can you explain please. what do you mean and how did you end up that way? and what are you going to do about it?
2007-04-26 23:53:14 · 10 answers · asked by Anonymous in Health ➔ Mental Health
Totally screwed up because of family. I plan on divorcing all of them
2007-04-27 00:02:14 · answer #1 · answered by Anonymous · 5⤊ 0⤋
Lol. Definitely.
I can't even begin to explain- just a constant inner turmoil you can't really silence. Neurotis and complexes up the wazoo, my friend. As for how I get here, I'd say a lethal mix of genes, parental technique *cough*, environment, circumstance, and natural personality. Everything that goes into making a person before birth and all their days afterwards. There's no one thing. Trying to explain neurosis would be like trying to explain the movements in an orchestra composition to someone who's never heard it. There's just no way.
As for what I plan to do about it... Well, sometimes you just have to make the best of what you've got. There's no going back and erasing everything that makes you who you are. A good shrink at some point in my life would be nice though.
2007-04-27 07:34:25 · answer #2 · answered by Ruby 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
of course
I am harder on me than anyone else could ever be. A teacher in high school wrote in my yearbook, "You'll go far in life, if you ever get out of your way." When I stress, I unconsciously pick at the acne on my neck/face. This adds to the ugliness. I have to stay in a numb mode 24-7 or I freak out. Happy, sad, mad, fear, any emotional change whatsoever, and I have to use a 'coping method.' A positive one, you say!? Lol - um no. At least the voices don't think so. I hate myself because I am indecisive. My 4 favorite coping methods - binge/purge, cut, drink, and drug. Most the time I can not even decide which one would be best so time permitting, the system goes like this. Gather a bunch of food together (or drive from one fast food place to the next a few times), fix my drink (generally a rum n coke), and get my brand new shaving razor. I also have an emergency kit which is a backpack that consists of various pills/drugs collected over the years, a razor blade, a pint of rum, and a ton of snacks - always be prepared!! Okay, so back to the what coping method to use - - I change my long sleeve shirt to a short sleeve shirt and look at the scars from the past and the cuts from the last 'session.' This makes me hate me even more, so I slash the arm a couple times. Oh yeah, I've already started stuffing my face, so I'm thirsty now. I drink and drink, eating more and more - 3000 calories in a 1-2 hour period sometimes! Finished with the binging, I spend about 15 minutes cutting up the rest of my arm and consuming the alcohol. Beginning to worry about all the binging, I go pray to the porcelain gods (yes, the toilet) and shove my fingers or a spoon down my throat. I continue to puke until blood comes up. I am also so stupid that I won't have wrapped my arm up well enough (usually with a long sleeve shirt - don't want to bloody up the towels) so I end up getting blood on the bathroom carpet. I get more upset, down more alcohol and make sure I keep puking. When all this is done, I am exhausted. The blood vessels around my eyes have popped, and I look like sh*t. I slip a long sleeve shirt on, partially to absorb the blood (I won't use bandaids or wraps) and to hide the new cuts. Bored and running low on alcohol, I will browse thru the collection of various drugs/pills and sometimes take a few. I like to try different combinations, hoping that one day, on accident, well.... Okay, does it sound like I am screwed up yet?
By the way, this is just the main way I act on weekends and off work/school. At work, I am a top performer and very successful. I have a couple degrees, a high paying job, and am a success coach on the side.
What the hell happens to me when nobody is around?
I don't know what you want me to say for how I ended up that way. I learned at age 9 that you can't turn to an adult, because if you tell them something they dont' want to hear, they won't believe you. That scarred me and taught me to depend only on myself at a young age. My brothers beat the hell out of me and taught me that it was not okay to express emotions or opinions (which I did not do from about age 12 until I was 18). When I turned 17, my favorite brother was killed (yeah, on the birthday). The following year I lost my G-pa who was a key figure in life and a friend committed suicide. When do you think I ended up being fu**ed up? I started cutting when I was 11, but I didn't get really bad until 17....
As far as what I'm going to do about it - I will continue to use my negative coping methods - and see what happens....
2007-04-27 06:58:03 · answer #3 · answered by jennainhiding 4 · 1⤊ 0⤋
Hi,
yes I do consider myself to be "screwed up" i struggle with many forms of mental health issues including depression, anxiety, an eating disorder and trying to come to terms with sexual abuse. I believe I am screwed up, as I blame myself for everything happening...however, if this was someone else's story I would not feel they were screwed up and only have sympathey for them and want to help...however i dont grant myself the same treatment.
To become unscrewed I am seeing a counsellor, who has been a great sense of support for this past while.
Best of luck
x
2007-04-27 08:02:35 · answer #4 · answered by SH2007 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Hi. "Screwed up" way back, but no longer...Sometimes we have to properly evaluate our resources and constraints, both internal and external. If one lives in the "self-help illusion" that we can do and be anything we want, complete with destiny beliefs, this is one way to be very disappointed if our aims/projects are wrong (ex. I want to be a concert pianist, but I have no hands; I want a partner to love me eternally, but I am hostile, and rather unapproachable, etc...) We need not be "victims" of our pasts, btw. Finding projects that are in line with our social and personal ecologies is one way to go IMHO....
2007-04-27 07:04:25 · answer #5 · answered by Artemisia G 3 · 0⤊ 0⤋
I'm 36, I gave up on trying to meet a woman, most everyone thinks I'm a "strange psycho", I'll never get married, I still live at home, I'm a dishwasher & have been for 10+ yrs., I don't drive,....SHOULD I GO ON??? (yes I'm screwed up).
2007-04-27 07:41:50 · answer #6 · answered by strange-artist 7 · 0⤊ 0⤋
Yeah, pretty much. I have Panic Disorder and PTSD, the latter being caused by traumatic events in my childhood. Seeing a good psychiatrist and getting on meds has helped tremendously.
2007-04-27 06:59:24 · answer #7 · answered by Skepticat 6 · 0⤊ 0⤋
No, I don't. I consider myself to have an excellent life with very much luck and many things to appreciate and I do appreciate these things until I think about how much I'd rather I was never born.
2007-04-27 07:35:20 · answer #8 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 1⤋
Screwed "down" would be more correct.
Law: depresses, oppresses, downward.
Law: "both good and evil" has a bad ending.
Law: is natural and spiritual abuse: abusive.
JC healed all "oppressed of the d-evil(law)".
Our Father, deliver us from "evil": Mt 6:13
We are delivered from the "law": Rom 7:6
So then the "allegory" for "evil" is "law".
Problem: law worketh wrath is destructive.
Solution: grace is sufficient is constructive.
Grace cannot lie(law) nor die(law).
Law Law does both: lie and die.
The GRACE of our Lord Jesus Christ with you all. Amen.
2007-04-27 08:07:01 · answer #9 · answered by Anonymous · 0⤊ 2⤋
No. I've been through therapy and am fully "processed". I consider myself to be healthy now.
2007-04-27 09:04:42 · answer #10 · answered by Anonymous · 1⤊ 0⤋