Do you think I should end my life and go to heaven?

Question

I hate working at UPS, I am a part-time package handler.I get wrote up everyday. My supervisor and boss yells at me. I get disrespected everytime I go to work. Everytime I look up it is time for work. I make $8.50 a hour and I am 22 years old.

Why is God torturing me. I can't take it anymore. I just want to give up and die. I hate my job, I hate it. I am so scared of life. I am so scared. I just want to give up.

I am in so much debt, from credit cards, and going to Chicago State University.

I owe Chicago State University $5500.00
I owe my credit cards over $1500.00. All I did was buy gas for my car.

I don't have any kids, who is going to take care of me when I get old.

I can't even see my face. I have no clue what my face looks like. I look in the mirror, but I don't think that what my face looks like. It looks a lot different to other people. I have never seen my face.

I hate my job, I hate it so much. I go to work in the next hour.

Answer 1

Suicide isn't going to get you into Heaven. God will come for you when he's ready to take you, if that's today, he'll find a way to get you there. You're only 22 yrs. old, you're still young, you have a lot to live for. Good things come to those who wait and endure. Stick it out or find a new job man, seriously. Financial troubles, everyone has. Pay them down, work something out. Ending your life is not an option at all.

Answer 2

Welcome to the real world we all owe bills we all have bad days but it could be alot worse! Look around everyday someone has it worse than you do! I have a 22 year old and you and him have the same thing in common scared to death to grow up! Dont even want too would rather be taken care and told what to do! Its ok we all have been there and felt the way you do we get up look in the mirror and push our selfs thru the rest of the day. Day by day and realize that it is the little things that will make it all ok you will grow up you will get a good job one day and if you turned your attitude around you probably already have one but with negative attitude that job will not last! Try realizing your cup is 1/2 full not empty. You have a job you have money you have food you have your health and most of all you have your youth you are just starting out your not 50 with a part time job and believe me there are plenty of 50 year olds that would love an oppurtinty to even find a job! Oh and you have a car and you have gas! Cuicidal go to Doctor that in not good thoughts you have brought your self way down being so hard on yourself seek help pull your boot straps on and smile you will be ok! I was! Good Luck!

Answer 3

The first thing I notice is the volume of people that are responding to your cry for help. You can see that there are a lot of people out there that care.
We all have job problems at one time or another. We learn to do our jobs properly and hope that people will recognize our good efforts. If that isn't happening, then we try to find another job with better working conditions and better people.
Debt is also a normal condition of life. We work, earn a living and try to live within our earnings. If we are careful and only spend what we absolutely have to spend, then we can save up and pay off some of our debts. As time goes on, our income increases and we are able to pay off more.
There was a time when my wife and I did not know how we were ever going to be able to pay our debts, but we kept trying and opportunities eventuall came to us allowing us to manage our debts and carry on. I am now in deeper debt than ever but the debt is tied to real estate so the debt will eventually be turned into income.
The last thing is prayer. God knows your circumstances and knows your needs. Ask Him for guidance and comfort and work toward a worthy goal and I am sure that if you don't give up, you will eventually prevail.
Best wishes and never give up.

Answer 4

Well it sounds like you need mental health Help.
But
I would sooner wait until I go naturally I just might win the lotto or the scratchers.
The student loan you just make any good payment that your budget can handle.
Just cut up that gas card and pay it off.
If you can't pay cash you don't go.

You do not make $8.50/hr.
$8.50 X 40 = $340 - (340 X .12 (%) income tax =40.80)
So your take home less than $300.
$300 divided by 40hr = +-$7.50
You need a second job.

