Am I at the point of no return?

Question

I now you guys will think I'm crazy, but I need help. I can't for the life of me figure out what the hell's wrong with me. I used to be a happy healthy social person. Now (most of this started after my pap dying but I don't know if thats the whole problem). Now I am bitter depressed, i shut myself off from practically the whole world.I fight with my boyfriend and he broke up w/me last night cuz it's too difficult on him to be with me (imagine how it is for me?) he called me a psychotic bithch, that hurt. I am always so sad and i hate myself, i have developed very bad sleeping patterns (dont get much) and eating habits (possible ED developing), its getting worse to the point that I'm scratching my self with my fingernails and sharp things like scissors, just to distract from whats going on inside. I've thought about taking a handful of pills even sometimes, but never do it. my mind races and is very negative to myself. what could be wrong? what can i do? serious answers only. thanks!

oh, i didnt add this before. just so you guys know how bad this really is, my pap died almost a year ago!! and i did go through a period where i was coping well, having some pretty normal days. nothing like this. i dont know why but over the last maybe 3 or 4 months it gotten out of control!!

Answer 1

I lost my brother 10 years back. I was just like what u are now. It took me almost a year to get back on my feet and I've been doing better than ever before. I love my brother, and I miss him. But It dawned upon me that life must go on. It did and is going stronger and stronger each day. His soul stands by my resolve. You have it too, and Pappy will help you...but you must help yourself first. Be strong, and all the best to you. You'll be good.

Answer 2

You are depressed and understandably sad, full of grief after losing a close relative.

You WILL feel better - but you must get a bit of help. Speak to your doctor, ask for some counselling, and also consider anti depressants; they will help you cope during this difficult and unhappy period in your life.

Consider confiding in a close friend or relative also, don't be ashamed of how low you are feeling. It's very common to be depressed after losing someone close to you.

Do seek help - you have all good things ahead of you, though you won't believe that now. It will get much better - by posting your question on here you've taken a very important first step. Now take the second step, and talk to your doctor, and family.

Best wishes.

Answer 3

Honey you aren't crazy you just have some classic symptoms of deppression. It also sounds like you may be Bi-Polar in which case you should go to your Doctor and have him/her recommend a therapist so that you can get medicine to start balancing things out. I hope this helps. There is not much more that I can tell you other than to seek medical attention. Good Luck.

Answer 4

Your "pap" dying triggered the whole thing. It probably showed you the fragility of life among other nasty sides of life. Hurting yourself is usually a way of showing yourself pain that you can be in control of. Talk to someone, you can work this through. Coming on here and opening yourself up to help is a great first step.

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Answer 5

Really, there is nothing "wrong" with you. You are not psychotic, and you are not insane. You should seek counseling, preferably from a real, licensed counselor. Talk your troubles through and get the load off of your mind and soul before it becomes too much for you to bear.

Answer 6

Sounds like you are growing up . Now you have to deal with all this crap. Get around someone that you can trust and will do the right thing. Stop hanging with loosers and look ahead. Foreget about the past, focuse on what to do right today. It is Sunday why not go to church and ask some older woman to help you get through this mess thats their duty. I know where you are coming from I fight it to it really boils down to who are you going to serve this day. Satan or Jesus

Answer 7

See the sections on self harm and depression treatments/resources at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris Phone Hospice & The Samaritans (phone book) www.samaritans.org Email [e-mail]

Answer 8

Can you say emo much?

You need to stop this reaction, you can't hate the world for things like this. one with your father dying, it happens sometimes people die and you have to remember them, but carry on with your life. The fact that you are dippressed and bitter might also be the people you hang around with, sometimes there emotions rub off upon you. You need to stop self-mutilation because all it does is leave scars... I know. If you are having trouble compensating with life perhaps oyu should talk to a sibling or parent, or your school's guidance councilor. But you can't just hate the world. Carp diem! (Seize the day!)

Answer 9

Grief and depression. Your body and your mind will try and cope in different ways, you need to talk to someone about whats on your mind you clearly have alot going on and people who are trainned will show you different ways of dealing with your emotions. Its easier said than done but you have to be strong.

Answer 10

You are depressed and need medication and counseling. Everyone could use counseling. Even counselors seek counseling. It helps to have someone to talk to and to get a perspective from someone else to help you deal with what's going on.