i feel that everything i do gets f****** up should i kill myself im seriously thinkin bout it please help me?

Question

i have this problem that can mess up my career i.e.my future and theres nothing i can do that i can think of. im thinking about killing myself but then i think about my mom and dad and brothers then i change my mind. but later on i think that they will get over my death a couple of years so why not end the hurt. but i dont want to go to hell, but sometimes i think this life to me is hell. help

Answer 1

If you would like to speak in person to someone trained to help people who are feeling the way you do, they take confidential toll free calls at 1-800-SUICIDE.

At least talk to them and get your feelings out to someone who cares and will listen.

Answer 2

You're not really feeling good right now, and might be tempted to do bad things to yourself to end all of the hellish things feelings going on in your head, but try telling yourself this: .. This too, shall pass. And you'll be fine again. And then something else will happen. And that will pass. And you will be fine again. It doesn't stop. It cycles, and always changing at the same time. That's what makes it so exciting. But it's hard to see that when you're in the middle of it. That's what life is, the ups and downs and the in-betweens. How about one day, taking a slightly different perspective on things in your life and see if you don't feel a little more differently toward them. Just alter your perspective a tiny bit, it could shift everthing.
Also, you speak of your mom and dad and brother getting over it in a couple of years. ? And that's something that keeps you going? GOOD. Know that they will NEVER get over it. Never ever. And I hope that keeps you going.
Best of luck to you- and remember that you never know what awaits you around the next corner.... it could be something amazing. :)

Answer 3

I know exactly how you feel. Sometimes there is just nothing you can do because you feel like life is just going to keep on crushing down. It is school for me, and I always worry about what will come and if it will be good or bad since I really don't know how my future will turn out where I stand currently. It can really frustrate you and want to make you feel like something you do can make it go away quickly. You have to just hold it together. If you feel that hurting yourself will take away the problems, you will miss out on all of the wonderful things about life. You may think that your family will get over you, but they never could really. I think that a lot of people today feel like you are feeling and you just have to remember that God dishes the good with the bad. If your decisions are not working out, spend more time thinking about them before you make a final decision. Depending on what the problem is, you may need to seek a professionals help. Not knowing how old you are makes this a bit harder to explain, but you can find help in your school, local clinic/hospital or just reaching out to your family. You seem like a nice person and genuinely want to solve this issue. I would suggest going to the people who you trust the most and divulging exactly what you are feeling. If you aren't comfortable with that try to seek professional help. Nothing is worth killing yourself over. Life is a crazy ride...so survive the bad with your sights on the good.

Answer 4

I felt pretty much the same just a few days ago. Had major surgery, not recovering well, My wife is disabled, I was the only income, Have to keep the insurance.Been out of work since February 21. Dr;s say I can't go back to work for another month and then only if I am healing better. Pain Level on 1 to 10 is a 9.
I guess I just cheered you right the heck up.
Not trying to make you feel worse, just wanted you to know that problems come up and things make us feel worthless, world would be better off without us type stuff, and you are not alone.m Well you know, you're going through it right now.
Well I will tell you that God Loves You, enough that he sent his only Son to die for you. Your parents care, and no matter how bad you think you messed up, your parents and prayer can make it a lot less serious.
So just sit back take a deep breath in through your nose and let it out slow through your mouth.
Feel a little better?
If you want to talk about it one on one feel free to e-mail me.
I will let you know that there are a lot of people on this site that really care about you.