$300 is the amount you plan your budget on AFTER you put 10% away for retirement ,, Apx 1 hours pay.
Check with your payroll staff put money in 401's You will get more in your take home because you don't pay taxes on it

22 YO ??? did you burn your bridges to get back home?
Quit being a wimp. Join the military, Or did you mess that up too.

Answer 5

Definatly not. What many people don't know and refuse to believe is that if you commit suicide, you have to come back to earth and live that life again. You'll have a different family and a different enviornment, but the problems will be the same. You will grow up and have the debts, and you will have another deadbeat job. You may not believe this, but lets say, for arguments sake, that it is true. Would you really want to repeat 22 years of your life. Please don't end your life, try to fix it. Even though it seems helpless now, look past all of that. Try and find a new job, one that you would actually enjoy. Get a hobby, play an instrument (guitar works) go out with your friends, try to meet new friends. I'm only 15 and you may ask what gives me the authority to tell you all of this. I have thought of suicide many times, but the pain it would inflict on my loved ones is not something I'm willing to put them through. God is not torturering you, life is a learning experience. You are here on this earth to learn, you are learning about coping with your issues. Please don't give up.
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Answer 6

Work is a hardship sometimes.

If you are struggling with a bad job and considering ending your life over it. Why not end the job? Suicide is permanent your employment at UPS isn't.

Try going after a dream, drop the mundane and reach for happiness. It sounds as if you are already in trouble with money. There is no time like the present to change things.

you need to think about what could possibly make you happy. Write out a plan that might get you there, break it down into manageable daily tasks. AND DO IT.

You have nothing to lose. Now is your opportunity to LIVE

Answer 7

First of all, you are only 22. Second of all, stand up for yourself. If you really hate your job so much, the power lies with you to change it. God isn't torturing you. He is sitting back and letting you take control of your own life, which you apparently are having a hard time doing. You need to quit blaming God and everything else for all your troubles, and take control of your life. Stand up, take a breath, and get out there and fix what you don't like. People all over the world have a much harder time than you. Just do it. Suicide is the most selfish thing you can do and not only that, it is not intelligent. Don't be a failure.

Answer 8

The answer is "No". Suicide is not a Godly act so definitely, you won't go to heaven. The only way to get to heaven is to accept the Lord as your personal Savior.

Try not to look at the negative things in your life. If your life is that bad, you'd be dead by now. Just think of the many unemployed and homeless people around you. Many kids would want to go to college but they don't have the means. They probably want to get a loan but they don't have that luxury. People walk miles because they don't have a car. I bet a million would kill for your job just to have one.

Think positive and focus on your job. Don't give people the reason to yell at you. When you finish college, you will be able to step up. You'll look back at everything you've been through, the experience you've had, and the lessons you've learned and then you'll smile and tell yourself, it's good that you didn't give up. You'll look forward to a life worth living and who knows someday, with a spouse and kids to share it with.

Answer 9

First thing first where did you get the idea it was "your" life, in 1 Cor. 6:19 What? know ye not that your body is the temple of the Holy Ghost [which is] in you, which ye have of God, and ye are not your own?
6:20 For ye are bought with a price: therefore glorify God in your body, and in your spirit, which are God's.
As you see your body is not your own and plus within the ten commandments [Not suggestions by the way] it says THOU [that means you] shall NOT kill [murder] even yourself, turn your life over to Jesus the second member of The Godhead Has a plan for your life, i owe a lot of money too, but trust in Jesus, trials are NOT to tell God about you, He already knows about you, trials are to tell YOU about YOU, also if your a Christ centered persons facing the same problems see perhaps God in you and may be tempted to ask you about Your Jesus, and if you don't know then find out more free bible lessons www.amazingfact.org OR www.itiswritten.com God bless talk to me also [e-mail]

Answer 10

The general idea with Christianity is if you take your own life you do not go to heaven. Instead you go straight to hell.

One thought is why not stop the poor me act and suck it up. If you're not nuts you could join the military and try to actually do some good. Yes you could get killed but it wouldn't be by your own hand and you'd be making a possitive impact on the world in the process.

Besides if you have a college degree the military would start you out at a higher rank. Possible PFC or Specialist.

Something to consider.