please anser this honestly?

Question

I am scheduled in a few month for a cochlea implant...i just went through a horrid ordeal and spent time in the hospital...i really do not think i can handle much more of this..im in conflict because on the other hand i get a chance to hear again ive been in silence for awhile..i feel like i can't handle this..how paiful will it be for me and will i feel them digging in my head..i know it may be silly for you but i have vivid nightmares of things like this...any one out there id appreciate it..i dont trust physicians anymore ..they say anything for insurance money or am i paranoid..im on the edge of my mind here.

Answer 1

We all have fear, I know mine is huge is some areas and less in others. I have not gone thru your experience with hearing but I have gone thru an experience of serious pelvic and low back reconstruction. I have more implants and surgeries that I would ever like to think of again. Prior to one of the surgeries I was told I would NEVER walk again or carry a child again. NOPE, I can't accept what you said to me. No.
Time, pain, not being able to walk, etc, you do a lot of thinking...I finally decided the MUST do this surgery even if the is a slight chance for me to walk again, I had also just 6 wks prior had my 1st son. I started thinking of it as a challenge for me. I was determined to help myself have the courage and the will to undergo this again and the strength for endurance. Long story short, my prayers we answered, I walk just fine now, I worked so hard at convencing myself at the time that there was NO OTHER OPTION but to find the strength and courage from within myself, because we all have much strength and courage, we just need to know where to find it.

Please do this scary situation a favor. Find within you the courage and strength to say to your self "it is ok, I can do this, How badly do I wish to hear? That bad huh? Take the chance, go for it. Yes you are scared, I understand all too well, but this is one of the reasons you have family, friends who love and support you, only want the best for you, and they are ALWAYS there for you to lean on for support and guidance.

Please. Take the leap of faith and have the surgery, the pot of gold at the end of your rainbow will be the wonderful gift of sound. You can do it if you want to hear badly enough. Embrace your fears, but never let fear embrace you as it is right now. You take control of it. It's your fear. You are NOT fears person. You own it so command it to do your wishes.

Best of luck, I wish you all the best.

Answer 2

Talk to your physician about how to lesson the pain and the weird feelings. It's possible that s/he can do something a little differently. You may even ask for a different doctor's opinion.

Give yourself some time and space, too. Time really helps you to forget the pain.

See if you can bring some stuff to make the hospital feel more home-y, and give yourself a different experience than the last time.

And, see a counsellor. It's not silly, but it would be a tragedy if you let your fears stop you from having this implant.

I think the most important thing is to either talk to your doctor until you trust him/her, or find one who feels trust-worthy.

Answer 3

My personal solution to hearing was to learn American Sign Language in college JUST so I could ignore people!! My suggestion to you would be to figure out which you wanted more: a) hear again and face up to all of the medical s-it... or, b) remain in silence. (there really is no option "c" now, is there??) The choice is entirely up tp you.

p.s. might be some funky painkillers in it for you... if you're into that kind of thing!!

Answer 4

A friend of mine just had one done. He said the pain and annoyance was worth it in the end as he heard his son for the first time.

Answer 5

you just have to decide what's worth more to you. having no pain and no hearing. or having some pain (that you will get over) and being able to hear.

if it was me, i'd probably do it.