What is your reaction to my situation? Does this make sense?

Question

College was an emotional roaller coaster for me this semester and I went from As or Fs. I was said to be suffering from depression, but I feel that my state of mind was a lie. I felt like shhit for more than two months. I don't feel guity for coming up with so many excuses. I don't know if I feel guilty. More apathetic, even though this wasn't the person I was. I don't know if I convinced myself that I am sick and I became sick. I've told my friends and professors that I'm sick and they believe me. i sometimes believe myself too, but at others, I think I'm fooling the whole world. SOmetimes I don't know what's real anymore. I'd like to sleep a long happy sleep. I use to be happy and look good. Now, I don't give a damn.

SWIMMER YOU ROCK!!

Answer 1

Stop being such an emo piece of garbage.

Answer 2

So when was the pivotal moment? When would you say this depression or whatever it is, start? Was it just before you entered college? Or did something else in your life, not necessarily tragic, occur that impacted you greatly? I think the first step for you is to try and figure out what happened to you! What caused you to change from feeling normal and happy about yourself and others, and then feeling like you do now, with a distorted and confused image. Is it hard for you to accept that you may be depressed? In case you didnt know, depression comes in all shapes and sizes and is VERY common. You are not alone. And if you are depressed, it is ok! It doesnt mean you have failed in any way and there is nothing wrong with you as a person. I dont think it is correct for you to tell people or others that. Unless you are mentally ill to a degree that others should be aware of your instability. You sound LONELY! Just in a spot you wish you could escape from. You make total sense! I do believe you are in a state of depression, I do think it is normal and you will overcome it. Just accept it, and then work on improving your health! Dont fight it...its OK! And trust me your physical appearance has changed minimal if anything, your mood determines how you view yourself. If you used to look good, guaranteed you still do! Please know that this will pass if you get some help and it will get better!

Answer 3

For starters, look at the bright side--you aren't as sick as the first responder here- "I love Pink", who is so off her rocker,she actually goes out of her way to lay down a hurt toward someone sincerely asking for help. SHE is probably permanently ill, whereas YOU are in what is called a situational depression--a non-organic funk. The diagnostc protocal for situational depression is if you feel this way for more than two weeks, you should seek help. I highly recommend you see someone with an MD. Why? Because otherwise they will simply counsel you out of it, since they cannot prescribe meds. You likely need a temporary prescription to change things as you get a foothold. Be aware there are different "families" of medications and you may need to try one and then switch. Often doctors prescribe what is called a basc dose. I found I only need a tiny amount to feel just fine--and it too some time to figure this out, so I felt underwater for a while. Then, I cut the dose way, way, way down and I have been on it for nine years, and have never had another depression, and never feel medicated. That's the key to the right family--not feeling medicated. So, there is hope, my friend. Life is good, and you can regain a sense of being part of all that is making people happy and once made you happy. Go see a doctor! Good luck!

Answer 4

What you're not realizing it that YOU create the world you live in. Ever hear of the term 'self fulfilling prophecy'. That's you. If you think you're sick, you become sick. If you think you're happy you're happy.

That's how drugs are tested. When people are given meds, they thinks the meds are doing something so they feel better. But the meds may not be doing anything, it's just the people think they are so they get better. This is called a placebo. All tested drugs (that contained the actual medication) are compared to the placebo which is just an empty pill.

So snap out of it. You're in the greatest social community you'll ever be in. So join some student organizations get out and have fun.

Answer 5

It's really tough to have your whole world turned upside down. Sometimes we make up lies about ourselves just because we don't want to see the truth. Obviously there's something that has changed in your life, but you can't see it or you've refused to acknowledge it. Maybe you need to just stop everything that you're doing and take a good look at your life and find out what it is that you want. I can be like everyone else and say, "go see a shrink." But the thing is, whatever problem you have..it is something that is inside of you. Only you can change your life, regardless of what others might say or advise you to do. I wish you the best of luck.

Answer 6

There are times in our lives when things just don't go well. Can you pinpoint any reason that made you feel bad. Were you stressed about something? College is a stress in itself, but I am wondering if some specific thing may have happened. I think you may want to talk with a school counselor and or your parents. Maybe they can help. If this doesn't work I suggest you get professional counseling. Good luck. Life does go on and tomorrow will be a better day.

Answer 7

My last semester of college was the pits. I started to doubt myself and the possibility that anybody would take me seriously after I graduated (I didn't go to an Ivy League school, just some non-competitive crappy school nobody ever heard of). I developed bad study habits like most people at my college and I gained 20 pounds. I developed a negative frame of mind; all of a sudden I was unable to block out the negative crap I saw going on around me. I felt physically sick all the time probably from stress and my professors were being A holes and giving me Cs and Ds on papers which I worked my asz off to complete.

But now I'm done with that college and I couldn't be happier. I have a degree and while it won't open every door for me, it will at least allow me to get jobs that I wouldn't have been able to get before. I'm not Johnny Ivy League so that means I'll have to prove myself starting out in the work world, and it may seem like a feeding frenzy at first, but my degree is a stepping stone out of the hole I'm in.

You need to buckle down and focus next semester. You probably got caught up in all the crap--mainly the social life bs--that is part of college life. Start dating someone who is focused and confidant so those qualities will rub off on you. Bury yourself in books and try to get straight As and make it out of there. Try to have some fun too. If you feel wronged and you want revenge, the best revenge you can get is becoming a successful adult so you can drive up to alumni weekend in your BMW and spit on all the losers who made fun of you while you were in school. Ask them how their McDonalds and WalMart careers are going and then show off your toy boy husband and tell everybody what you've been up to since you graduated. Then write a book about all the sucky people who pushed you around in life and go on public talk shows and bash the heck out of them. Revenge is sweet. Mmmmmm...

Answer 8

While it is normal for you ,as a college student to be feeling stressed, your symptoms sound a bit more severe then the average student. I suggest that you stop fulling yourself and everyone else and seek professional help before you wind up hurting yourself or someone else.There are services at what ever college you attend and believe me you are not the only student experiencing these difficulties. Be true to yourself and you will prevail

Answer 9

sounds like what I went through in highschool. I was depressed. I felt like I shouldn't share it though b/c I thought people would think I was seeking attention. I thought I was creating this in my mind. Luckily for me it passed after about a half of a year. My depression seemed to be circumstantial. Yours might be due to a chemical imbalance. I would see a dr. They can figure out what you need to feel better. It's not worth it to feel like crap all of the time. It is a horrible feeling, I know...

Answer 10

i'm not sure how so many people can be so indifferent to someone obviously in need of some kind words. my advice is to seek professional help. medicine works wonders to compensate for chemical imbalances, which is what depression is. you can help yourself by not adding fuel to the fire. don't wallow in your negativity. get out and enjoy the world. there is so much beauty and excitement. it's all in how you perceive it. heaven and hell are right here on earth. be happy now because you aren't guaranteed tomorrow, and you wouldn't want to waste this precious time feeling sorry for yourself. i hope the clouds begin to lift soon enough.

Answer 11

College, single parenthood and a full time job that sucks took it's toll on me. My grades went down the drain at midterm. I decided I should see a DOCTOR. Dude, she gave me a presciption for antidepressants. They did not work overnight but, I am pulling a 3.5 going into finals week.

Go talk to your Doctor, please.