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I have problems w/ school, started at last year (my junior year) and I have been ditching school and walking around just relaxing, just trying to get away. I hung out @ a local park, but had gotten raped. My parents found out and told me straight out that it would be dishonor to my family if I told anybody. I couldn't really concentrate, so I just kept ditching to the point police came to my house. I was really scared and stressed, I couldn't think of anything to do. I really want to end my life, I attempted suicide. I dunno what got over me but I just did it. So I got sent to a mental institution and also got sent to a group home and was just comfortable with myself. But when I got back home, everything was cooled down. It's been about a year since it all happened. I'm ditching again and doing the same things I did before. I CAN'T stop and I don't know why. I have "depression" but my medicine seriously makes me feel even worse. I don't know what's wrong with me. I want t

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So I was felling good for a while after the group home. I realized I DON'T like sharing my feelings to anyone, except NEW people. I did see a three therapist for a while, and they all said I was ready to go. I answered them all honesty but no one understands. I don't even understand myself why I feel the way I do. I have a almost perfect life, comfortable home, I'm going to great college next year, I have a chance of being valectordian. I just got into an arguement with my parents about my weight (which has been an issue, but I excercise almost everyday but can't seem to lose the weight) and I ended up crying and now just writing this up. Nothing won't help me and was hoping someone went through the same thing and can help me? I did get 2 F last year from ditching, but now taking over 6 AP classes and gotting As& one B on them. I can do the work, but I can't keep on a smile everyday. I come from an asian family btw, which fits the ALL the sterotypes =/

Answer 1

You are still very depressed and you have not dealt with the issues that are contributing to your depression. You need to have your medication adjusted and to get a therapist that you can trust. I hope you have shared the rape with your therapist. This is very important for them to know, no matter what the consequences to the "family" are. You will never get completely better until you deal with your past abuse issues, including the abuse you receive from your family.

Answer 2

you need to go back to the home. obviously living with your parents is the root of the problem. that they wanted to hide the fact that you were raped is terrible!! you weren't doing it the rapist was and you are in no way dishonored. what an archaic and narrow point of view to say that the family would be dishonored because someone committed a crime against you. seriously, go back to the group home where you were "comfortable with yourself" and deal with the issues you face as a result of the rape.

Answer 3

stop it go to school learn and take some happy pills ull be alright u just need a couple slaps in the face just playing send me a email and ill helpu ok had similiar issues before

Answer 4

human life is god giffted.
so u pl. belive in god or super natural power.
and start new life.