am I mentally ill?

Question

Well, a month ago I did something that angered my friends, my closest friends.
I have asked for forgiveness many times, even made cards and stuck to their doors.
They said they have forgiven me, but in reality they haven't.
Recently, my second closest, i said something that I never thought would hurt her, but it did. She said she doesn't want to be my friend anymore

Also, I said something to my closest friend (who is also my boyfriend) the following day and he sorta got upset

the rest of the friends I can't really hang with anymore

Yesterday was the day that close friend of mine said she doesn't want to be my friend anymore
And with my boyfriend, he didn't talk to me all day

In the evening I wanted to talk to him on the phone, but my dad did not allow me as it was 11. I had to hang up on my bf, and he kept calling. My dad answered, scared him, and put the phone outside my door. He yelled at me too, since I promised I wouldnt talk after 10, but it was important.

afterwards I cried and cried. I am very sensitive, and losing my friends is a really painful experience. I hurt myself and all that, but not too much. so i cried on my bed, but then I heard the phone vibrate outside my room. I knew I got a message, but I couldnt see it.
I kept sitting on the bed, put my hands in my head, like trying to put my nails through it. I started screaming, but that scream that doesn't have a sound.

i cried and fell to the ground. i started scratching the floor, the door, the papers around, all over, moving like a maniak. I kept getting louder and louder, and after 5/10 min my parents came. I was acting like an animal, I couldn't control myself. I kept scratching the floor and moving all over the place, but not standing up. My dad had to grab me and hold my hands and my legs and I kept fighting him. I couldn't talk, but just moan like an animal. I kept twitching, and my parents kept telling me to calm down. I kept twitching and trying to escape him

I eventually calmed down... but i couldnt talk, and still slightly tried to escape his grip.
I remember I wanted to stop moving like a maniak around the floor, but I couldnt stop.
I thought I snapped, and I was scared I wouldn't be able to come back to normal.

It was the phone vibrating that triggered this reaction in me

knowing he wrote me, and that I couldn't get to him, talk to him, and the fact that my dad yelled at me, and scared him as well, I was really scared, terrified, sad (i have for a month now)

would having this reaction mean i'm having some mental problems, or I shouldn't worry too much?

I'm scared that it might happen again, and that next time I won't be able to be calmed down, or next time my parent's won't be there

im afraid of this happening at school ...

sorry if this is too long
but I really don't know what to do

people keep saying im 11, i'm not 11

im 17 ...

Answer 1

you're only 11 -- you probably just made a bad mistake with your friends, though I can't figure out what you could have done to have them all act so hostilely toward you.

but you know, they're only 11, too. Sometimes kids that age like to gang up on one kid.

It will be okay. Of course I can't garauntee you that you aren't mentally ill, but as far as this situation goes it sounds like you're just upset and worrying a lot. Just try to take it easy and give your friends a chance to calm down. I promise it will get better. :)

I had to edit after I read the details you included, not to say you're mentally ill, just to say it sounds like you really have trouble controlling your emotions. Can your parents help you with that? Also, sometimes physical illnesses affect the way you feel emotionally. I think you should go to a doctor and have your parents describe what's going on.

I hope you feel better soon.

Answer 2

how old are you?
it sounds like hormones gone wild.
sometimes we say and do things we wonder about later.
I seriously doubt you are mentally ill dear. just remember, everything that hits your frontal lobe need not come out your mouth. choose your words, think how somethings you say would feel if they were aimed at you.
those who really liked you will remain your friends, including the boyfriend..if they hung with you for other reasons than really liking you , and that happens, then you dont need them do you?
calm down, do what your parents want, including the after 10pm phone call deal. if you are old enough for a boyfriend, you are old enough to understand curfews and limits.
take some deep breaths, take a nice hot bath, have a cup of sweet tea and relax..this will work out with time.

Answer 3

Well, you haven't given us a lot of information. You said you did something, but didn't tell us what and said things. You could be ill, but then again, you could be just a blunt person. Were these things you said true? Or were you being mean? Did you mean these things? Were you saying them out of anger? Or could you not control the things that were coming out of your mouth? That's the difference between mental illness I think. You really don't sound mentally ill to me, but only a doctor can tell for sure.
Good luck with you and your problems.

Answer 4

I had a schizo Grandmother, yet she took her meds and that i under no circumstances quite knew she had this sickness. i presumed a number of her habit turned right into somewhat atypical, yet no longer some thing too loopy. My uncle is mentally retarded. He has the mentality of a 12 three hundred and sixty 5 days previous, yet previous that he would not do some thing loopy. I consistently concept-about him like an surprisingly vast youngster, even with the truth that he had individual manners. i don't believe of i quite knew everybody else with what should be considered extreme psychological subject matters. yet there are a ton of addicts in my kinfolk on both part. i became conscious that some everybody is "loopy" and spot or hear issues that are not there, yet i don't believe of I ever equated that to faith. i became surrounded by believers. From abode, to college, to acquaintances... ordinary. It became like "expertise" that god became genuine, no longer a conception. i understand now that it turned right into a conception, yet even as it really is such an critical area of your existence, you imagine of it as truth, no longer a warped conception like the delusion of the mentally sick.

Answer 5

No... you're not mentally ill, least I think so.

You are simply facing some teenage angst in your life.

Do you know why they are hurt by you said firstly? You should find out first before thinking it was really your fault. They may be overly sensitive that's all. So maybe you should just wait awhile until they realize that they overreacted and will come to talk to you about it.

While waiting, you can probably try to concentrate on your studies, I know it's hard, but just try your best.

Answer 6

Are you simply talking without thinking first--or are you blurting out things uncontrollably?

If it's the first, you are not mentally ill--but you need to think hard before speaking.

If it's the second, you should see a doctor for a diagnosis. He or she will determine whether or not you need some therapy and/or medication.

Good luck--I was always one who 'stuck my foot in my mouth'--often. It took years to control that, and a lot of self-help books.

Answer 7

No.....you aren't. You didn't say what you did that angered them so much. If you have asked for forgiveness and they say they've forgiven you, you need to let it go and move on.

You did something pretty bad. You need to figure out why you did that so that you don't do it again. No, you aren't mentally ill---not based on what you said here. Post what you did, and we might be able to help you more.

Answer 8

you are only 11 years old=friends will come and go throughout your entire life =you have had your first experience on it=this should help you to learn how to handle things as you get older==besides ,if the girls are true Friends ,after awhile they will start talking to you =as for The b/f you are kinda young yet to be with just 1 guy =play the field for awhile and enjoy your life =good luck

Answer 9

I wouldn't personalize other people's problems. They got angry, oh well. If they aren't stable enough to deal with relationships issues, they have freed you to move on and make better friends.

If your bf cannot understand that you live at home and have rules to follow, finding a bf who doesn't put you in difficult situations might make you happier.

Answer 10

Well you didn't say what you did exactly but it sound like your just
struggling. There no way to know for sure unless you go to a psychiatrist or something.