someone please help me!!?

Question

me and my ex of 4 1/2 yrs just broke up a month ago yesterday. i cant get him out of my head im so in love with him.. he never really gave me any reason for y we broke up. im so confused i want to be wit him...but he got me a lil lost by wat he wrote on his blogs on myspace..3 different ones .
heres the 1st:
Cubes slip from my grasp as the hands of a specter, age my infant form into a well mastered adolescence who's to experience the pains of early adulthood. The prince would fall from his glory tearing into tomes and withered papyrus whilst he tumbled through the endless abyss dubbed "his past". The memories of past loved ones only tormented his physical form and jumbled the cryptic utterance of his sole sibling named "conscience". His men plot against his rule and the warm essence of life's motherly kiss has long since faded along with that of a lover who's memory joined the dust upon his endless mental waste land. Falling to his knees whilst the gold adorned head dress would fall

the second:
I had long since fallen to my knees in forgiveness willing to repent for the sins that I have committed during my growth process. I put my ear to the sol and receive no call, no comfort, and no forgiveness, am I to suffer in the darkness of my own heart. A man locked from the radiance of god's construction, and the shadows smother me though they are quite inviting. I welcome them with open arms, and a tender kiss to stilled lips. Though the irony of only being loved by the darkness since I spoke of such a fake relationship that I only began to experience now. Now I see I was mistaken , and I the prince have chosen the correct path that veered to the left and whose out linings were black and jagged. I turn my back to my peers and romance that could arise , or those who i've tried to court and vice versa.

Upon this path i've chosen to become the embodiment of sin and emotional decadence, couping with only the strong and loved by the dark. Even now I remember the intercos

between she and I, fingers inter twined in a lover's romantic quarrel whilst a seized heart refused to beat and lips I kissed were cold. This is my sin my romance in oblivion that I accept and choose to exist in....this is where I belong and where i'll stay.

His sight is blackened snatched by his contractors greedy palms and now the prince wanders through tombs and cemetaries shrouded in the darkness of his loneliness and clothed by ragged fabrics. Plucked from his former social standards and now his place is non existant within this realm. Specters oblivious to the truths , blinded by things formed by modern extremities, and the prince weeps in his silence to the ignorance of so called friends and loved ones. He has tasted the bitterness of abandonment and the sweetness of false love and ever failing security. Continually pondering if this were his fate he would forever endure.
Sin had found it's way into his being and clawed at the walls of his inner workings scarring his insides, bathing in his essence, and fiddling with his thoughts. His confusion conflicted with his trust and his hatred conflicted with his ability to love. A traitor to the darkness he loved, he fell in love with yet another. Carnal intercourse ensued and the prince

ensued and the prince had forgotten his committment to the darkness who bestilled his beating heart and stole his utterances and made him her own.

Though it was this acceptance that transformed him into the ferocious partner he originally was. Subduing sin and performing sadistic techniques to literally own her embodiment, he had reclaimed his sanity and the sight he had once lost. His knuckle brushed past the dripping essence from his full lips only to have her suckle her crimson from his flesh and drink in the moment. Narrowed eyes scanned his sin once before the thought dawned upon him...

can anyone tell me what that means to them from his point of view..i cant c wat i have done wrong..i tried all i can...how do i get him back?

how do i go about showin him how much i love him and how much he means to me. i don think we should throw it all away like this wit out a fight

Answer 1

I think it means... he cheated on you. I'm not trying to be a jerk, but all of that seems like a guilty conscience.

Answer 2

There are four possibilities, as I see it.
First, he has gone off the deep end into a a dangerous area where suicide or abuse and murder are possibilities, so he is pushing you away to keep from harming you. You know best whether this is the kind of writing he has always done. If it is, and you still want to be with him, then you are co-dependent and need to get yourself some help.

Second, he has gotten into a spiritualism, perhaps tarrot cards or zen buddhism or some other form of occultism, and has come under the control of a spirit being. This also is very dangerous. So often people begin to dabble with the occult or spirit guides, believing that it is harmless fun. Once hooked, it is more powerful than drugs.

Third, he has a drug problem, which probably means that you have a drug problem as well. Your sense of attachment to him is closely associated with the need for drugs and the companionship he affords in your experimenting. If that is the case, get yourself some help kicking the drugs, then try to help him out of them as well.

Fourth, if he has just started this kind of blogging, he may be doing this because he wants to scare you away. In that case, he doesn't desire to be with you at all. You would be better off not driving yourself crazy trying to restore a relationship that has little flame. Unless, you are married. If you are married, then seek help from a good counselor.

Answer 3

Sounds like he's fighting against his memory, his past, his conscience and now his presence all in relationship to a decision he made.

I too was in love and in a serious relationship for more than 6 years and then she broke up with me and never gave me a valid explanation either. I didn't find out until months later that she had been seeing someone else. It's the only logical explanation but she couldn't admit to me because she knew how much it would hurt me and because she knew how much I loved her.

I remember the pain it caused me over the uncertainly and then finally finding out the truth. It was emotionally recking for months and sometimes to this day it still troubles me.

However, you have to accept reality and let this person go because you will continue to torture yourself if you don't.

It's hard and sometimes it seems impossible but as harsh and unjust as it seems time continues to go on and the longer you hold on to something that isn't meant to be (Because of someones sin or bad decisions) the deeper you will spin into depression.

It doesn't seem like your the reason for the breakup...it was his delusional choice and he's dealing with a lot of confusion right now.

Sorry to hear this I know how much pain a troubled heart can be.

Answer 4

He sounds a bit full of himself and like he may have a few mental issues - normal people do not talk like this, it's too cheesy to even be poetic. I'd say good riddance to bad rubbish myself, but you're probably young and he was most likely your first real love. Move on, Babe, there's better fish in the sea...

Answer 5

He sounds messed up, pompous and self pitying.

Stop reading the stuff he writes - it's seriously poor writing - it's just written in an obscure, cryptic way to make it seem intellectual. He's also read too many bad gothic novels. He may also be writing it in a pitiful attempt to gain your attention.

You seem like a nice person - you deserve better - set a date to finish mourning the end of your relationship then get out there and live your life. Please.

Answer 6

honey he cheated on you and is trying to get forgiven by the universe! sounds like he is bieng very guilt ridden on screen but weak and pathetic everywhere else! if after so long he can at least be honest with u let him stew in his guilt and angst for a while .get ur power back and stop playing his "poor me"game u deserve better really u do "Be strong

Answer 7

If you could master every art and become perfect at everything you do, the most difficult thing to do would be to control the will of another person. Some say it is impossible; I tend to agree.

Answer 8

Hes on blogs
HE,s trying-- imprest people reading it,
Did you ever think of that. A lot of people on hear says things get us fire up. let it go for 2 weeks you both be back together.So dry your tears up happyness soon be knocking
at your door begging you back.beleve me--good luck.

Answer 9

I think he had a relationship with someone else you didn't know about.

I also think that he's long-winded.

Sometimes our lives are meant to touch others for a finite period of time. The grieving for your relationship will ease in time and you will come out of it with new wisdom.

Answer 10

I think I understand completely. Here's my synopsis: Your ex is an emo crybaby who's full of it, and you're better off without him. How about that, only took one sentence.

Answer 11

Try that book 'It's called a breakup because it's broken'
That kind of man wouldn't do it for me, he sounds long winded and self important.

edit: I agree with zero cool, he cheated on you and feels guilty. (guilty in a way where he calls himself a prince)