Well, this is sort of sad, but I couldn't picture heaven as a child. From a very early age, I knew from listening in church that you had to be forgiven to go to heaven. When I was about four, I broke a doll that was my mom's. It was the only toy she managed to save from her brothers growing up and she had wanted me to have it. But I was scared of it - it was one of those porcelain dolls with the creepy glass eyes that closed when you laid them down.
Well, when she tried to give it to me, she thought I was taking it and I was pushing it away. So when she let go, it broke into a million pieces on the floor. She started to cry and I told her I was sorry and she looked me dead in the eye and said, "Sorry doesn't change anything."
So I climbed up in my bed and as I cried myself to sleep I prayed to God and told Him that I was sorry I hurt my mommy and I was sorry I couldn't go to heaven. I had no concept of God being able to forgive me (and His forgiveness being the only forgiveness that ultimately matters) even though Mom didn't. Ever.
It took me _years_ of therapy - ;o) - to connect that with the vague, haunting feeling that something was just different about me and I couldn't be forgiven or go to heaven.
I still don't picture it as a physical place, really. But I do imagine finally being able to hold the babies I miscarried.
2007-05-17 16:36:51
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answered by Contemplative Chanteuse IDK TIRH 7
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I used to think heaven should be whatever a person believed, and even if everyone was wrong what would be so bad about floating in peaceful darkness?
I have no vision of heaven now. Whatever happens after this life, if anything, is beyond my control.
2007-05-17 23:27:53
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answered by hazydaze 5
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When I was REALLY little, I thought heaven was literally on top of the clouds, and that the times when there was a hole and you could see rays of sun coming through, were the times when angels were coming down. I realized that was wrong when I was in kindergarten and they explained that clouds were made of water particles (or something).
2007-05-17 22:54:14
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answered by N 6
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when I was a kid I used to dream of Jesus, it was kind of like the pictures in kids Bible books, the picture where Jesus is sitting and all little kids were playing around Him, He was sitting by a tree. I had that dream for many many years and each time I had it Jesus was trying to get me to go and sit by Him but I wouldn't cause I was scared and didn't really know Him at that time. I knew of Him but didn't know Him, but the dream was beautiful, the grass was green, the tree was beautiful, and He was beautiful as well. everything in the dream was great, so I guess I held on to that dream and have pictured it to be like that...
2007-05-17 23:16:15
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answered by Anonymous
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i imagined the streets paved with gold, the buildings made of white gold, the street lights pearls, the drapes in the windows as i looked through them were of the finest purple silk... and and the end of the golden road there was a bright shining light with a bunch of angels huddled around it as if they were to be seen as clouds.
now, it's changed, i see all that behind bars..as if i'm outside of the pearly gates looken in..lol.
2007-05-17 23:01:52
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answered by Sister Matylda 3
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I imagined it like most of the other kids my age imagined it. Filled with Clouds and winged angels with halos lol.
However, now that I'm a teenager, I think it's truly a place so beautiful, it's indescribable.
(and here come the sadistic non-believers who put massive thumbs down on the Christian answers.)
2007-05-17 22:56:38
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answered by Otaku in Need 4
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a sky-blue floor with white puffy clouds around. Golden brick streets with huge golden mansions. Angels flying around.
Yes, my vision has totally changed, to something not so physical.
2007-05-17 22:53:06
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answered by Heron By The Sea 7
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I remember getting these little handouts in sunday school with illustrations of heaven as being full of fluffy clouds, shafts of sunlight, buildings with tall columns -- and a lot of blonde angels.
It was too lame to be real then. It's too ridiculous to be real now.
2007-05-17 22:54:11
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answered by Resident Heretic 7
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As a child I saw it as angels in the clouds. I now see it as a whole society in another dimension on earth. I see us with homes, friends, pets, work, schools, concerts, parties, and maybe even lovers.
2007-05-17 22:58:44
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answered by Gorgeoustxwoman2013 7
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One huge off road recreation park for dirt bikes only, oh yeah and a big fishing pond where you catch a large mouth bass every time you cast.
2007-05-17 22:54:18
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answered by mxcardinal 3
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