What should I do?

Question

Yesterday I came back from a school field trip in DC and during my time there a friendship between one of my (ex)friends ended. She was getting all mad at me for no reason and began yelling at me because I'm on a diet. Anyways, ever since then my self-esteem is at the lowest it's ever been. Since our friendship ended, I can't stop crying and there are "voices" inside of my head that keep telling me that I'm fat, ugly, stupid, etc. and the images of people who have criticized me in the past won't escape in my mind. I've been getting the urge to cut so badly. I know you're all going to say that I should talk to a counselor, but trust me..it DOES not work...I've been to one before and have stopped seeing her (thank God). I just don't know what do with myself anymore, and I feel so hopeless and lost and I don't know if I'll ever make it through anything anymore. Is there any way for this to all go away? Because I honestly hate every second of this and want it to stop...

Answer 1

You are the only one in charge of yourself. You need to take action and control over yourself and make positive choices. Try not to let others walk all over you, if they do not like you for who you are then that is their fault, not yours. Cutting behavior is only a temporary solution. Your hurt feelings will come back and then you will want to cut again just to feel better. The only time counseling woeks if you are ready to change and make the effort to stop.

Answer 2

You need to stick up for yourself - I know its hard, but you can't let people push you around like that! Its your life man you can do w/e you want (pretty much)! It's not HER life its yours! Slap her if she does that again & tell her to mind her own business.

Don't cut. You'll look back on it & have all those ugly scars. It's pretty stupid really.

Keep busy! It helps sooo much! Get a hobby, get a job, get new friends, start working toward your career (i'm starting flying lessons to become a pilot), exercise a lot - run & walk.

www.dmlive.com
see if its on a radio station near you. It helps listening so MUCH & you can always call in & talk to the hopline or Dawson. (it's not like a shrink i promise..dmlive actually cares..they're there for you!)

Good luck!

p.s. Think of all the positive stuff in life - try drawing, painting or writing out what you feel. It makes you feel like you've flushed all your pain down the toilet.

Answer 3

Here is something you can do all by yourself, get this book:
FEELING GOOD: the new mood therapy.

I've recommended it and always receive some positive results.

Going to a Dianetics Center (www.dianetics.org) has always yielded good results as well.

Also, I have a relaxation exercise in my blog at www.myspace.com/thedavezone - that may help also.