idk if i still have feelings for him(this might sound confussing)?

Question

i did someone wrong and i hurt him bad and he told me that he needs time to think and he will talk to me when he calms down which was 2 weeks ago..his friend told me that he told him that he was shocked and that hes nvr been so mad at a girl before..and it will take awhile for him to forgive me but..well i am trying to write an email about what all happened cause before he wouldnt listen to me cause he was so mad but i dont know what to say and i have a awquard feeling(idk how to explain it) and im just wondering do i still have feelings for him i feel like i do cause it still hurts so bad about what i did but why cant i try and fight and say what i want to..well what im asking is this might sound weird but how can i tell if i still have feelings am i just getting use to him being gone or am i just ready to move on..i feel bad because he should be the one questioning his feelings for me but now im questioning them..well anything would be helpful..thanks so much:)

Answer 1

Lisa, lisa, the facts of love... you'll never get over a person... it isn't quite that way... what your dealing with and why it hurts so much is good old expectations. The ones you have for youself and the ones you have for him... your going to have to let go of those, but it does prove you "love" him. But expectations are usually created by our imaginations, by our fantasies, and when you try to put what you want on to reality, well reality checks will pop in.... and that has everything to do with getting over him... not stop loving him, thats an impossiable goal to achieve. You have to forgive him and yourself and except the reality of the situation, but your never going to stop feeling for him. You have memories with him that no one can replace accept you there special and unique to him. You have to understand that love is nothing more then a symbol man uses to sum up the whole way we feel for an object or an entity. So even anger is love, even disgust, and expacially hope.... so this all comes down to the fact that you did something to hurt this guy, who, for what reason, do you even care.... these are all delimas that you must answer for yourself before you can move on with him, or without him. Wish you would of said what it was that mad him so mad, because without know I can't really tell the dynamics of your relationship to give a specific answer.... One thing I guess I can say along with what I've said eariler is that humanity has the ability to love many things, that doesn't make them right in loving them... so maybe if you were able to hurt this guy like you did its only your self-guilt that hurts, not what you did to him... so your just feeling sorry for yourself...