Answer 5

I tried to kill my self once... well more than once. It was a dumb idea... they were dumb ideas. I was acting impulsively. The reason it was a dumb idea was because they caught me... all of the times, and then they sent me to the hospital... and then I stayed for a long time. Now, you wanna talk about getting f***** up? That is when it got messed up. I was going to school... earning fairly OK grades... I'm not any more. I had a stable home... I don't any more. I have no job skills (when I went to the hospitals, I was 16, right when I should have been learning all of my job skills, and independant living skills I was in the mental health system for 2 years, I was never taught how to find a job, or to live on my own, or to manage money... on my 18th birthday, I was kicked out, because I was in a children's treatment facility) so now I am having issues getting any kind of work. How do you explain 2 years of your life, just missing? I try to avoid, but most people don't let me. This was all because I tried to kill my self... a dumb desicion.
That is only how it affected me... my little sister... I don't even get to talk to her any more... I carry around this huge amount of guilt... because she had to witness a lot of my mistakes... I sometimes wonder how she is turning out. What she is like.... If you commited suicide, how would your siblings turn out? Sure, they'd forget about you, in the front of their minds, but in the back, you'd be there, just lurking.
What always gets me through tough times is the saying is: THIS, TOO, SHALL PASS.
You control how you live your life. No one else. There are days when every thing seems to go wrong... but then there are the days that I live for, when every thing seems to go right.
Even if no one else does, I LOVE YOU.

Answer 6

well.......it has been forty min since you posted so i hope you have killed yourself.
Anyway death is perminante. What good things do you have in your life, can you fix the problem is there other issues that are causeing your problem. I would talk with a doctor and see if it is medically related like a hormone imbalance and possible can be corrected. Parents never get over the loss of a child no matter how old the child is. To be better you must help yourself and get well not only for you but for your family and future.

I hope this helps.

Answer 7

Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Call the suicide hotline and talk to someone. Get real help. If you really think that your family will get over it in a few years, you're wrong. I've seen the death of a child destroy marriages and mentally damage siblings. Do you really want to bestow that kind of grief on your family? Whatever problem you have is not worth ending your life and destroying life as your family knows it. If you're still thinking about this seriously after talking to someone on suicide hotline, please go to the nearest ER and ask to be admitted until you can get over this.

Answer 8

This life is Hell. If you really want to kill yourself you have to have three reasons.

1.) You don't believe in god or any reiligon and when you die it's just a nothingness.

2.) You have got to have no family and no friends or girlfriend at all.

3.) You have to have a easy way to kill yourself mostly using a gun.

If you don't have those three reasons then you need to live. And go to counseling.

Answer 9

Your life is only hell because you believe the story you tell yourself is who you are. Let me explain....

You're rehearsing the future and digging up the past, to relive things you should have dropped years ago and to experience pain in the future that hasn't even happened. This is your story, and it causes you suffering.

The alternative is to 1) step outside the story as often as occurs to you by being here in this moment and 2) accepting this moment just as it is....
(accepting this moment isn't that impossible, but it does include accepting the past---you really don't need to do more than let it be.)

Who you are is a direct experience you can have in this moment and at no other time (time is purely past and future in the mind, when it arrives it is always now.)

Answer 10

please dont hurt yourself!everyone has problems and some are really bad but you have to be around for them to get better.suicide is not the answer your family and friends love you and they need you.we are all important to someone maybe someone you dont even know looks forward to hearing your voice or seeing your smile or your laugh! life is worth living! do not give up.maybe there is something you can do about your career but you cant think when you are this upset or angry.please just get some rest say a prayer and ask GOD to help you and show you the way and he will.you can do this! bless you and good luck!

Answer 11

consider it this way...
No matter what religion you are or belief system you have, none of us truly knows what happens when we die- we just think we do. But most agree that suicide is very bad karma, or words to that effect (though they may not use this exact word) and will create unimaginable horrors for you wherever it is we go. If you simply believe in oblivion then realise death is final, you wont even have the chance to feel relief at all the pain having ended.
hold onto the thoughts of your family and know that they will never, ever get over it, your their flesh and blood. my cousin killed herself as a teenager and particularly her mother is still devestated by it. also know that they will more than likely blame themselves. i have attempted suicide (and nearly suceeded) it was nearly three years ago and my parents are still devestated, even though i lived! i still contemplate it but many hard lessons restrain me from doing it.
carry photos of your family round with you in your wallet to remind you they care.
okay i hate this saying (it is way over quoted) but im going to have to say it: 'suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem' and its true- though for many years i just laughed at it. no matter how bad your problems are, they are temporary.
If you really feel at risk, go to the er, sometimes you just need a break from life for a few days to help recharge your batteries so you have more reserves to deal with all the s***.
i'm sorry you are feeling this way. i wish you well