went to every kind of doctor and got tested but they said there was nothing wrong. i believe in a one of a kind religion made by me and am very intelligent but nobody believes me because im in a regular class, but i have theories of the universe.

Answer 1

DUde, your'e just wierd, and there is nothing wrong with that.
THe last answer probably freaked you out a bit, as it did me.
All that overly-churchy, zealous crazy talk is just as bad , if not worse, than your problems.
Blood is cool.
Violence is cool.
Blood and violence are pretty much exactly what i was thinking about at your age, (especially because i played lots of videogames.)
Believe in your one-of-a-kind religion, and when you get to college, trust me, more people will listen.
Use humor... Use it as a defense Plus, a good laugh will do a lot .
Get a lot of good friends who are like you.
Draw what you see in your dreams. You'll probably find that you are very good at it, and it will help you understand what your brain is trying to tell you.

If you talk to someone older, say about 30 or older, they wont understand because they didnt grow up with so many images of violence.

Any more questions , my yaho ID is wrhexen_1 on messenger.

Answer 2

I think you are not evil but curious. I also believe it is not important WHAT you dream but how you fell when you wake up. It is also not wrong to believe in your "own religion". It makes you a Shepherd, not a sheep!! You will be fine, I am sure.
PS: blood can be fascinating- nothing wrong with that either.
Let me know if you need someone to help you through this strange time of yours.

Answer 3

what does that have to do with satin? unless you're gonna be sportin a nice satin cloak from now on...k'ay just being a smart aleck.

BTW, some drugs mess up your system. If you have a family history of schizophrenia or other mental problems, hallucinogenics act as a catalyst that set it off. Like if schizo is dormant in your body then taking shrooms will activate it.

Answer 4

ok what to say on this...u seem like very interesting person but not that interesting.u see, honey, u think u have special powers but u don't. i dream about suicide all my life i hear voices of non-existing creatures and so on. but it's all in ur head.u have great imagination u should use it somehow. sooner u deal with the fact ur nothing special sooner u will know what's in ur head. believe me i've been there i understand it more than u understand ur self

Answer 5

You are just highly in touch with your psyche and with the two worlds of our mind: the reality and the other.
You are only "destined" to do what you wish to do. Believe in a combination of things. Dont burden yourself with a dogma.
And put your skills to positive use.

Answer 6

Whatever it is you need to get a grip for you sake and any possible victims!
You obviously know that there is something wrong so I can assume you were not always this way?

Answer 7

your a special guy. your curious, and once I was where you are-what gave me the true power-was letting Jesus into my heart to forgive my sins-even one lie-and to become my friend and help me-with infinate power, in amazing grace

Answer 8

for the Love of God, I pray not...Satan and his legion are responsible for every evil in this world,..and you don't want to be destroyed, when Jesus returns to destroy the world of all of the evil..get on the right side, and use your God Given gifts, for the good of humanity..and don't be destroyed by things that you really don't know what you are getting into..do NOT let this evil harbor in you,...it will destroy you in the end..my prayers are with you love, and you best not be weak, be strong,...it takes much more strength, to rebuke it, that follow, believe me.