how do I get better?

Question

I have a lot of burdens on me and I don't know what to do about any of them. First off I am 23 and I am homeless. I stay at a homeless shelter and havent spent a night outside of it since December. I have lost contact with my parents because my mother disowns me and I owe my father a lot of money. I have no job because I am too stupid to realize I can't make money playing online poker no matter how much I love to play or practice or how good I am. I own a laptop which is the only thing I have left of my old life. I have never had a girlfriend. Most of my old friends are ashamed of being around me because of the fact that I have been homeless since August. I don't drink or smoke. And I think about suicide all the time but would never have the guts to do it. I am a coward in many lights. I am not the least bit attractive. Every girl I have ever asked to date usually gives me an awkward response. My only friend (whos female and in love with someone else) tries hard, but doesnt get me..

I do leave the shelter everyday, however I have spent every night there since I arrived there on December 1st.

Answer 1

Wow, bless you. You definitely have the weight of the world on your shoulders, but I want you to know that all is not lost and you can bounce back and have the life that you want to have. The overall tone of your question seems to be relationship related but I think that the bigger issues at hand are dealing with your living situation and working downward from there. I don't know you or where you live but I worked for many years in the Downtown area of Los Angeles known as "Skid Row" so I am familiar with situations just like yours. The important thing to note is that you need a POA(plan of action). Playing poker online is merely a distraction because you are stagnant in your life and don't know quite how to move forward. So, the first step is to figure out where you want to go, what you want to do and how to begin. I'm sure that if you are living in a shelter they have resources to help you transition into a more permanent, stable situation, so ask. If they don't know,seek the help of social service organizations in the area. There are people who will help you to find gainful employment, help you to develop a savings/budget and address any other issues that you have so that you can start your life over. The other obstacles in your life like your family or finding a girlfriend will take care of themselves. Just for today, focus on you and everything else will fall into place. To answer your question: How do I get better? By taking life one day at a time, doing one thing every day to make your life better. No one can do it for you-that's why it's called "your life." You are in complete control so get up and make it happen. It can be done. I have seen it-people who lived in tents, sleeping on the ground for 10-15 years, with drug and alcohol issues, no family, no friends, literally no hope at all, I have seen them come in from the cold and transform their lives. If they can do it, so can you. All you have to do is make the decision that you want to change your life, ask for help and MAKE IT HAPPEN! Good Luck.

Answer 2

First let me say that I know how you feel. I was once in your shoes. I had all the friends until I was put in jail for 60 days. Than I not only lost my job but also the place where I was living and I was homeless for about a week than I ran into an old friend and I spent 2 months traveling the eastern and cental time zones. While in the semi I relized that the only real friend I had was the person I was with. I also relized that I also needed to try and find a job even if it was flipping burgers at McDonalds. It took me a while but I finally found a job and I am living with family now and taking life one day at a time. I also prayed every day that God would help me be able to find people who would understand me. If you need anymore help just let me know at [e-mail] and mark it so that I will know that you need me. In fact mark it "Help Me Falling Apart"

If you need to find a job leave long enough to pick up applications and then go back. Use at least 2 hours everyday to look for a job.

Answer 3

I was homeless twice and eventually there's is a light at the end of the tunnel. Go back to schol if you didn't get your high school diploma or GED. If you have one, you can get your associate's or a certificate in something. There is government money for continuing education. Take it easy and see a shrink to help sort out your life. AA and NA is no fun. One final note.... GOD BLESS

Answer 4

Baby steps. First leave the shelter for a few hours at a time. Then get a job, work hard and pay off all of your debts. If you get enough money, you could get an apartment, take care of yourself, feel better about yourself and become more disirable.

And your friends suck if they are ashamed of your housing status.

Answer 5

Get some help. If your thinking suicide you need help desperately.

Answer 6

seek god