stroke,chemo-therapy,HepC,manic-depressive terrified to have public defender-didnt do it,no help-cant think!!!

Question

No family,kids,friends.on my own totally. no memory. think slow.scared i'll hurt myself or someone else.desperate,overwhelmed,was beaten bloody by Moline,IL cops.2 seperate right violation episodes with witnesses.In wheelchair. Right side paralyzed. knee on my throat,thumb in my eye. who polices the police? I'll kill them B4 they kill me. I havent done anything wrong. I can't handle this much stuff all at once.meds and treatments,transportation,money,remembering,court;it's too much for me . suicidal thoughts. 90 day waiting list for psych. Scared to go out, then scared to come home. High BP. This is NOT helping. Another stroke or HA is bound to happen.

Answer 1

contact your local Tv news and tell them your story

Answer 2

You are never alone! Sounds like you are suffering a panic attack and have anger problems. If you didn't do it, then you have nothing to worry about. A public defender is just that, a defender, put your wordly trust in him and in the medical profession.

You must have had a medical diagnosis to know all that you say is wrong with you is really wrong. Those who diagnosed you are there to help you. If you have a fear of death just calm down; everyone dies. It is not something rare. Many, many have gone before you. You say you have suicidal thoughts so death is not out of your picture. You are considering it; well, don't consider it. Just calm down and wait for help to come your way, which it will.

Your first task is to manage your panic and control your anger both of which are fear driven. In order to get rid of any fear you have to face what is causing it. Do it calmly and with the expectation there is a logical explanation for the cause. Search for the cause. When you find that explanation nine times out of ten it is not real or as big a danger as you imagined it. Imagination magnifies fears.

Remember, you are never alone. Good luck, good health, peace and love!