If you have tried or thought about suicide how did you try, or why didn't you do it?

Question

Im writing a term paper on the theories of suicide by major sociologist. I have choosen this topic bc when i was 6 my father committed suicide. I know what its like to be on the other side of the action, but i would appreciate the veiw of a person who actually experienced this thought and what their mind frame and etc.. was.

Answer 1

I tried suicide because I was desperately unhappy and I saw absolutely no light on the other side of the tunnel. When I wasn't free to live without being insulted at school or at home, I knew the only escape was death. That was when I was 14. I didn't think about suicide again until a year ago. I was and still am fighting major depression, and for a moment I was so weary of the suffering, and I didn't have the energy to fight anymore. I just wanted out. I didn't try anything because I knew it was unlikely I'd be successful.

Answer 2

Well in one case a person feels there is no reason to live, it could be any kind of problem. In one situation a lady refused to live, hiding something and did not want boyfriend to find out and felt she would lose him and rather die than lose him to finding what she had done. In this instance nothing else really mattered to her. So I am saying in simple words when a person wants to end it all, they are through with the world and wants no part of it. That why it is so important for a person to know love and be loved. All start off with depressing thought that the world calls depression. They are just not able to cope with this issues they are facing alone.

Answer 3

I've thought about it and gave it a half *** attempt...but apparently you can't drown yourself in the bathtub....

It's too selfish - I have far too many people to piss off and far too many people to make laugh.

Really for me it was this realization that I change people's lives. I mean really I've had people come up to me that I don't even remember and say "hey you remember that time when you .... well it really helped me out" and it's things like that that I live for.

Plus I have too many friends and family that would be hurt.

When I get really depressed I've had suicidal thoughts... they go something like - nobody will notice if you're gone anyways/ the people I care about will be better off without me burdening their lives.

But then I realize that it's not true.

Frankly when I feel I personally have nothing else I want to live for - I think of all the other people I could be helping and who have helped me.

Answer 4

When I was in college, a good friend committed suicide. I was traumatized, I felt that I wanted to do the same.
The reason I didn't was, that I didn't want to pass this evil on to others. I knew that his suicide had caused me to feel that way; I was not about to do the same to others.
"The evil stops here," was the way I expressed it. I struggled with it for some years because I didn't know how to handle grief well, but I did get over it.

Answer 5

I can't imagine how my mother will feel to know that I committed suicide..

I am the oldest of her three sons. Her life was crap till now. My father never knew how to make anyone of us happy. And as a result I grew up depressed and never learnt how to laugh without feeling guilty. The few moments of her married life that she relished were when we were born. She herself told me that we, her three children, are what kept her going till now.

But I am extremely depressed that I want to let go of everything and sleep forever. All the time I was growing up, all I wanted was to was not be like my father. Not be someone who gives so much hurt and pain to those who are his own family.

Now that I want to let go of everything, I am ending up as the exact same kind of person I did not want to be all my childhood. Yet I can't help it. I feel lost and empty. I feel there is nothing to hold on to. In fact I wrote something like a note to her but I just couldn't write anything in there. I know no matter what I write, it will mean nothing.

Also I don't even want to imagine her feelings, I just dont have the courage

Answer 6

This is a very interesting project you have. I would like to contribute if it helps you. I'm not sure that anger issues were not part of the problem stemming from my service in the US Army / Viet Nam. I was determined to have Delayed Stress Reaction, or Post Tramatic Stress Disorder, after my return home. My wife lost a baby after 6 months pregnancy. Testing revealed she had Kidney disease. Her kidneys had shrunk to half their size. She was put on dialysis. Having moved around many places after the war transfered by the railroad company I worked for, they transferred me to Buffalo New York where life seemed to be too much to handle one day. After almost 4 years of dealing with the love of my life going through so much torment and mental illness as a result of the disease, I decided to foolishly put a gun to my head. I don't think my heart was in taking my life because I did not pull the hammer back. Much of the attempt is now missing from my memory because I put it out of my mind. I do remember I was having some sort of disagreement with her and I went to the bedroom and grabbed the gun and said I might as well end it all now. I think she came into the bedroom and grabbed my arm and pulled. My reaction was to shove her away. When I did she fell back onto the glass front gun cabinet. She hit her head on the glass. This made me completely forget myself and my frustration because I was shocked to see her hit her head and I rushed to her rescue. I was so glad the glass had not broken because it may have cut her up. Thank God that didn't happen. That would have been hard to live with and I would have caused it. I don't know if I would have pulled the trigger, probably not. I was having second thoughts when she pulled the loaded 38 Colt revolver from my head. I tried one night laying on hands and asking the Lord to heal her. It didn't work. I finally took her to a faith healer who came to town. His name is Rev. Angely from Akron Ohio. I used to laugh at him while he was on TV, saying he must be a fake and all those people falling down were paid by him to do so. I took her to his revival and got him to lay hands on her and within three weeks she had a Kidney donor and had been on a waiting list not expecting to get a kidney for 3 years at least. He laid hands on me and I went out myself. What an experience that was. I was numb from the waste down and My ears became muffled and my eyes went closed.
I think that is what is called being slain in the spirit. This was a total revelation experience to me and increased my faith one hundred fold. My wife received her kidney transplant but 2 years later died from complications with her liver. When it's time to go nothing stops it.

So I hope this information helps and God Bless your work.
Rev. TomCat

Answer 7

in 5th grade I jumped off the roof of my house and drank nail polish remover! I did it b/c I was depressed & filled w/ anxiety!no one cared about me, not even my family, my older sister told me to go kill myself & Fueled the fire with some of the things she said to me, And when I told my parents they laughed. At school I was bullied by ppl back then so its just like a feeling of having no future, no hope, & being hated by everyone around you, sinking feeling, Pannic attack, the list goes on and on. Its justifiable b/c who could ever love such a f***up. Out of anything ppl will be glad your gone .
~~I'm not like this anymore ^^ thats was just my thinking pattern at the time.

Answer 8

though about it but keep thinking about i will go to hell if i do it.. A person commit suicide because they think there are no more alternative way to solve their problem.. They wish that their pain will go away.. I found that there always a way to solve a problem.. i live a happier life now..

Answer 9

One night I was full of despair. Kinda like nobody loves me, everybody hates me, ya know? I went for a drive planning stupidly to do something dumb when I saw a huge sign that said, "God Loves You". I started crying because I knew that sign was for me. So I went to a friends house and cried on her shoulder for a while then went home.

Answer 10

When I saw this question, I wondered if Hallie Berry has posted it because she was going to attempt it years ago.