Am I crazy or do I have a right to feel this way?

Question

A year ago, two guys both younger than me and very much interested were playing one-up-manship over me. Both encouraged me to date them and did not ask for a committment, knowing I was probably looking for something more serious than they were about to offer, but they gradually came to offer everything. In the end I had decision to make, but I was unable to really think because my job collapsed, and I had a nervous breakdown. After I actually left the job and the dust cleared, I thought I still had a choice to make, and started breaking up with my friend and got ready to commit to my long-distance friend. But, just at that instant, he began dating someone else. I was crushed, I felt my trust was crushed. He felt, I think, that I should be tolerant of what he was doing, because he had been tolerant of me. To me, though, this felt like the ultimate loss of trust, because my whole reason for not committing before was his youth and my uncertainty whether he would be able to commit.

At that time, though I really loved my long-distance boyfriend, I was really hurt, and my other friend who was close broke up with me because obviously I did not love him, but still he was a friend and hung in there for me. I really appreciated this. Lately, my long-distance friend and I were trying to patch thigns up in the sense of beginning to speak again, but I am still emotionally very guarded with him because of the emotional impact of what happened. So, I decided to take some time off to try and let go of my attachment to the relationship, which he has obiously come to terms with long ago. But, I don't think I am crazy to feel this way. What do you think?

Answer 1

Of course you're not.Also I read all the stuff and you're a very smart person with some education.For you,get over this matter will easy as one,two,three.Trust me.