Help-Does anyone know why this is happening?

Question

I have this obsession of sorts where all I can think about is my death. You know how when you go on vavcation and it is almost over how you dread going home? That is how I thik. When I look at my husband I think about how getting old will be, depressing stuff, I think about death constantly, will there be a life after death? I feel like I am constantly dreading "death" and the unknown. When I sit at the table and eat with family I think about how this is only "temporary" how one day we will all be dead and we won't know each other anymore.

I have diagnosed anxiety disorder. I take a small dosage of xanax when I have an anxiety attack. I take no other medicatins.

Is this depression? I feel like i cannot even enjoy the "now" as I am already anticipating the end of life in the future., It is not like i am 80 years old either, I am not even 30 years old yet!
HELP!!! Is this a disorder?

IS THERE A NAME FOR THIS DISORDER AND IF SO WHAT IS IT? DO I NEED TO BE ON ANTI-DEPRESSANTS

I have also been lacking energy lately and have been not having the will to do much at all. Mental illness runs in my family. I have seen a psychologist for a few sessions in the past...but I didn't share this with her. I was also told that mental illness being developed at this stage of my life was very rare

Answer 1

I have also been diagnosed with anxiety/panic attacks. I do the same thing. Death in general, or if I start having pains I come up thinking I have an anerism, tumor, heart attack, blood clot. Its awful. I am currrently taking effexor which isn't helping like my past medication paxil. (Paxil made me gain over 40lbs in the past 12 months.) Anyways, you do need to c your doctor, but You have to try to come out of that state of mind on your own. Try inspirational music, books, movies, etc. I felt better about death after reading Tuesdays with Morrie, by Mitch Albom. I also started listening christian music. that helps me too. Okay well hope im of help!

Answer 2

I totally understand what your going through I have been obsessing about death since a very young age and I have also been diagnosed with anxiety disorder and I also take xanax by fiance thinks I'ts all in my head but one thing I have found to help is going to Church and learning more about what happens when we die . It's not the end but only the beginning I never was a very religous person but when my mom died suddenly at the age of 55 from a xanax & methadone o.d I needed something or I was going to go crazy . I still have fears and crazy thoughts but I find peace when I am in Church and when I prey . So maybe if you find the right Church it will work for you too . Just explore your options maybe it's not Church but some other form of faith in something other than your dead your buried the end . I hope this helps .

Answer 3

Yes, there is life after death. I am a Christian, and this is my belief. There is a God, and to every Season, there is a purpose. You are here for a reason... There is also Evil (Satan and his demons... yes, they are real too) that put negativity into our world and help obsess us with death. I think you may have depression going on as well that will make us think how "imperfect" our world is and that our well being is just like a candle in the wind... "What does it matter?, I am only going to die anyways... What's the point in living" ~ You need to go back to your doctor and let him/her know that you are feeling this way.

Getting involved with community work, or volunteering for a cause... Getting EXTREMELY busy with something... finding a hobby, will help you focus on the positive so that you don't have time to think about the negative...

I know how you feel. I have been there and it is really hard to bounce out of this without talking to a trained doctor about your problems.. I found help by praying and asking God for guidance which was MY way of getting out of the deep waters...

I am sorry to hear that you are having these issues. I wish you luck and hope you feel better soon..

Take Care ~

Answer 4

I worked in the medical profession for over 15 years, and I would not presume to diagnose you.

You do sound severely depressed, and you are a high risk person because, while you take Xanax, you don't say you go to a doctor. Xanax is prescription and you should be seeing a psychologist or physician regularly to monitor your use of Xanax and your responses to it. You may need to be on anti-depressants, but possibly not long term. It's hard to tell. You see, the medication won't "cure" you. You have to spend time with a counselor, and I recommend a clinical psychologist rather than a psychiatrist who would try to cure you by medication. You need to face your problems and deal with them so you're not dependent on anti-depressants for the rest of your life like my mother was.

You're so young, dealing with the problems and worries that depress you is a very viable option. We all suffer depression at times, but yours is debilitating.

You probably are not taking enough of your Xanax, but the most important thing is you DO need counseling.

Answer 5

You don't have to be afraid of death if you are confident that a better life is on the other side of it. If you put your trust in Jesus to save you, you can be confident that not only will you go to heaven, but it will be an eternal paradise with wonderful relationships with other people and with God.

The people you know will still be recognizable as themselves, so it won't be like living among strangers. We will be so connected to each other in heaven that our personal relationships here on earth will seem pale and shallow by comparison, an imitation of the real thing that's waiting for us. Death is not like the end of a vacation; C.S. Lewis, a Christian author, compared death to the end of a school year when summer is here at last. It's better than Christmas morning, when you're alive in Jesus.

Read books by Erwin W. Lutzer such as "The Vanishing Power of Death: Conquering Your Greatest Fear" and "One Minute After You Die: A Preview of Your Final Destination." Also "Your Eternal Reward: Triumph and Tears at the Judgment Seat of Christ" and "How You Can Be Sure That You Will Spend Eternity With God" by the same author.

The wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life in Christ Jesus. God has given you a "get out of eternal death free" card; you just have to accept it by accepting Jesus into your heart personally. Once you are connected by faith to the Source of Life, you have that eternal life in you and physical death is only a passage from a temporary life to a permanent and glorious one.

Answer 6

You need to tell your doctor everything you wrote here. That's what their job is-to fix problems. It sounds like depression but I am not a doctor. Don't be afraid to tell him how you feel. You might need a few more meds to make you feel better. If that doctor can't fix the problem don't be afraid to find a new one until your satisfied and feel better. Good Luck and there is a light at the end of the tunnel.

Answer 7

It's just anxiety that manifested itself into a a irrational fear. You really should see a professional to try and get over this. The fact is sweet heart we are all going to die. What a waste of time to sit around and worry about it, at the end all you and anyone has is memories, for you will have none because you won't allow your self to live for fear of dying.

Answer 8

It could be depression or chronic fatigue syndrome. You have to go to your primary care physician for a check up, then get referred to a specialist, probably in neurology. There are many treatments for CFS and they have given many people their lives back. There is no reason for you to continue to suffer like this. Please, for the sake of yourself and your family, see your doctor as soon as possible so you can be you again. Good Luck to you!!

Answer 9

go to ur docs dont be scared they wil understand
its good caus u think u are mad and ur the only one and the doc will think ur mad but actually they c things like this a lot
it could be OCD look it up on google

Answer 10

seek a doctor's help because it is not healthy for your health