Do I have mental problems?

Question

I really don't know what to think about anything or life any more. I get like mad depressed, start laughing at myself, crying, and wanting to die all at the same time, and think that the only thing I can really relate to is Twiztid's music. It is like their is 2 sides to me, one side is like you have a really good life, people who care about you, and should never give up on your dreams, and the other side is like your life is going to crash burn in the near future and you should give up now, no one cares if your alive or dead, you have no friends, you will NEVER understand life until it is too LATE, i feel like no one knows how i am feeling deep inside because if i told you would just say i'm crazy and need professional help. And if I go their they would just look at me like im f*cking retarded. CAN ANYONE HELP.

I'm confused about how I feel, what gets me down the most is thinking about how the world works and how my own mind works and how I react in certain situations, I don't quite understand how the world works yet and for some reason no one can help me with this. I feel like a rat in a maze trying to get to the cheese at the end and there is sings everywhere pointing me in the right or wrong direction but i just can't comprehend them. I also feel like I really can't trust anybody including mom, dad, and friends because I really don't know what their motives are for the way they act, so I usually just keep all my dark thoughts to myself. So I find myself sometimes bottling everything up inside until I have a mental breakdown.

I'm sorry but for some reason I just can't beleve in god.

Answer 1

Mental problems?

No probably not.

Confused about emotions and making sense of how you feel?

Most likely.

But this is not what you honestly want to hear. You want to hear that you are crazy, going insane, that you are psychotic, need to be on medication or in treatment. And then once you go for treatment they would look at you like you are too crazy, too complex or too severe.

Reality is that it is all in your head, meaning that your thoughts are the root of everything. Thoughts alone can't kill you or cause harm to self or others. If you take your confusion to another level and really take on a means of hurting yourself and others then I would encourage you to seek help or emergency services like 911. But till then I would say to just let your "disturbing thoughts" develop and see where they go. Given time you may look back at this stage in your life and see that this was something that you needed to go through to be able to get to where you need to go.

Answer 2

Needing professional help is nothing to be shamed of, and it just might help you. You don't need to be sorry for not believing in god. You don't have to think there id anything wrong with not trusting people. Nobody understands this life, no matter what they may claim. It is a mystery. Relax, become stoic. Its just life. It won't last long. Try to just concentrate on the here and now. You are typical of many other pragmatic people. Trust me, a professional psychotherapist or the like will not look at you like you're retarded. You just need a little help. It's perfectly normal. Life is a mystery that is confusing and frustrating at times. Please give a good therapist a chance. They are not going to think you're retarded or laugh, but even if it did; so what? That would just indicate that they are not a professional.

Answer 3

#1. You're not crazy/retarded/whatever
#2. You didn't get to feeling this way overnight, so it will take time to feel better.
#3. It's not always the easiest thing to seek professional help because it can be hard to know what to say at first. I suggest thinking about the things that make you feel bad, or even just what you feel, because maybe even you aren't sure what it is exactly.
#4. Write it out to yourself. If you are depressed, you're probably spending a lot of time thinking about how bad you feel. Try thinking about WHY you feel that way.
#5. Try not to listen to depressing music. Misery loves company.
#6. There are more people who understand than you think.

You've got to start somewhere. How do you feel exactly? Is there something that triggered you? A counselor/psychologist can help you figure it out. They're there to help you think. Don't be afraid to ask for help. Hang in there and I wish you the best.

Answer 4

From the way you describe yourself - one minute thinking things are fine and you have a good life - the next minute feeling you should just give up - it sounds like you may very well be bi-polar (used to be called manic-depressive).

People who have mood swings like you describe - one minute up - the next minute down are very often bi-polar. They swing from depression to hypo-mania. The swings can be very close together - which would make your life very confusing - or they can be weeks or months apart - depending on the person.

Please seek help from a psychologist or psychiatrist. They will talk to you and more importantly listen to you and do testing that will determine for sure if you are bi-polar. If so, there are many good Rx meds that can control your mood swings and level out your life. I care about you and am afraid that during one of your really low periods you might do something to harm yourself or even commit suicide. It happens when someone who is bi-polar is on the downswing and can see no light at the end of the tunnel. Please seek help. You don't have to live the unstable and hurtful life that you are living. I know from experience. I used to feel like you do in your down periods. I came very close to suicide at one time - had the pills all counted out and was just going to go to sleep and not wake up because I was in so much emotional pain. A friend got me to a community mental health center where I saw a wonderful psychiatrist who diagnosed me with endogenous depression (means the depression is cause by an imbalance in neurotransmitters in the brain and will be with me for life). Even tho there is no "cure" for depression - there are very good meds that control it and allow me to function at a very high level - high enough to work as an RN.

Please try seeing someone who can accurately diagnose you and prescribe meds that will let you live a normal life. If there is a community mental health center where you live I would try that first. The staff at these centers are usuallly very kind and compassionate and they will have a doctor (psychiatrist) there who can diagnose and prescribe for you.

All my love and good wishes to you. Please let me know what you find out. I care.

Answer 5

Okay...First, try listening to music that is uplifting. Then, remember that everyone has more than one side. Focus on the side that feels that life is good. Become proactive in your life. Do things that feed the positive. I have said for years that you feed your brain M & Ms or you can feed your brain rabbit poop and that will determine how happy you are. Professional help would be good and you might need an antidepressant

Answer 6

i think something is wrong but i know what you mean about people thinking you are retarded. dont be sorry about not beliving in god i dont and sometimes i am happy, being an athiest doesnt make you depressed. it is hard to get professional help because your parents would want to know why you want to go or they wouldnt give a ***** to actually take you. but in all honesty the professionals deal with this kind of sh.it all the time and i used to go because i had coping problems. i should go back becuase i started hurting myself again, but my mom would want to work it out at home.

Answer 7

If you can't believe in God, then nothing really matters where you are concerned. What is eternity divided by 70? Do you believe that 20K children are starving to death every day? That a million square miles of habitat for small animals and birds is being systematically mowed to deprive them of fodder, cover, and seeds? That many of these are being sprayed with poison to conspicuously display our work ethic and keep up with the Jones? That it takes more than 70K trees to publish one edition of the Sunday New York Times? That an area bigger than the state of Texas is paved? That millions of dogs and cats are murdered every year by veterinarians and humane worker, because they can't get any money out of them? God believes in you. He's waiting for you to do something.

Answer 8

Try to seek professional help. Going to one doesn't mean you are crazy or something. You see, Professionals will just help you sort out things and will help you find the source of your depression.
goodluck

Answer 9

i feel like that too sometimes. i understand what you feel.
but I'm not sure how to solve this thing. just don't give up on yourself--life is pretty. you can ask me anything --i can try to help---i seriously feel the same way.

Answer 10

hey dont worry your cool dude. :) just chill and listen to some music and dont think about anything..

i learned that if you smile even when your not happy that your brain will start beleiving that your happy.. :)